Light At The End Of The Tunnel
Friday, September 28, 2007
 II.9.5
Once again this week, my Saturday is obligated from up to down so, once again this week, I'm posting a day early. Better than a day late, I guess, but as an obsessive when it comes to time and schedule, it still bothers me.
Whenever.
I have more good stuff for you this week, some familar web-poet friends, some old stuff from me (old, because my new stuff sucks), a couple of poems from a book I actually paid full price for, and an introduction to a young San Antonio photographer appearing here for the first time.
So here we go.....

I wrote this late last year. I don't think I ever used it here. It's kind of funny, I think, maybe a good way to start the week.
this is what I learned so far today
little frogs lie for sex
well, how do they do that you might ask
(this is the interesting part)
big frogs have deep bass voices
little frogs have little squeaky voices
though lady frogs don't care the size of the croak, some little frogs learn to deepen their voice so they sound real big and really really frog macho, scaring from the pond much of their competition and leaving all the little green girlie frog darlings for themselves
anyone who's spent an evening at any West Texas honky-tonk will understand the principle immediately

Whatever his faults, Charles Bukowski is still my favorite poet in terms of reading pleasure. His poems are like words thrown against a wall in a rush of passion and excitement. It is that rush I seek to emulate in my own poems.
This is a poem from his last years, with the same passion as before, but moderated now with a bit of an old man's self-awareness. It is from of a series of books of unpublished poems taken from an archive of work the poet left behind at his death. This is Charles Bukowski New Poems, Book 2 published in 2003 by Virgin Books.
Straight On
there's nothing quite like driving the hairpin curves on the Pasadena freeway at 85 m.p.h. hung over checking the rearview mirror for officers of the law while peeling and eating tangerines that sometimes choke you with their pulp, acid, seeds as your eyes fill with tears your vision blurs and you drive from memory and on instinct until things get clear again. finally you reach Santa Anita, the most beautiful race- track, and glide into the parking lot, get out, lock it, walk in. being 68 years old feels better than 30. especially 30, that was the most depressing birthday: you figured then that the gamble had been lost. what an awful mistake you made then 38 years ago, about the time when they built the Pasadena Freeway.

Regular contributor Dan Cuddy is with us again this week, a quieter Dan than we're accustomed to seeing.
Here's his poem.
Winter: Perkiomen, Pennsylvania clock ticks-hand moves-heart pumps snow glistens with sunlight scraping through thin sheaves of cloud
grass, the winter harvest, green, the stubble of grass bearding a dark earth almost, not quite, impervious to foot or tread of wheel, whine of engine laboring as motion is caught in an imperfect stasis by a patch of ice
what traction does foot or wheel have in this fiery frozen universe?
clock ticks-hand moves-orbits
the sun-the galaxy-the string of galaxies revolve in a great silence that we do not hear as the clock ticks-heart pumps-hand moves

This next poem is from Mexico City Blues a book of poetry by Jack Kerouac. The book was published by Grove Press, originally in 1959.
The book begins with this short note from Kerouac:
NOTE I want to be considered a jazz poet blowing a long blues in an afternoon jam session on Sunday. I take 242 choruses; my ideas vary and sometimes roll from chorus to chorus or from halfway through a chorus to halfway into the next
This poem is his 110th Chorus
I know how to withstand poison And sickness known to man, In this void, I'm no apprentice When it comes to remembering The eternity of suffering Quietly I've been through, Without complaint, sensing inside Pain the gloriful um mystery. Afternoons as a kid I'd listen to radio programs for to see the scratch between announcements, Knowing the invalid is glad only because he's man enough to appreciate every little thing that blazons there in the swarmstorm of his eye Transcendental Inner Mind where glorious radiant Howdahs are being carried by elephants through groves of flowing milk past paradises of waterfall into the valley of bright gems be rubying an antique ocean floor of undiscovered splendor in the heart of unhappiness

I wrote this a couple of years ago, after reading an article in the New York Times science section on the contradictions of quantum physics.
in the zen world of quantum mechanics
two diametrically opposed conditions cannot exist at once
Einstein said so
black cannot, in its blackness, be also white
up, being up, cannot also be down
a thing cannot be both now here and there now too
and now cannot be in the moment then and yet as well
but, Einstein was wrong
in the zen world of quantum mechanics black can be white if it wants and updown herethere nowyetthen all blend together in harmonious disharmony
like you
a quantum particle existing in contradiction, loving me, you say, but living like you don't

Next we have a slightly longer poem from the great Polish poet Zbigniew Herbert. The poem is from the book Zbigniew Herbert - Elegy for the Departure and other poems, published in 1999, after the poet's death, by The Ecco Press. The poems and fables in the book were translated from the Polish by John Carpenter and Bogdana Carpenter.
The Death of Lev
I With great bounds across an immense field under a sky heavy with December clouds Lev flees from Yasnaya Polana to the dark woods
behind him a thick line of hunters
with great bounds his beard steaming behind face inspired by the fires of anger Lev flees like a lion to the forest on the horizon
behind him Lord have mercy
an unrelenting line of beaters moves ahead hunters beating for Lev
in front Sofia Andreyevna drenched completely after the morning suicide she lures him - Lovochka in a voice that could shatter stones
behind her sons daughters servants hangers-on policemen Orthodox priests bluestockings moderates anarchists Christian illiterates Tolstoyans Cossacks and every possible kind of riffraff
old women squeal peasants bellow
hell
2 the finale at the small station of Astapovo a wooden knocker near the railway
a merciful rain worker put Lev in bed
now he is safe above the small station the lights of history go on
Lev closes his eyes no longer curious about the world
only the bold priest Pimen who has vowed he will drag Lev's soul to paradise bends over him and shouting above the hoarse breathing the terrible noises of the chest slyly asks - And what now - must run away says Lev - And what now - I must run away
- Where to-asks Primen - Where to Christian soul
Lev fell silent he hid in eternal shadow eternal silence
no one understood the prophecy as if the words of Scripture were not known
"nation shall rise against nation and Kingdom against Kingdom some shall fall by the sword and others be chased into slavery among all the nations for these will be days of vengeance so all that is written will be fulfilled!"
so arrives the time of abandoning homes of wandering in jungles of frantic sea voyages circlings in the darkness crawling in the dust
the time of the hunted
the time of the Great Beast
 Photo by Thomas Costales
It's great this week to introduce another new photographer to you. For the first time on "Here and Now," and, maybe anywhere else, here are samples of the work of young San Antonio photographer Thomas Costales.
Thomas was introduced to photography by his father. As a result, he studied it in High School, then set it aside until about a year ago when he inherited an old Minolta and took the it up again. As a sufferer of persistent insomnia, Thomas found photography to be, not just a creative outlet, but also a productive way to spend those late night hours when he can't sleep.
My usual photographic technique is to find something intrinsically beautiful or interesting, hold my digital camera in front of it and push a button. Anyone standing at the same place and at the same time could have taken the same picture I took. I admire those who go further than that to make art, those artists who can take a camera to something uninteresting and unbeautiful and make of it a unique experience. Thomas does this with his exceptional use of light and shadow.
 Photo by Thomas Costales
 Photo by Thomas Costales
 Photo by Thomas Costales
 Photo by Thomas Costales

It's been way to long since Jane Roken visited us here. Now, making up for her absence, here's one of her new poems.
Starring the Dream of Horses and Angels
In the house of Starlight the clocks run riot and through the garden wild horses roam. So many foals, they grow like ramblers in their sleep; and I too, seek the winding skyways.
I have lit my chandeliers. Now the hour has come to rise and watch the angels. Above the Great Bear I count nine feathered wheels; often my dreams' raptors chase them. With dipped beams they lurk on the barn roof and hum the tunes dripping from the eaves. A smoke-gray mare comes ambling up from the creek and a young foal brings her plumelets.
My thoughts drift fondly across the dial of the clock of stars, my eyes wander over the shapes of horses and angels. In one whistling moment I recall the true dream. She will always be wakeful, whom the stars choose to ride.
(based on reading the Book of Hills and Seas by T’ao Ch'ien)

Our next poem is by Jewel Kilcher, better known as singer/songwriter Jewel. It is from her book A Night Without Armor, published by HarperCollins in hardcover in 1998 and rereleased in paperback in 1999.
Home
Harsh winter falls away with swollen berries. My winter-worn tongue gray with waiting, dull with no color all winter long. Small deep-red watermelon berries full of blue sky and all the unfathomable flavor of spring, tart green gooseberries and peach-colored cloud berries in the fall, wild blueberries on my chin, the blush of cranberries high in their bushes.
Stop alongside the canyon's edge, lose my fingers in the angles of the wild strawberry patch, my hands deep in thorny rose hips and raspberries. Knots of swollen berries sticking to my stained palms.
August spent filling empty milk cartons, canning and preserving the syrups, jams and jellies that would sustain us through another pale December.

I wrote this two years ago about this time of year, mid-October to the end of November, when the Texas hill country has the bluest sky and the best weather in the known universe.
november sky
blue, such blue
a sky to be lost in
deep, like a well glistening with cool water
yet near, touchable almost, like the beautiful girl in a boy's midnight dream
and clear
no clouds, nothing between me and the bright welcome of heaven's gates but clean, open sky
and blue, such blue

This poem by former U S Poet Laureate Rita Dove is from her book On The Bus With Rosa Parks published W. W. Norton & Co. in 1999.
Gotterdammerung
A straw reed climbs the car antenna.
Beyond the tinted glass, golden waves of grain. Golly! I can't help exclaiming, and he smirks - my born-again naturalist son with his souped-up laptop, dear prodigy who insists on driving the two hours to the jet he insists I take. (No turboprops for this
old lady). On good days I feel a little meaty; on bad, a few degrees from rancid. (Damn knee: I used it this morning to retrieve a spilled colander; now every cell's blowing whistles.)
At least it's still a body. He'd never believe it, son of mine, but I remember what it's like to walk the world with no help from strangers, not even a personal trainer to make you feel the burn.
(Most ot the time, it's flutter-heart and Her Royal Celestial Mustache. Most of the time I'm broth instead of honey in the bag.)
So I wear cosmetics maliciously now. And I like my bracelets, even though they sound ridiculous, clinking as I skulk through the mall, store to store like some ancient iron-clawed griffin - but I never
stopped wanting to cross the equator, or touch an elk's horns, or sing Tosca or screw James Dean in a field of wheat. To hell with wisdom. They're all wrong: I'll never be through with my life.
 Photo by Dora Ramirez
Beki Reese showed us a new side of herself last week with a very sensual love poem. To prove last week wasn't a fluke, here are two more.
Without words communicating without words in hot mist and moonlight - I'll write my poems across your shoulder down your spine inside your sighs.
Full Body Kissing
Given a chance I would hold you close, seeking your mouth with mine while every other inch of me strained toward you.
Longing for a full body kiss I would pray for clothes to melt away in the blazing reach of skin for skin, lips and hands and tongues afire.
Quench this need with the cool of you, Rain kisses on my neck and breasts as I give in to whispered intent like the slow surrender of stone to water.
Let arms and legs and sex entwine as desire slips beneath melding skin. Let me savor that full body kiss as all our surfaces disappear
and we two become an entangled one.

The next two poems are by Wesley Mather from his first book Into Pieces published 2003 by iUniverse Inc.
An Ocean Death
Waves of salty sea like mercury lap at the abandoned sailor's sun-chapped lips
Caught in a net of circling hungry sharks the sailor in a forgotten place combs his hair with baited dreams.
Long he waits watching for the gritty beach which never comes over the horizon He remembers the smell of a perfumed neck that his fingers never got to touch
He lives in a time lottery decorated with golden mountain mirages
He wonders, "Why did I choose the sea when some little woman might have me this very day in the grip of her purple painted grin?"
Long minutes disguised as days pass by intolerable and static
At long last the sailor begins to sink allowing the cotton strands of his lungs to soak
"It is not a shame," he asserts, "to die in the clammy embrace of the bloated and lovely ocean."
Tower Work
Way up there on a galvanized steel tower that overlooks not very much
A slum of an alcoholic neighborhood a field ready again for the plow
And up there so much bird shit everywhere bright green and purple varieties because these birds are pranksters Your hands become coated with the stuff Why so much shit?
Because the birds of prey Have all gone away and left all the little ones to flourish

We haven't seen much of our good friend Alice Folkart, as she has struggled with the transition from Californian to Hawaiian. But she's back now, with this new poem.
Moon Viewing
Usually I'm asleep by now, but dog wanted to go out. I had to go. Can't let the dog wander about the village alone. He'd stop in all the bars and everyone would buy him drinks. He'd be a sorry sight when someone brought him home at last.
But, I digress, this was to be about the moon and the ink-blue sky tonight, the piled-up clouds banked as if to keep the moon's fire alive, washed-out blue and silver, gleaming edges of tumbled cumulus turreted into the night sky's deep blue-black, no stars daring to show themselves in competition with luna.
But, now dog wants to go in, I'd like to stay out, to watch the moon inflate, not go to sleep like some lumpkin buffoon and dream of dogs drinking beer.

I was back in Austin last week, looking into buying a car to replace the old, much-used Volvo that expired at last. Having been led to a Suburu Outback with all the cargo space a musician might require, I took it to a Firestone store down the road to check for hidden problems. While waiting for the mechanic's report, I walked across the street and browsed through a B. Dalton bookstore. What I found was The Outlaw Bible of American Poetry, a compilation of most, if not all, of the outlaw poets of the last half of the twentieth century. The collection was edited by Alan Kaufman and S.A.Griffinpublished by Thunder's Mouth Press in 1999. (And, yes I actually paid full price for a book.) With over 600 pages of poetry, it's not likely I'll run out of material from this source soon.
The first poet I picked from the book is Harold Norse. Norse published twelve volumes of poetry, a cutup novel, Beat Hotel with a preface by William Burroughs, and an autobiography, Memoirs of a Bastard Angel, with a preface by James Baldwin. Norse is considered one of the major figures of the beat generation. He also knew and was a very great admirer of one of the first outlaw poets, William Carlos Williams, as he expresses in this poem.
William Carlos Williams
I want to thank you for the pink locust & the white mule for the keen scalpel that carved memorable poetry
those silvery lines will shine on like a harvest moon thru infinite trees
you pulled a jazzy native song out of the womb of America
meant to be heard like a jukebox singing pop tunes we can't forget your sound
I want to thank you for being alive although you're dead & buried where the Pasaic runs by the parks & Jersey dumps - your bailiwick! thanks for singing of used car lots & the broken brain that tells the "truth about us" your surgical cool fingers cut thru formal literary crap labeled PURE AMERICAN
I see you at the door in Rutherford clutching my shoulders in welcome, eyes flashing as we sit & talk till the light is gone you wring your hands & paw the ground like a racehorse on the skids smelling death
you pace and whinny you are coltish amazingly round your high voice agitated Jee-zus! what clean hygienic genie inhabits your anguish! old age disease the black earth in your throat
but that green flower your asphodel still flourishes
Thanks for our famous garden party in the backyard with roses
we sat hearing a concrete mixer the radio blaring from the army surplus store
appropriate measure for the language you never tired of - not English - but plain American speech that you loved as much as the stinking dumps & immigrant women of your landscape
"I'll experiment till I die"
what heaven do you experiment in now? is the asphodel blowing in the junkyards of God? abandoned chariot wheels rusty & clogged in the "variable foot"?

Another writer featured in the The Outlaw Bible of American Poetry is Jennifer Blowdryer who took her name from a punk band she performed with in the seventies. She eventually became well-known in the underground as a poet and a monthly columnist for Maximum Rock 'n' Roll. Her books include Modern English and Where Is My Wife?
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EXPERIENCE AS TRICK JOB DESCRIPTION: Eating dinner for $30 , while appearing fascinated with complex real estate maneuvers executed by dinner partners. Locating exit of several good restaurants. In charge of own wardrobe.
REASON FOR LEAVING: Had already had dinner with all the men at the Swingers club, saw no specific career motivation for following up any further with any of these men.
REFERENCES:Frank and John.
JOB DESCRIPTION: Active participant in world of pornography.
REASON FOR LEAVING: Refusal to have sex or "show anything" in front of cameras conflicted with career goals of producton staff. Paid with immediate dismissal.
REFERENCES: Mark "10 1/2" Stevens, Harold Adler, Annie Sprinkle.
JOB DESCRIPTION: Wardrobe in Pornography world. Outfitted stars Sharon Mitchell in cute fifties gowns, giving them a fey thriftstore look. Was in complete charge of making sure lingerie matched, and operator of Polaroid for lingerie continuity. Also aided docudrama crew on Crystal Methedrine wash as much money as possible in an abbreviated time period.
REFERENCES: Film with no title in metal strong box in Germany, with my stage name on the credits.
SHOWBUSINESS EXPERIENCE. JOB DESCRIPTION: Singer in Punk Band. Supervision of infighting in band, location of connector chords, location of nightclub where performances were scheduled. Part of job entailed being in charge of equipment relocation, and an acquired ability to take in and retain large qualities of alcohol, tobacco, and both recreational and serious drugs.
REASON FOR LEAVING: Flight from key member of band down three stories coinciding with extremist lesbian separatist views developed and maintained by other band member.
REFERENCES: Anyone in San Francisco, California, who looks like they have been around entirely too long.
JOB DESCRIPTION: Thespian and writer of underground movies. Created works with titles "We're not Carol Burnett," "Blackie-O!," and "Suicide Line." Theme of works was a warped view and twisted outlook. Unrealistically hoped that these works would phase into being perceived as a normal and manipulatable commodity by persons with more money than myself or my friends.
REASON FOR LEAVING: Aging naturally didn't meet with the rigorous standards of my Producer, who watched in shock and horror as I proceeded to turn first 21, and then 22.
REFERENCES: See Above.

Since we last read our intrepid French traveler, Blaise Cendrars, he has traveled north and is now in Canada.
The poem is from the book Blaise Cendrars Complete Poems, translated by Ron Padgett.
The North
I. Spring
The Canadian springtime is the most invigorating and powerful in the world Beneath the thick blanket of snow and ice Suddenly Generous nature Tufts of violets pink white and blue Orchids sunflowers tiger lilies Down the venerable avenue of maple black ash and birch The birds fly and sing In shrubs budding again with new and tender shoots The happy sunlight is the color of anise
Woods and farmlands stretch away from the road for ovr five miles It's one of the biggest pieces of property in Winnipeg On it rises a solid stone farmhouse something like a manor house This is where my good friend Coulon lives Up before daybreak he rides from farm to far on his big bay mare The earflaps of his rabbit skin hat dangle on his shoulders Dark eyes and bushy brows Very chipper Pipe on his chin
The night is foggy and cold A hard west wind bends and sways the firs and larches A small glow is spreading An ember crackles It smolders and then burns through the brush Clumps of resinous trees thrash around in the wind Wham wham huge torches bust The fire moves along the horizon with a majestic slowness Black trunks and white trunks turn blood red A dome of chocolate smoke out of which a million burning bits and sparks are flying spinning upward and sideways Behind this curtain of flame you can see massive shadows twisting and crashing to the ground Resounding axes chopping An acrid haze spreads over the incandescent forest which a gang of lumberjacks are circumscribing

This next poem by 1990 Nobel Laureate Octavio Paz is from the book The Collected Poems of Octavio Paz 1957-1987, edited and translated by Eliot Weinberger and last published by New Directions Books in 1990.
Ootacamund
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In the Nilgirl Hills I went looking for the Todas. Their temples are cone-shaped and are stables. Thin, bearded, impenetrable, they milk their sacred buffaloes murmuring incoherent hymns. They guard a secret from Sumeria, not knowing that they guard it. Between the thin, dry lips of the elders the name of Ishtar, the cruel goddess, shines like the moon on an empty well.
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On the verandah of the Cecil Hotel, Miss Penelope (canary-colored hair, woolen stockings and walking stick) has been saying for thirty years: Oh India country of missed opportunities,,, Above in the fireworks of the jacaranda, the crows happily cackle.
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Tall grass and low trees. Uncertain ground. In the clearings the winged termites construct tiny Cyclopean castles. Homages in sand to Mycenae and Machu-Picchu.
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Leafier and more brilliant, the neem is like a ash: a singing tree.
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A vision of the mountain road: the rose camelia tree bending over the cliff. Splendor in the sullen green, fixed above an abyss. Impenetrable presence, indifferent to vertigo - and language.
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The sky grows in the night, eucalyptus set aflame. The charitable stars not crushing - calling me.

And now here's another friend we haven't heard from in a while, Jack Hill, with a new poem. I couldn't decide if this is about a real earthquake or a shorthand summary of a love affair? I asked Jack and he told me, but I'll never tell.
The earth moved
I was roused, awakened to an uplifting elation; an earth moving feeling of exuberance, alive in a rush of excitement!
It is It was it's over.
I settle back and wait the next.

It's time again this week to return to the poetry journals of Julia Alvarez. These are from her book, Homecoming, published in 1984 by Grove Press.
Where are the girls who were beautiful? I don't mean back in the olden days either, I mean yesterday and the day before yesterday? Tell me, if you can, where will I find breathless Vivien or Marilyn, her skirt blown up? Certainly Natalie, struggling in the cold waves, deserved to be fished out when the crew finished and given her monogrammed beach towel and a hot drink. How many times didn't we pay good money to see them saved from worse catastrophes as they trembled in swimsuits on the brink of death, Rita and Jean, Lana and Joan, Frances, Marlene - their names sound like our own.
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The women on my mother's side were known for beauty and were given lovely names passed down for generations. I knew them as my pretty aunts: Laura, who could turn any head once, and Anna, whose husband was so devoted he would lay his hand- kerchief on seats for her and when she rose thanked her; there was Rosa, who got divorced twice, her dark eyes and thick hair were to blame; and my mother Julia, who was a catch and looks it in her wedding photographs. My sister got her looks, I got her name, and it suits me that between resemblance and words, I got the right inheritance.

Ellen Achille is another web-poet friend we haven't seen in a while. Well, she's back this week with a love note to her husband.
Poem for my Husband
We glide past each other submerged vessels enclosed in our own worlds. Breakfast at the coffee table is taken in rounds: newspapers, nods, refills. Somewhere else, sky touches down. But we are surrounded by ordinary air - All day we breathe it. Somewhere else, sea touches ground. I can almost hear its rising and falling its thrumming syncopation churning in air. At times we meet like that, waves tonguing the shore.

My copy of Harper's Anthology of 20th Century Native American Poetry, appears to have been used for assigned reading in a college level literature or poetry class. There are penciled in notes throughout, commenting on style, analyzing every word, searching for hidden symbols or metaphors in every line. It is funny sometimes, this extended academic deconstruction of such a simple and beautiful poem as this one by Linda Hogan.
Hogan is a Chickasaw Indian and the author of several books of poetry and a collection of short fiction. At the time this book was published, she was an associate professor in American Indian and American Studies at the University of Minnesota, on leave completing a novel.
Celebration: Birth of a Colt
When we reach the field she is still eating the heads of yellow flowers and pollen has turned her whiskers gold. Lady, her stomach bulges out, the ribs have grown wide. We wait, our bare feet dangling in the horse trough, warm water where goldfish brush our smooth ankles. We wait while the liquid breaks down Lady's dark legs and that slick wet colt like a black tadpole darts out beginning at once to sprout legs. She licks it to its feet, the membrane still there, red, transparent the sun coming up shines through, the sky turns bright with morning and the land with pollen blowing off the corn, land that will always own us, everywhere it is red.

I wrote this poem a year ago and probably used it here then. The awful thing about the poem is that now, a year later, I can post it again and it is as relevant as when I first wrote and posted it a year ago.
call me when it's over
while yellow ribbons grow gray and dingy on trees and fences along our city streets and country byways, our leaders do stupid, evil things on our behalf, killing thousands, some strangers, people unlike us in so many ways it's easy to forget the ways we are alike, foreign strangers who only sometimes fit within the confines of our compassion, and others we know, so akin to us and all we hold close they could be our neighbors and children of neighbors
and we have become resigned to the inevitability of more flag-drapped coffins and caissons passing to muffled drums and more blood and burns and bones protruding from rendered flesh
and walking with the dead, the others, forever scarred by their country's maledictions
oh, we protest and we write letters and we talk among ourselves and we organize for the next election, when, even now, we suspect we will lose again to some backslapping, bible- thumping right wing blowhard who will lie and lie and lie as they all lie until the truth becomes the lie most often quoted by the blow-dried pencil necks on Fox TV
we have a government of fools, some are saying now who never said it before, "they lie," they say, round-eyed in innocent surprise
"they did not think this through," they opine, ever so sagely and with wounded remorse
where were these people at the beginning, when the lies were just as clear and the fools just as obvious in their power-shrouded dunce-capped splendor
where were they then when it could have made a difference to all those now dead, lying in pieces on a bloody roadside
apologists then, hangers-on to power, they never chopped a head, just stood before the guillotine, changing baskets as each new head fell
and what of us who knew from the beginning
where were we, then, and where are we now
proven right, but content in our righteousness to wait for another election we figure we'll probably lose
when this started, I read the names and hometowns of all the new dead every day, thought about them and their families' loss
I usually skip that now and go straight to the comics

In homage to the original outlaw of American poetry, Walt Whitman, the book The Outlaw Bible of American Poetry begins and ends with poems by him. A very good way to end this week's issue of "Here and Now" is with those two poems.
At the beginning, Whitman wrote:
Shut Not Your Doors
Shut not your doors to me proud libraries,
For that which was lacking on all your well-fill'd shelves, yet needed most, I bring. Forth From the war emerging, a book I have made, The words of my book nothing, the drift of it every thing, A book separate, not link'd with the rest nor felt by the intellect, But you ye untold latencies will thrill to every page.
And in the end, Whitman wrote:
Poets to Come
Poets to come! orators, singers, musicians to come! Not to-day is to justify me and answer what am for, But you, a new brood, native, athletic, continental, greater than before known, Arouse! for you must justify me.
I myself but write one or two indicative words for the future, I but advance a moment only to heel and hurry back in the darkness.
I am a man who, sauntering along without fully stopping, turns a casual look upon you and then averts his face, Leaving it to you to prove and define it, Expecting the main things from you.

Summer isn't over here, but it's close enough to over that mornings are cool and clear, good weather for people-watching under one of those umbrellas on the Riverwalk. Maybe a poem or two will walk by and give itself up for next week's issue.
Until then, remember, all material within this blog is the property of its creators. The blog itself was produced by and is owned by me - allen itz.
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Dear Editor - another flaming success. Thanks for the introduction to so many new poets and idea. Especially liked the elderly Bukowski because I've never much liked him before - too taken up in things male. But, here, he's just a human. Liked also your frog poem, perfect ending - a honky tonk full of very dressed-up frogs (can't be responsible for my imagination). Especially liked your photos (some might be of California, which I miss) and the photos of Thomas Costales - I feel an immediate connection because I have dreamed that one of the loading dock, the one with a slight green tinge to the light - looks like the mouth of Hell, doesn't it?
Anyway, and I liked seeing my poem there, which looked better than it did the first time around. There's magic in Here and Now. And, of couse, Ellen's poem ties me in knots, isn't that the way of a marriage? She is a fine poet!
Thanks,
Alice Folkart
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You Don't Need A Weatherman Friday, September 21, 2007
II.9.4.
Welcome to "Here and Now" on this 4th Saturday in September.
To begin, I'd like to say, I like it when readers take advantage of the comment opportunity at the end of each "Here and Now" issue. For one thing, it's the only way I have of knowing, other some dry statistical stuff the web host gives me, that people are actually reading this thing.
I especially enjoyed the comments of Lenny from Leamington SpaNearStratford upon Avon in England last week. In addition to saying nice things about "Here and Now" (aw, shucks) Lenny cleared up my confusion about the painting that made a prominent appearance in the Thomas Crown Affair remake of a couple of years ago.
I was sure (well, almost) that the painting was by Marcel Duchamp. Lenny corrected me. The painting is by Rene Magritte.
I am relieved now to definitely know two things about art. One, the Thomas Crown painting was by Rene Magritte and, second, the Mona Lisa was by Leonardo DeCaprio.
Seriously, Lenny, thanks for writing. I invite anyone who has a thought they might want to share to do the same. If you have some work coming out or if you have a blog of your own you would like to tell people about, feel free to do it in comments.
No commercial ads please and no random screams of obscenity. All that kind of stuff does is put me to the trouble of deleting it. (I have to do that every once in a while on the 7beats website which has its own comment page.)
As to this issue, I have, again, lots of good stuff. I complained last week that I hadn't had time to search for web poets to feature here. No problem this week. This week we have lots of our web-friends showing their stuff.
On with the show! (OK, that's corny. Try doing this every week and you'll discover as I have that not only does the occasional corny cliche come in mighty handy some time, sometimes it's the best you can do. )
David Kelly is our first poet this week. He is also a first-timer at "Here and Now." I met David at one of the first Monday night readings at La Taza Coffee Shop on San Antonio's northside. That's also where I first heard his presentation of this poem.
About himself, David says, I am a thirty-one year old writer, illustrator, sculptor, and composer, and as such am forced to make my living with an insurance company. Oh yes, it is a career built on the blood and misery of my fellow humans, but it pays well. This should be a clue to the direction my moral compass points.
My ability to shoot myself in the foot is unparalleled outside of Wiley Coyote, and I often do so with rather meager tools. Never the less, it is my modest hope to one day rule this universe.
We all need a hobby.
Here's David's poem.
Metric Memories
How well I remember the Alamo
Rental car clerk whom I could not convince
Or persuade to return my deposit,
And then there was the U2 incident
When that shit-for-brains security guard
Whacked me hard in the head with a bottle.
You recall the day they sent Sputnik up
To Las Vegas and he lost everything
But his mother's fine old borscht recipe?
That reminds me, the titanic sinking
Of the thirty foot putt on the sixteenth
In heavy drizzle, thank you very much!
Just where were you when Pearl Harbor got bombed
And told everyone sitting at the bar
I was just out of Leavenworth prison,
Or that fateful day at Hiroshima
Where they added my bill up oh-so-wrong
And I paid seventeen bucks for a spring roll?
I shall never forget the Bay of Pigs
On the first day of truffle season....
Oh yes, I'll say it again, vive le France!
Tino Villanueva was born in San Marcos, Texas. He had a variety of work experiences, ranging from migrant farm work to assembly line construction of furniture, before completing his education. He received his BA at Texas State College under the GI Bill (see "Old Main" pictures from a couple of weeks ago), then went on to receive a Masters Degree at SUNY-Buffalo and a doctorate at a Boston University. He is the author of three collections of poetry and is, as well, an accomplished artist with work featured in El Paso, West Berlin, and Boston.
The following is his introduction to his book of poems and prose,Scene From the Movie Giant. He first saw the movie when he was fourteen years old and the casual anti-Mexican racism of the movie, especially as it was expressed in one particular scene, had a great impact on him. He explores his reaction to that scene in his book, published in 1993 by Curbstone Press.
It will probably help to understand Villanueva and his work if I add that, when I started college at Texas State University (it was Southwest Texas State University at the time) in 1962, the little city of San Marcos (pop. about 3,500 - the University which was about the same size has grown about tenfold since) was informally segregated, not through any act of law but through social history and convention.
from Scene From the Movie Giant
What I have from 1956 is one instant at the Holiday
Theater, where a small dimension of a film, as in
A dream, became the feature of the whole. It
Comes toward the end.... the cafe scene, which
Reels off a slow spread of light, a stark desire
To see itself once more, though there is, at times,
No joy in old time movies. It begins with the
Jingling of bells and the plainer truth of it;
That the front door to a roadside cafe opens and
Shuts as the Benedicts (Rock Hudson and Elizabeth
Taylor) their daughter Luz, and daughter-in-law
Juana and grandson Jordy, pass through it not
Unobserved. Nothing sweeps up into an actual act
Of kindness into the eyes of Sarge, who owns this
Joint and has it out for our dark-eyed Juana, weary
Of too much longing that comes with rejection.
Juana, from barely inside the door, and Sarge,
Stout and unpleased from behind his counter, clash
Eye-to-eye, as time stands like heat. Silence is
Everywhere, acquiring the name of hatred and Juana
Cannot bear the dread - the dark-jowl gaze of Sarge
Against her skin. Suddenly: bells go off again
By the quiet effort of walking, three Mexican-
Types step in, whom Sarge refuses to serve....
Those gestures of his, those looks that could kill
A heart you carry in memory for years. A scene from
The past has caught me in the act of living; even
To myself I cannot say except with worried phrases
Upon a paper, how I withstood arrogance in a gruff
Voice coming with the deep-dyed colors of the screen;
How in the beginning, I experienced almost nothing to
Say and now wonder if I can ever live enough to tell
The after-tale, I remember this and I remember myself
Locked into a back-row seat - I am a thin, flickering,
Helpless light, local looking, unthought at fourteen.
(I haven't quite figured out how I'm going to continue this story within the limited format of "Here and Now," but I intend to find a way.)
Photo by Dale McLain
We welcome Dale McLain back to "Here and Now" with a look at paradise in both photographic and poetic form.
port of call
Off the scalloped coast of Brewer's Bay
I offer my gouache bones to the sea,
narrow blades and arcs beneath my tan.
This water owns me as it owns millions
of mirror-scaled fishes and anemones.
My heartbeat mimics the docile waves,
a syncopated affirmation; I am here.
The seabed is smooth, so close, I wonder
about the need for air. Could I stay
within this perfect blue, a glint
of sunlight or a ripple in the sand?
My cocktail waits, coconut
and Callwood, the local libation.
I am just a day-tripper, another migrant
with sandy feet. It is impossible
to remain, not all of me, only the part
that is rooted, a slender white cedar
on the cloudy crest of Sage Mountain.
I picked up another book at the used book store last week, The Collected Poems of Henri Coulette, published by the University of Arkansas Press in 1990.
Henri Coulette was a Californian to his core, living in that state all of his life except for military service and a short time in New Mexico. He published only two books during his lifetime, The War of the Secret Agents in 1966 and The Family Goldschmitts in 1971, which, through huge error was accidentally shredded in the publisher's warehouse and never properly distributed. He wrote almost nothing after that event and gradually faded from view, until near the end of his life when he wrote fifty new poems. Unpublished at the time of his death in 1988 at 60 years of age, they are included in this book under the title he had planned for them, And Came to Closure. The poem below is from that previously unpublished series.
At the Graveyard
for Minnie Patterson (1875-1971)
We have come a little early. Minutes away in the small town
You painted your pictures of, where you wrote your cheerful
verse
They are turning the screws of a gray coffin. Your coffin.
We wander among the headstones, killing time, saying what
we have said
All day, What a beautiful day, meaning the high clouds, the
high wind,
The blue there is no name for, except sky, except beautiful.
We have come to the stones of the far side, the stones of the
last century.
There are so many children here, and here is a man born in
Damascus -
A Country Doctor for 40 years to our County -
And his wife - Clara, a Descendant of Jonathan Edwards.
The day is beautiful, the sky is blue, the clouds are clouds
You cannot read anything into. They are simply clouds.
The hearse comes down the highway, and turns, and stops,
We make our way toward you, past the Lieutenant of'
Cavalry,
The Native of Iowa, Our Beloved Father, His Sweet Child.
I was in Austin for several days last week and took advantage of being there to go downtown to listen to a band Chris plays in. I wrote this, bleary-eye, the next morning.
Austin, 6th street, 1 am
still
a good crowd out
mostly
twenty-somethings
from the University
enough business
to keep the bars
open
and the bands
playing
I came down
to listen to one
particular band
and enjoyed
their first set
but it's awful
damn late
for an old
guy
so I'm heading
back
to my hotel
to hit the sack
can't help
as I walk back
to my car
thinking back
40 years
when 6th street
after dark
was a good place
to get VD
or stabbed in the back
and not much else
it's all changed
now
6th street
means
neon lights
and music
and let's face it
some weird looking
kids
and cops
on horses
keeping it
mostly quiet
and clean
for several
blocks around
the actual street
itself
and this late
with the tourists
gone to bed
and the state
people and the
business people
in town for meetings
gone to their rooms
to drink it's a quiet
scene, mellow,
and young -
the only people
I see my age
are begging
quarters
and cigarettes
left-over
vague-eyed
burned-out
hippies
who took a
trip
in 1965
and never
made it back
it's a trip
for me too
being here
watching
the scene
remembering
things change
but they always
stay
the same
that's been my
experience
Photo by Jessica Reyna
Jessica Reyna is a San Antonio art student whose work we've featured before. Her images previously featured were taken with her trusty , newfangled digital camera. These new photos are from her first shoot using a 50 year old Argus C-3 restored by John Strieb and obtained from his collection.
photo by Jessica Reyna
Photo by Jessica Reyna
Photo by Jessica Reyna
We will be seeing more of Jessica's photos in weeks ahead, both digital and from her newly acquied antique.
I had intended to continue to post several more sections of The Coast of Texas by Gilberto Sorrentino. (I posted the first four sections a couple of weeks ago.)
But, rereading the poem, I realized if just doesn't work broken into pieces and spread over a period of weeks. So, instead, I'm going to use this stand alone poem. The Coast of Texas and this poem are both in Gilbert Sorrentino, Selected Poems 1958-1980, published by Black Sparrow Press in 1981.
A Poem to Read in August
We sang plenty old songs then
Let me
Tell you.
There is a moment at which you
Must know that things
That are gone
Are gone. Ah, the alacrity
With which
They puncture the heart.
In the meantime: with pussy
willows, gladioli, narcissi,
honeysuckle, forsythia, crocus,
peach, plum, and cherry
Blossoms, spring comes.
Check.
Fred Longworth is with us this week for the first time.
Fred has been published in hardcopy in The Pacific Review, Pearl, California Quarterly, and numerous others. He has also appeared in many online publications as well including Stirring, Strong Verse and Melic Review.
He lives in San Diego and restores vintage audio components for a living and is, he says, a youthful 60.
Don't Waste Time on First-Rate Women
Leave a two-dollar wine bottle uncorked
in a hot garage next to an open can
of paint thinner, and it's still happy
I prefer it over flat beer.
A trailer park makes a finishing school
look like sandpaper without grit.
If kids couldn't handle being alone
overnight, the human race would die out
in a generation.
Sweetie knows a store that trades good weed
for WIC coupons. Deuce, five, six, nine,
jack. No discards. No draws.
I used to raise orchids in Antarctica.
Now, I water weeds, let the garbage man
pick up the trash. I sit alone in a forest
on a pew in a church of pines.
Our next piece is by California poet and storyteller Doc Dachtler. It's from his book ....Waiting for chains at Pearl's. The book was published by Plain View Press in 1990.
I wish I could use the title piece to this book, but it's much too long. Instead, here's this.
What You're Good At
We were working calves through the chute
that laid them on their sides.
The Cowboy doing the cutting was 73 years old.
He explained soft and low to them
while operating with a small pocket knife
shaving sharp.
See, Don, you want to cut the cord with little slashes so
it's kinda rough; heals better, doesn't bleed too much.
Lotta fellas get in a hurry here and it don't pay.
A stainless covered pot was filling with castrations
in cold water
Ever had 'em in scrambled eggs? he asked.
No.I said.
Nothing like 'em! Then we'll have a good cup of Irish
coffee!
We'd been working since 6 am in a bare oak cold February
drizzle.
You know, Don, they heal up better if the sun's
shining.
We were leaning against the fence taking coffee.
It was 10:30 am.
A shiny Ford Bronco drove slowly by the corral.
A man and woman in the back seat were talking
and pointing at us.
The cows bawled for their calves.
The realtor had on a Stetson or equivalent hat
with a plastic rainguard. It was nodding happily
because part of the sale was local color.
We didn't feel picturesque when the Nikkon came up
as the window rolled down
and the Bronco crunched gravel to a stop.
How's the branding going?
We're not branding, we're cuttin'.
said one of the ranch hands
tipping back his shit smeared hat.
The old cowboy folded up his arms, spit of shot of Skoal
over the split rail fence in their direction and commented
the first time that day on his disappearing range;
I guess if you ain't good at anything else, why, you can
always sell real estate!
The window rolled back up.
The bronco bucked its way up the hill.
We went back to work.
Sicard Flat Rd.
February, 1985
I'm happy to have Bernard Henrie back with us this week. Bernie lives in the Mojave desert. He can be read frequently on the Writers Block workshop forum using "Mohave" as his screen name.
Vocabulary and Spelling
Words come to me with shining eyes an lie underfoot
until an essay or party drags them into the kitchen
where I work, or when I am alone in the car, the radio
blocked by a mountain.
Onomatopoeia, for example, the wicked jackanapes,
or the suggestive nature of orotund, the cool dignity
and galactic calm of subrage. The black confusion
of syzygy. The fresh gale wind of the wassail,
the charabanc ridden in by plump Dylan Thomas.
The upstart popinjay at the next desk I cannot abide.
Grok and gurning, droogish of course. -
words given to us by God for some purpose
that we cannot always remember or spell, but words
that rest like books at the lending library
we plan to visit one day and to use in our next essay.
Even while my wife demands I remove garbage bags
or paint almost everything, I am already being disloyal
with these words that make my life rich. I open my arms
to receive their windy currents and wine like kiss.
And here's one I wrote last week while waiting for AAA to pick up Chris' permanently disabled car.
on the one hand
I'm at my son's house
on the south side of Austin
that's old Austin,
with small houses,
in what could be seen
as a forest of oak and pecan
beyond the trees
in the not too far distance
I hear the rattatattat
of hammers,
carpenters
framing some new structure
on South Congress
it's the sound of jobs,
pay checks,
groceries on the table,
sitting in the front yard
having a beer after work.
college dreams fulfilled,
the sound of middle class
American good life,
proud workers
and secure families
it's also the sound
of trees
bulldozed,
hills
scrapped flat,
wild life
displaced,
habitat destroyed,
acres
irreplaceable
hill country beauty
stripped bare
on the one hand
this
and on the other
that
so pick
your poison,
frying pan
or
fire
Now we have another little mystery by John Ashbery from his book And the Stars Were Shining published in 1994 by The Noonday Press.
Linda Gregerson in The New York Times Book Review referred to Ashbery's "capaciousness of spirit." That is the perfect word to use for his style and his poetry.
The Story of Next Week
Yes, but right reason dictates... Yes, but the wolf is at the door,
nor shall our finding be indexed.
Yes, but life is a circus, a passing show
wherein each may drop his reflection
and so contradict the purpose of a maelstrom;
the urge, the thrust.
And if what others do
finally seems good to you? Why,
the very civility that gilded it
is flaking. Passivity itself's a hurdle.
So, lost with the unclaimed lottery junk,
uninventoried, you are an heir to anything.
Brightness of purpose counts; Centesimal
victorious flunkeys seemed to grab its tail
yet it defied them with invention.
Stand up, and the rain
will be cold at first in your pockets.
Later, by chance, you'll discover supper
in the sparkling, empty tavern.
A nice, white bed awaits you;
your passport's in there too.
I'm also very pleased to have Beki Reese back with another of her love poems. Beki is director of the short form forum on the Blueline website and she is most often seen working with various ku forms. As this poem demonstrates, her talent is not restricted to those short forms.
Between the Silence and the Dawn
Between the silence and the dawn
words lie waiting in the shadows;
the barest whispers of my desire,
longing wrapped in a thin black coat.
I cannot sleep for wanting you,
your absence leaves a tender ache
that settles deep between my thighs.
My desire throbs to the beat of my heart,
pulsing your name like fire through my veins.
My fevered skin yearns to bare itself
to the quenching cool of your quick tongue,
to quiver-leap beneath your touch.
I long to dance a slow slip-slide,
warm and wet against your length.
Then when the moment is just right
I want you to discover me
with careful kisses and deep intent.
Chase my words back into shadows,
leaving only passion moans behind.
Urge me far beyond inhibition,
sink me into breathless sighs
until I collapse, weak and spent.
Leave me dreaming of what lies behind
doors I've yet to walk through with you.
Now we have a piece from W. Joe Hoppe, a transplant from Michigan to Texas and currently teacher of English and Creative Writing at Austin Community College.
This poem is from his book Galvanized published this year by Dalton Publishing.
Stanley Marsh's Cadillac Ranch
Amarillo, TX
The path to the Cadillac Ranch
is littered with fireworks carcasses
Fourth of July just a weekend past
barrages of bursting colors
must have been wondrous
within warm darkness
Not a bit like the blanched dome
I'm kicking up dust beneath
where even the brightest
of spray painted fluorescents
are sucked right in
to the baked steel surfaces
Of ten Cadillacs buried nose down
tailfins fanned across high Texas plains
from the first sweet swooping of 1949
rising the rear fender
like a fighter planes rudder
through '50, '54, '56, '57, '58, '59, and '62
to the sharp space age point of 1963
a triangle's ting to those halcyon days
Scrawled with Magic Marker testimony
by entire families - from France, Germany,
Australia, and Tennessee -
each member making his own signature
picture a kindergartner on her father's shoulders
"Ashley" laborious across a Coupe DeVille's rooftop
This afternoon's pilgrims walk
with the same reverence
found at Graceland or Indianapolis Motor Speedway
alone for a moment I circumambulate
turning busted tires like prayer wheels
For a mantra driven through differential gears:
O America All That You Were
O America All That You Are
And here's another one I wrote while waiting, this time waiting at a coffee shop for a lightning bolt to come crashing out of the sky with a poem for me carried on its sizzling spear point.
a crazy business
this poetry
is a crazy business,
practiced
at the whim of forces
unknown and unpredictable
poems seem
to fall from the sky
on a schedule all their own,
like solitary raindrops
on a cloudless day,
some half formed and some
complete
as they land with a
deeply poetic splat
on the white page before me
some days a storm
and others like the driest desert
of a waterless world,
and I never know
at the start of a new day
what kind of day
it will turn out to be
every day I wait
for the day to reveal itself,
trying
not to try
to do it on my own,
for that is the error of presumption,
believing that I am the creator
and not just the beneficiary of these words
that fall from the
sky
Now, a poem by William D. Barney, thirty-five year Postal Service employee and former Texas Poet Laureate. The poem is from A Cowtown Chronicle, the ninth and last of his books of poetry.
In his eighties in 1999 when this book was published by Bowder Springs Books, he has since died.
A Birthdayful of Beard-Tongues
Oakhurst: Scenic Drive
The beard-tongues rise out of the limestone bluff
just as they did a half century ago
when I was a boy wandering on these hills.
The same of crumbling rock, the calcareous soil
have not changed. Soft rains and warming sun of April
unlock their chemistries and a swarm of flowers
covers the slope, this year in profusion.
I do not remember the passing of years.
Who that is part of the sea recalls every wave?
They arrived, surged through, moved on
much as that ancient ocean did, laying down
this chalk. I too entered this world one April
and have been ever since a disciple of green.
Only the calendar tells me on this day
I am sixty-five, and the histories say
not many times more will I find these towers
lifting their tinted bells. No difference
to them nor probably to me if they
still celebrate a good time to be born,
to spring up from the fertile earth
and silently peal the change of season.
They will not toll for any; their own delight
is their mission. Nor need they. Not far off
he will not hear, who saying his nunc dimittis,
took part of this richness where he went.
And even again I'm pleased to have Tina Hoffman back with us this week with a new poem.
Postcard from the Aegean
Dear one,
I hope you will forgive this trespass
so far from you, this trip
to blue seas and whitewashed homes,
whispered prayers in tiny chapels,
marbled rocks in the shape of gods
mesmerized by the slant of the sun.
I never thought apart from you, I'd find me
but I'm here, heady and overflowing
as pots of basil hung with honeysuckle;
in gray-green hills and prickly pear bushes,
in wild jasmine breezes and endless vineyards
where I sip from a never empty cup -
here is the essence of all I long to feel.
Ikaria, rocky island tomb
where escape means certain death
with singed wings of feathers and wax;
today I die, today I melt,
but my god, the thrill of flying free!
Last week, I featured an opening piece from Marfan by Peter Reading. In my introduction, I mentioned the mystery of the "Marfa lights." Here, from the book, is more information on the mysterious lights.
fromMarfan
One evening, back in 1883,
Robert Reed Ellison was with his wife
herding a bunch of cattle across the basin
from Alpine towards Marfa, heading west,
and, sundown coming on, stopped for the night.
As he made preparations for the campfire
he glanced up and was mystified to notice
lights flickering to and fro across a valley
along the side of the Chinati Mountains.
Assuming it was Apaches on the move,
he catnapped clutching his Winchester till dawn
when the weird incandescence fizzled out.
A short time after that, a young surveyor,
man by the name of Williams, was out mapping
round the same spot and saw the same strange lights.
His journal records how "Indians of this region
believe the luminosity to be
the restless spirit of the dead Apache,
Chief Alsate."
Nearly a century later,
The Houston Chronicle dispatched Stan Redding -
"Check out this Marfa story; let's just see
whether there's anything in it." As he drove
along a dirt road near Paisano Pass,
Redding observed the Marfa Mystery Lights:
The darted about the ground - red white and blue,
orbs, baseball-sized. They blended into one,
then separated. One of them would zoom
high into the air, then plummet into the brush,
then rise on instant later and spin away
crazily. Unsuppoeted and unattached,
each one illuminated the black-brush clump
over which it hovered.
Tonight, off 90 East,
a curious ignis fatuus fulminates....
Alex Stolis returns again this week with the third of his series inspired by the Tarot deck.
Card II
The High Priestess attends a Masked Ball
she believes rain dulls the edge of unhappiness and in a world
out of practice with silence, she wants to forget about words
and float beyond form or thought. she wants to sharpen
the oval face of sound, imagines herself as confessor,
the quiet muse, a journal. promising to leave nothing
to chance, she'll hold secrets speechless against her breast.
she will be the keeper of lock and key while night suffocates
the last light under a blanket of stars. she believes it's possible
to pretend herself into solitude, possible to cover small
indiscretions with a laugh and murmur thrown in the right
direction. she wants to fall in love with no consequences,
teach the moon to recite her name - a prayer for the dying.
From The Same Sky, A Collection of Poems from around the World, published by Aladdin Paperbacks in 1992, we have this poem by Stella Ngatho of Kenya.
Footpath
Path-let.... leaving home, leading out,
Return my mother to me
The sun is sinking and darkness coming,
Hens and cocks are already inside and babies drowsing,
Return my mother to me.
We do not have fire-wood and I have not seen the lantern,
There is no more food and the water has run out.
Path-let I pray you, return my mother to me.
Path of the hillocks, path of the small stones,
Path of slipperiness, path of the mud,
Return my mother to me.
Path of the papyrus, path of the rivers,
Path of the small forests, path of the reeds,
Return my mother to me.
Path that winds, path of the short-cut,
Over-trodden path, newly made path,
Return my mother to me.
Path, I implore you, return my mother to me.
Path of the crossways, path that branches off,
Path of the stinging shrubs, path of the bridge,
Return my mother to me.
Path of the open, path of the valley,
Path of the steep climb, path of the downward slope,
Return my mother to me.
Children are drowsing about to sleep,
Darkness is coming and there is no fire-wood,
And I have not yet found the lantern:
Return my mother to me.
Now we have a piece by Tony Hoagland from his book, donkey gospel published by Graywolf Press in 1998.
Mistaken Identity
I thought I saw my mother
in the lesbian bar,
with a salt gray crew cut, a nose stud
and a tattoo of a parrot on her arm.
She was sitting at a corner table,
leaning forward to ignite, on someone's match,
one of those low-tar things she used to smoke,
and she looks happy to be alive again
after her long marriage
to other people's needs,
her twenty-year stint as Sisyphus,
struggling to push
a blue Ford station wagon full of screaming kids
up a mountainside of groceries.
My friend Debra had brought me there
to educate me on the issue
of my own unnecessariness,
and I stood against the wall, trying to look
simultaneously nonviolent
and nonchalant, watching couples
slow dance in the female dark,
but feeling speechless, really,
as the first horse to meet the first
horseless carriage on a cobbled street.
That's why I noticed Mom,
whispering into the delicate
seashell ear of a brunette,
running a finger along
the shoreline of a tank top,
as if death had taught here finally
not to question what she wanted
and not to hesitate
in reaching out and taking it.
I want to figure out everything
right now, before I die,
but I admit that in the dark
(where a whole life can be mistaken) cavern of the bar
it took me one, maybe two big minutes
to find my footing
and to aim my antiquated glance
over the shoulder of the woman
pretending not to be my mother,
as if I were looking for someone else.
Here's a small little bit from me that I wrote last week while waiting for someone in a place featuring beautiful floral arrangements scattered all around.
a gift of love
flower
in a tall glass vase
dying
OK, that little piece really is too dark to be the closing poem for the week. Instead, let's do this - might be some fun.
the night I got chased out of Mexico
this
is a story
about the time
I got chased out of
Mexico
by a posse
of Mexican taxi cabs
I was a young guy
just old enough
to get a taxi license
and I was driving
cab
on the Texas side
of the border
I picked up a fare
outside
one of the hotels
who wanted
to go to Mexico
and I said
hell yes
cause it was about
35 miles
and at 35 cents
for the first mile
and 10 cents a mile
thereafter
it was a pretty good
pay-off
of which I'd get
a third
which never was
a helluv a lot
most nights
but better for a
trip
like this
so we headed out
down 281
for Matamoros
through Brownsville
and across the bridge
from where I knew
how to go two places
boys town
about which we
will speak no more
and the central plaza
which was close
to the mercado
and lots of good
nightclubs
good food
music
and floorshows
with sometimes
naked women
and that's where
the fella I was
carrying
wanted to go
so we went there
and I dropped
him off at the plaza
and while he paid me
I noticed all
the Mexican cabbies
giving me the eye
and I noticed
when I left
some of those
Mexican cabs
started following
behind
and then I noticed
I had ten to fifteen
Mexican cabs
riding my back
bumper
and I said to mysel
oh shit
I screwed up
and the way
they were following
close and honking
it looked pretty clear
that they were
pissed
about whatever
it was I did
so I took off
for the bridge
as fast as I could
trying to remember
as I flew
which of the many
one way streets
in Matamoros
were going my way
and which were going
to either get me lost
of back to the plaza
where more trouble
was sure to be
waiting
and when I reached
the bridge
I tossed my 8 cents
bridge toll
to the Mexican
border guard
without
hardly stopping
when I got back
my dispatcher
told me the rules -
cabs don't cross
borders
fares are dropped
at the bridge
where they can
walk across
and get a local
cab
so
I really felt dumb
and never did that
again
though one time
I did pick up a guy
at the bridge
who had been in
jail
in Matamoros
for three days
and was beat
all to shit
and bleeding and
barely conscious
I took him home
and dropped him off
at the hospital
and his friend
who had gone
to Matamoros
to get him out
of jail
and had ridden
back with him
gave me a $3
tip
which was pretty
good
for the time
Time to pull down the tent, rinse out the ice chest and head for home.
Until next week when we will return with more poets, more images, more.... I guess that's all, since that's only what we do.
As usual, "Here and Now" is owned and produced by me, allen itz. All material contained herein remains the property of its creators.
good stuff, Allen - but, where's the 'short, mean poem?' - flower in a vase? That's mean? You got my hopes up, and now, they're dashed!
But, thanks for the introduction to so many wonderful writers. And, super pictures too - really like the ladder.
Alice
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Shades of Summer's End Saturday, September 15, 2007
09.03.07
Welcome back.
We can see the end of summer coming now, never too soon for a summerphobe like me.
I was working at my ocassional job the past couple of weeks, so haven't had time to troll through the on-line workshops for web poets to feature like I usually do. The consequence of that is you will see more of me in this issue than usual. Sorry.
But we do have a good line-up of other great poems for you to read. Here's the first.
It's hard to think of any better way to start this week, or any other week, then with a few lines from Walt Whitman. These particular lines are from Song of Myself, the poem written in 1855 which began the first edition of Leaves of Grass and was included at or near the first of every subsequent issue of Whitman's masterwork.
from Song of Myself
50
There is that in me - I do not know what it is - but I know it is in me.
Wrench'd and sweaty - calm and cool then my body becomes,
I sleep - I sleep long.
I do not know it - it is without name - it is a word unsaid.
It is not in any dictionary, utterance, symbol.
Sometimes it swings on more than the earth I swing on,
To it the creation is the friend whose embracing awakes me.
Perhaps I might tell more. Outlines! I plead for my brothers and sisters.
Do you see O my brothers and sisters?
It is not chaos or death - it is form, union, plan - it is eternal life - it is
Happiness.
51
The past and present wilt - I have fill'd them, emptied them.
And proceed to fill my next fold of the future.
Listener up there! what have you to confide to me?
Look in my face while I snuff the sidle of evening,
(Talk honestly, no one else hears you, and I stay only a minute longer.)
Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself.
(I am large. I contain multitudes.)
I concentrate toward them that are nigh, I wait on the door-slap.
Who has done his day's work? who will soonest be through with his
supper?
Who wishes to walk with me?
Will you speak before I am gone? will you prove already too late?
52
The spotted hawk swoops by and accuses me, he complains of my gab
and my loitering.
I too am not a bit tamed, I too am untranslatable,
I sound by barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world.
The last scud of day holds back from me,
It flings my likeness after the rest and true as any on the shadowed wilds,
It coaxes me to the vapor and the dusk.
I depart as air, I shake my white locks at the runaway sun,
I effuse my flesh in eddies, and drift it in lacy jags.
I bequeath myself to the dirt to grow from the grass I love,
If you want me again look for me under your boot-soles.
You will hardly know who I am or what I mean,
But I shall be good health to you nevertheless,
And filter and fiber your blood.
Failing to fetch me at first keep encouraged,
Missing me one place search another,
I stop somewhere waiting for you.
I did this one last week. I'll bet Whitman never had this problem.
toast
it's done
it's
over
I've had this
itch
of a poem
in the back of my head
for a week, now,
and it won't come out,
won't
formulate itself
as black letters on white paper,
it just hangs back there
somewhere
right behind my left
ear,
taunting me,
with what a great poem
it would be
if I could just catch it
and write it
down
well,
enough of that
I put it to the test tonight,
sat here
for forty-five minutes
blank white screen in front of me,
waiting,
and nothing happened
that's it,
this poem is
toast
Time for some fun with Shel Silverstein. This is from A Light in the Attic published by Harper & Row in 1981.
Blame
I wrote such a beautiful book for you
'Bout rainbows and sunshine
And dreams that come true.
But the goat went and ate it
(You knew that he would).
So I wrote you another one
Fast as I could.
Of course it could never be
Nearly as great
As that beautiful book
That the silly goat ate.
So if you don't like
This new book I just wrote -
Blame it on the goat.
When we last read Blaise Cendrars a couple of weeks ago, he was in the south United States in a swamp he talked about in his poem Vomito Negro. (Which I looked up to discover it means exactly what it says, black vomit, an affliction of persons in the last stages of yellow fever. It is also the name of a rock band - can't you just wait to hear what they've got to sing about.)
We will finish his southern journey, happily out of the swamp lands, with three poems, all from the book Blaise Cendrars Collected Poems, translated by Ron Padgett and published by the University of California Press in 1992.
IV. Spanish Ruin
The nave is in the 18th century Spanish style
It is all cracked
The damp vault is white with saltpeter and still bars some traces of gold
leaf
The lantern beams fall on a mildewed painting in the corner
It is a Black Madonna
Thick moss and poisonous striped dotted beaded mushrooms cover the
stone floor of the sanctuary
There is also a bell with some Latin inscriptions
V. Golden Gate
The old grillwork provided a name for the establishment
Iron bars thick as a wrist which separate the drinkers from the counter
where bottles of every kind of alcohol are lined up
Back when gold fever was at its height
When women from Chile or Mexico were auctioned off right and left
by slave traders
All the bars had grillwork like this
And the bartenders came with a drink in one hand and a pistol in the
other
It was not uncommon to see a man killed because of a drink
It's true the grillwork has been left there for show
Just the same the Chinese come in for drinks
Germans and Mexicans
And also a few Kanaks off little steamboats loaded with mother-of-pearl
copra tortoise shell
Chanteuses
Atrocious makeup bank tellers outlaws sailors with huge hands
Vi. Oyster Bay
Canvas tent and bamboo chairs
Now and then on these deserted beaches you see a hut with a palm roof
or the skiff of a Black Pearl diver
Now the country is completely different
As far as the eye can see
The beaches covered with shining sand
Two or three sharks are sporting in the wake of the yacht
Florida slips below the horizon
You take a golden Regalia from the ebony end table
You break it off with your fingernail
You light it voluptuously
Smoke smoke smoke smoke spirals away
Making his second appearance in "Here and Now" we turn now to another taste of San Antonio writer, Robert Soto.
Mute
Daylight burning, searching gray skies, never killed before. This time everything will be different in the mirror of my youth, but it never is. Scanning the horizons for definitions in my obstacles. Trapped behind well stocked bars always helped before, or at least that's what the company that I kept said. Black and white photos blur out the subtle shades of lacerated souls. Later, they become fire in front of a microphone recording the words I wanted to scream. All we heard were echoes anyway. Selected sobriety soften the pain of telling the truth to myself. Your strictest critic is your beating heart, counting down like a time bomb that doesn't explode, it just stops ticking. and I tally up all the people I just talked to but never really communicated with. But what's the point in counting when the numbers either go in circles or spiral out of sight. Weathered eyes weep with wanting, but learn not to look back. Sometimes taking the pain is better than numbing with addiction. Until pain becomes addicting that is. I'm at the opposite side of I-10, and interesting enough every thing's different now. Real change comes in being. Somewhere stillness bleeds under a street light. Everything you wish for is lost in traffic, the fog of life's rush hour. Cathedrals and street sweepers acted as alarm clocks rattling the walls of one room apartments. The waking sleep of days down the drain keep me up at night. If regrets came with mute buttons bars would close earlier.
Speaking of rants, here's a world champion rant by Audre Lorde. The poem might be a little stale since the subject of the rant is dead. But, since his death was no great loss to anyone we'll pretend, for the sake of the poem, that he's still alive.
The poem is from the anthology Making Callaloo, 25 Years of Black Literature published in 2002 by St. Martin's Press
Jessehelms
I am a Black woman
writing my way to the future
off a garbage scow knit from moral fiber
stuck together with jessehelms
come where Art is a dirty word
scrawled on the wall
of Bilbo's memorial outhouse
and obscenity is catching
even I'd like to hear you scream
ream out your pussy
with my dildo called Nicaragua
ram Grenada up your fig hole
till Panama runs out of you
like Savimbi aflame.
But you prefer to do it
on the senate floor
with a sackfull of paper pricks
keeping time to the tune
of a 195 million dollar
military band
safe-sex dripping from your tongue
into avid senatorial ear-holes
later you'll get yours
behind the senate toilets
where they're waiting for you jessehelms
the white boy with their pendulous rules
bumping against the rear door of Europe
spread-eagled across the globe
their crystal balls poised over Africa
ass-up for old glory
your turn now jessehelms
come on it's time
to lick the handwriting
off the walls.
Some years ago, I was appointed by a local judge to fill a vacancy on the County Child Welfare Board. It was a one year appointment, filling the unexpired term of a board member who had left. When the time came for reappointment to a full term, I declined. Too many children born into hell, living in hell and dying in hell, so much misery without there seeming to be any way to stop more than a small portion of it.
This poem by Paula Rankin reminds me of that experience. The poem is from Rankin's book Augers published by Carnegie-Mellon University Press in 1981.
For the Child Drowned in the Well of Black Water
Once I defined drowned childhood
by child starlets I saw on TV,
fame come upon them so early
that they believed all the fan mail,
pouted when on-the-set-private tutors
pushed multiplication tables,
pitched fits if off-stage mothers
fixed tuna for lunch
The day your mother brought you to me
she marked an X where her name should have filled
the blank granting permission for field trips,
Welcome, Teresa, come in, I said, offering a hub
you backed off from so fast
I saw the outstretched are
must speak differently to each of us.
You spoke to no one for months.
How many days I hid you in the bathroom
pinching nits from your hair, bathing you
in warm sink water, pinning a ribbon
in your strawed hair, easing what I could
of your smell of acrid, dried urine. You never spoke
but grinned, baring all your rotten teeth, knowing
that for one day, no one would shove his chair
away from you, no chants of "she stinks"
would machete the wax in your eardrum
When you finally talked
I found myself praying you wouldn't,
that I would miss some minimal bliss
of ignorance. You talked about fathers,
how yours walked in brand new every week, sometimes
two or three times in one day,
and that once a father who stayed a whole month
actually learned your name
and brought you a book of paper dolls
you still slept with, having never snipped
them from their backgrounds of slick whiteness.
My one hope was that you were a pathological
liar. But you weren't, and then how I needed
to teach you of other rooms
some people grow up to live in,
where supper is often tuna or a cheap grade
of ground beef, but doors are left open
for entries, exits, some approximation of love.
While all the other children were way beyond names,
could mimic Dog, Cat, Snake, any shape of holiday,
all you gave me were sheets filled with T's aimed
in all directions. All this high purpose of mine
failed so long ago that some nights I can barely
remember your face. I try not to ask
if you have a new collection of fathers
all of whom know you by name
for one night, and leave ten dollars
on the table for the privilege.
If so, I hate them most of all
because they use a name
you never wrote on a page where T's collided,
a page I still hold
in shaking hands as if fingers could braille
the secret of how you have come to be
whoever you are,
as if I could go to your mirror and stare
until glass melts into a well
of black water, where objects take turns
floating up to the surface - dolls, jump ropes,
skates, a grosgrain ribbon, a snag-tothed grin,
then plummet for their and final drowning.
Went through a couple of rain showers a couple of days ago, bringing me to this.
after the rain
I drove
in hard rain today,
twice,
each time for a distance
of only about a quarter mile
then back into bright sunshine
it was like that Dogpatch character
with that wonderful Al Capp name
I can't remember now,
carried his own rain cloud over his head
every where he went
I have days like that
but today wasn't one even with the rain
because as I drove out from under
each rain cloud
I was treated to a different kind of rainbow,
different
because they weren't bows at all
but a splash of color across the sky
in a straight line
I don't know what you'd call
something like that
but they were special and
made the day
a little special too
Next on our list of poems for this week is this piece by Alaskan meatcutter/office manager/poet Arlitia Jones. It's from her book The Bandsaw Riots published by Bear Star Press in 2001.
The Apologist
You never flinch when I come late to bed,
chill on my skin.
I slip in sneaky as a hound through a cracked
door to find you awake, waiting.
Under our quilt your body warms like a banked fire.
You're rubbing my arm
so I know you're listening, focused
as any man who works with his hands, patient
as an man who lives by his faith.
Do you remember telling me how
you set windmills in Nebraska?
You could hold two copper wires,
one in each hand, and pace the ground,
until you found the buried waterline.
When you stepped directly over it
the wires crossed of their own will.
I believe you now when you say you can do this,
witch water from the blind ground,
tap the pure stream running deep.
Your hand travels my hip and still
I'm talking it out.
Always something in me wants the world to be
different than it is: a level ground where,
the right tools in our hands,
we have the courage to use them, where together
we find the fountain-head
of what is possible, where the poem, written
for love, is the source of everything.
The next piece by James Laughlin is from an anthology of his work The Secret Room published by New Directions, a publishing house Laughlin founded in 1936 while still an undergraduate at Harvard. It is from a longer piece, Byways he was still working on when the book was published in 1996, one year before he died at age 83.
Doors
(A divertimento from Byways)
I often find myself thinking about doors.
Open doors and closed doors. In our house
The back door is usually left open so that
Rupert, our dog, can get in or out
Without barking, or Allen, the hired man,
Can come in for a glass of water on a hot
Day, or when the UPS man comes in his
Truck with a package. But the front door
Is almost always locked. Uninvited
Visitors must ring the bell. This gives
Us time to peek out a window to see who
They are and whether we want to see them.
At night both doors are locked though
There has been no crime in our village
Within my memory, but you never know,
The way things are in this country now.
The house doors are really not very
Interesting. What's more important are
My internal doors: the door to my
Heart and the little trapdoor in the
Back of my brain in which poems
Come through.
My heart-door is like a revolving
Door, the kind you find at banks or
Big hotels. That door has been
Revolving steadily for nearly
Sixty years. It opened first when
Verna, the little girl who lived
Next door, pulled me into the woods
and let me play with her nipples.
Since then my heart-door has been
Almost constantly revolving. This
May sound unfeeling but I can no
Longer recall all the pretty ones,
And some not so pretty, who have
Set that door to swinging, around
And around.
Because there's usually a surviving
Scrap of paper with a poem, or part
Of a poem on it, I find it easier
To keep track of the movements of
The secret brain-door in my head.
It doesn't revolve. It's like a
Trapdoor that works up and down.
It's not very large, a mouse could
Barely get through it.
The first time it opened was when
I was about thirteen, my first year
At boarding school. The door opened
And out came a rhymed sailor's chantey,
As subject I'd copied from John Masefield,
Who was then poet laureate in England.
With pride I took to to my teacher,
Mr. Briggs. He read it quickly and
Tore it up. "Young man," he said,
"This isn't poetry, it's just verse."
The door in my brain snapped shut.
Since then the brain-door must
Have opened a hundred times.
Mr. Briggs is long dead but I can
Still see his eyes glaring at me
And hear his barked rebuke. Open
And shut, open and shut. Time
After time it's only verse. That
Little door is my guillotine.
Laughlin also did a lot of wonderful little short pieces, especially as he grew long in age. Before we leave him, here's one.
The Calendar of Fame
"Farewell, farewell, my beloved hands"
Said Rachmanioff on his deathbed:
And Joseph Hofmann, the great pianist,
Invented the windshield wiper
From watching his metronome.
Genius that I am, all I can do
Is hit the wrong keys on my typewriter.
With the music Johnny Cash made in the last ten years of his life, he transcended all musical genres. If if ever felt the need to describe to someone the essence of the country I grew up in, the one that seems so diminished now, I'd just point that person to those recordings. I have them all and listen to them frequently. That's what led me to this.
listening to Johnny Cash
makes me believe,
not in god,
I am too much
a rationalist
for that,
but in the possibility
of an alternate
universe,
seen through
his eyes
created through
his faith,
where god is present
and accounted for
in the lives
of people
like you and me
if I was picking
gods
I'd want the one johnny cash
talked to
in his songs
The next poem is by Brian Blanchfield from his book Not Even Then, published by The University of California Press in 2004.
The Weremen
When Mister Ya
cried in my hands
great tears as new as mine,
but like a doll's too.
Joseph Rock, the botanist,
who made Lijiang his base
for expeditions in 1922,
a magazine's man in China,
who for twelve years
hired four coolies a day
to carry his makeshift divan,
who wrote it off
and sent the Smithsonian
thousands of specimens of
shrubs and even orioles,
which mean love, who dressed
in white, which meant death,
always, and had personally
seen blue sheep in Tibet,
had personally taught
him his first english.
My name translates into a word
that means blue, but
it's only phonetic.
By virtue of his brushwork
and knowledge of the classics,
Teacher Ya headmastered
the village's school
and lost fourteen years
of prison's worth of mind.
In ten days, I could not freely
remember why I was not
whom he was sure of.
He showed me Rock's old pliers
and started me on two primers
of the Na Xi dialect, inscribed
to Student Blue. In earnest,
lessons into the chirping night
kept me. Like Zhuang zi, was I
one butterfly's worth of man.
I remember I had a shameful
wet dream in the cinderblock
hostel about lying about
pressing against a wall others
peed on, and stomach pains.
Then, earlier always
than I, was Ya at the door
with magnesium tea and
instructions for going
up a mountain,
where, at what possible time
of day! only the underbellies
of leaves were lit in an ardor
every green begins to mean,
and for coming down to find him
who shone at the bottom,
whose elbow I learned to hold
through town a pace behind,
whose students' children gave us
persimmons they had grown
for his moving past, but whispered,
whose white moons in water
under branches on rice paper
were political in ways
I do not feel as Chinese
feel. Anew, his tears. And in those
full, occluded moons
I struggle personally to find
the sky under which I
was a white man waving
which meant leaving him,
unconvinced of the end,
even of the poem I'd not slept
to write against the hostel desk.
It scared me to teach it.
I was as old as he was
when Rock left to die - far off,
at home. With gardens in his name
The Senator from Idaho got a lot of people thinking about a lot of things a couple of weeks ago. Here's my drift on the subject.
the senator
the senator
exposed himself,
the self
he kept hidden
from everyone he knows,
the self
he let live and breath
only among strangers
and the echoing tiles
of public restrooms
how sad
it is to live
an incomplete man,
concealing a hidden life
from family
and even from closest friends,
denouncing the life
in others
you must always deny
in yourself
the senator
exposed himself
and was ashamed,
and it is in that shame
where lies
the the tragedy
of his life
This next bit by Stephen Berg is hard to describe. It is from Berg's book Porno Diva Numero Uno.
The book is an internal monologue made up of 36 numbered pieces that, read consecutively, form a narrative inspired by an imaginary encounter with the artist Marcel Duchamp. Sometimes the text speaks to Duchamp, sometimes it speaks in Duchamp's vice.
Each of the pieces can also be read separately as a kind of excerpted moment in the monologue. The pieces are dense, poetic and often startling in imagery and (a warning) language. It is not work lightly read.
I'm an art illiterate, so my knowledge of Duchamp's work is mostly limited to the painting used to good effect in the remake of The Thomas Crown Affair (much better than the original in my opinion) and even there, though I'm sure that was a Duchamp, I wouldn't bet more than maybe $20 that I'm right.
This particular piece of the monologue concerns another Duchamp painting, The Bride Stripped Bare with a scene (seen through a peephole) of woman, headless and naked, lying legs spread on a bed of twigs.
(I should add that the first word of this section, "cure," stands on its own and is not a continuation from the earlier section.)
33a
cure...finally he admitted that the light-on-light theme could
be seen as the entrance to hell as in Kafka's "We human beings
ought to stand before one another as reverently as lovingly as
we would before the entrance to Hell." after all it is you stand-
ing there in full possession of your powers abandoned mobile
and her abandoned perhaps even slain vulnerable if only to your
gaze which she cannot see motionless into eternity although
snapshots of all the paraphernalia the makeshift boards wire
nails bulbs and other shit behind it is a lesson in creation I have
heard those who feel she is a religious figure caught in an atti-
tude of prayer of course this goes unrecognized beseeching all
and everyone completely given over to her task of waiting sur-
render like St. Teresa inviting God into her her task of mystic
affliction which seems to use the epitome of possible pleasure
disgust whereas she is in another world of her own we fail to
realize as ours fail to share standing there seeking what she has
already found I think see what we interpret and fail to see her
condition of easy rapture we look at her release and are aware
of our attitude of high-minded scrutiny and recoiling surprise
the word fuck scrawled across our ideals subway graffiti follow-
ing her right leg up into the cunthole then fairly sharp right
along the other leg up bent and beyond her lamp the composition
of the trees and sky and beyond that always beyond where the
human voice begins to falter and fade and evaporate and anoth-
er ignorant outcry the heavens us as if it were a problem but
why finally he sang getting too old getting too old in the begin-
ning God in the beginning the word amnesia my cure for amne-
sia eye holes the space of darkness the exploded brick frame then
this incredible girl being given to you mere image uttered
Coleridge passion upon passion until the light's nothing but
light given to you as all is
33b
no voice among the voices of ignorance I need to give love love
might be the one among so many whispering ignorance igno-
rance ignorance what do I really know how can I dare to speak
Socrates talked himself to death on this road the road leading to
silence the platitude of silence how can a man teach this to a
man or an angel teach it to a man or to an angel Augustine sang
his prayer to God and Time friends age and die so far always
somebody else stunned by the body's change could it be that
beneath the daily men death and ignorance have made a pact to
destroy us or in the right frame of mind save us the way I placed
the lighted body of the female across our path of sight in a
country setting but with a door in front of which suggests a
house which is not there creating depth and shock almost like
stumbling on a carcass one sunny afternoon on the way to a pic-
nic (or finding her left like that after a chance meeting) I would
like to be the I that can sing about death and love ignorance
time to inspire people to live but what is the song? which
words? what order? "Be not daunted thereby nor terrified not
awed. That is the radiance of thine on true nature Recognize
it" who said that?
Here's a short piece by Tupac Shakur from the book The Rose That Grew From Concrete published by MTV Books after his death in 1999.
Carmencita of the Bronx
u saw innocence at its best
I wanted u more that I wanted me
I remember my last thought at night was of u
and my first thought in the morning was of u
It has been a long time since I've actually
sat and adored u but every once in a while
your beautiful smile guides me through a day
I hear u R with another and u R expecting
I wish you good luck he is lucky 2 be able
2 wake up 2 u each morning
c u in heaven!
I wrote this one last week also. Again, too much news.
commies need to make a living, too
Gorbachev,
back cover of Time Magazine,
full page,
riding in a limo,
the Berlin Wall,
or something that looks like
the Berlin Wall,
visible through the back
and side windows,
former ruler
of the second most powerful
nation in the world, former finger
on the button that could unleash
Armageddon, possessor
of a nuclear arsenal sufficient
to destroy this world
ten times over
selling high-priced
luggage
now
from the back
of a rented limousine
he doesn't look happy
about it
but the pension for former
Soviet dictators is not generous
and he has bills to pay,
so smile for the camera, Gorby,
he says to himself, wondering
why he didn't use a couple of those
bombs
back when he had the chance
We have another poem this week from Mexican poet Ramon Lopez Velarde. Born in 1888, Velarde was known in Mexico as the "poet of the provinces" because of his attention to the traditional rural ways of life that disappearing even as he was writing about them. Despite being mostly unknown outside of his native country, after his death at the young age of 33, his reputation grew and he became seen by many of his countrymen as Mexico's national poet.
The poem is from the collection of his work Song of the Heart published by the University of Texas Press in 1995, with translation by Margaret Sayers Peden
Newton's Disk
Omnichromy of a perfect evening...
The soul, a muted horn,
and the light, sublime,
and fortun, replete,
and Life, a fairy spirit
set free from her prison to love.
Leaden sky.
In the west, a curl
of saffron.
An angel's overturned inkwell.
The breeze, a doleful
refrain.
On the golden rapture of the hill,
green vapor, like a dragon's
breath.
And the bewitched valley
strains toward a kiss filtering
through the transoms of the horizon.
A time of secrets,
like those know to thimbles
of despairing seamstresses
who entangle heir mortal monologues
in the skein of empty hours.
As secret as you were
in yesterday's hand,
rosy lode,
canary grass,
and d'Orsay perfume.
Evening, like a rehearsal of
happiness amid May's petals;
evening, Newton's disk, a time when
spring was smnichromy
and Life a spirit
set free in passive love....
I wrote this several weeks ago, and then it got kind of lost, maybe because I never did come up with a title I liked. So, until I come up with something, it's.....
Untitled
reading
about the hollywood guy
who tried to suicide
last week reminded me
of a night many years ago
when I tried to talk
a friend out of killing
himself, both of us
half drunk
and come to think of it
he wasn't that good a friend,
it was just that we were
in circumstances
when we were a few
against the many
and anyone with you
in the few was de facto
a friend
I made all the arguments
that occurred to me -
a bad life
being better than
a good death,
the one being a permanent
unalterable condition
while the other offered
possibility
it not hope of
betterment,
I spoke of suicide
as betrayal
of family and friends,
as betrayal
of the rare and precious
life force that animates us
as thinking, moral individuals,
I appealed to his curiosity,
who, alive today,
I argued, could not be curious
about the trials and wonderments
of tomorrow, who, I asked,
with any pretensions as an
intellectual
could voluntarily leave the scene
with that curiosity unsatisfied,
many such similar points
I tried to make as the night wore on
and in the end,
we both went to bed
and in the morning both woke
to take our shift, both still alive,
if ferociously hung over,
and that night
was never spoken of again
We have a poem now from Diane Glancy from her book Lone Dog's Winter Count published by West End Press in 1991.
White Words You Can Hardly See Against The Sky
I travel as if at the end of the world the whole tribe crosses the
sky while I'm left in the burning cornfield. Or if at death, when
the spirit walks to the window & out across the yard leaving the
bones under the quilt in bed. The pattern made with the old dress-
scraps while the days I wore them have skipped. That dress
with the red button missing I sewed with blue thread. You know
there are times we are not ourselves but joined as a maple leaf
again to the tree. Imagine tying it back with thread from the tin
box on the shelf. & you think of the world inflated as a knuckle-
bone half-buried in the flesh of your hand. The marble in the
museum dug from some yard in Indian Territory. As if a farm-
pond were taken out of the dirt & another were put on top of it,
upside down, surface to surface without spilling! That's a circle!
The moon round as the face of a warrior who sees the Great
Spirit. NO! The Whole head.
Another poem that came to me last week as reward for paying too much attention to the news of the day.
a queer bird
I saw this
queer
little blackbird
in a supermarket
parking lot this morning
most blackbirds
hop
when they're on the ground,
that is they jump
with both feet off the ground
from step to step
this blackbird
skipped,
jumping first on one leg
then on the other
I noticed
there were no other blackbirds
around
so I'm wondering if this one
skips
only when he's by himself
or if he also skips
in front of his peers
and if he does
skip
while all the other blackbirds
are hopping,
what do they think about it
do they seem him
skipping
while they're hopping
and talk about him
behind his back,
as in
look at that queer
bird, skipping over there,
and do they wonder,
my goodness
where did he learn to do
that,
he must be some kind of artist
or maybe a poet,
do they invite him to all their
dinner parties
to demonstrate what liberal
and sophisticated
hoppers
they
are,
congratulating themselves
for finding
the prize skipper
every party needs
for a touch of cosmopolitan
spice
or
do they ostracize him
as some kind of dirty,
deranged bird
who refuses to hop
like all the rest but insists
on skipping,
do they whisper
when they talk about skipping,
do they shutter in a display of
disgust
when they say the word,
do they tell bad jokes
about the two skippers
on vacation in idaho,
do they all wonder in secret
how it would feel to be skipping,
is skipper
a word they young blackbirds
use to taunt others, those
who perhaps
hop with less authority
or with a little bit too much
grace
I watched the little blackbird
as he skipped past my car
a happy little
skipper,
all alone
We will end this week with a excerpt from Marfan a book-length poem by Peter Reading. The book is an uneven, barely connected collection of poems about Marfa, Texas
Marfa, Texas is a small town in the mountainous Trans-Pecos region of Southwest Texas.
Marfa is situated at the junction of U.S. Highway 67 and 90 in a geographic area is known as the Marfa Plateau, a highland plain at the upper corner of the largest desert in North America, the Chihuahuan Desert, extending far into Mexico. The desert is considered a "shrub desert" foliated with yuccas, agaves, grasses, creosote bushes, prickly pear and Mormon teas. Other plants of the desert are the larger white-thorn acacia, althorn and dramatic ocotillo. This arid region exhibits diverse geology from the sedimentary areas of the Marathon Basin and Glass Mountains to the volcanic field of the Davis Mountains, Big Bend National Park and Big Bend Ranch State Park. The Permian Reef is exposed to the north in Guadalupe Mountains National Park.
Marfa is located at an altitude of 4,830 above sea level in a semiarid region with many dry stream beds that can fill quickly with summer thunderstorms. Texas mountain ranges ring the town of Marfa with the Davis Mountains to the North (highest peak, Mt. Livermore, 8378 feet), the Chisos Mountains to the southeast and the Chinati Mountains to the southwest. The highest pass in Texas, Paisano pass (5,074 ft.) is situated 12 miles to the east between the twin mountains near Alpine, Texas.
Marfa has long been known for the "Marfa Lights," unexplained multicolored lights that seem to zip around in the desert badlands between Marfa and the mountains.
It is beginning to be knows among certain groups as a way-the-hell-and-gone-middle-of-nowhere arts colony.
Reading, the poet, won the Lannan Literary Award for Poetry in 1990, and in 1998-1999 held the first Lannan Foundation Literary Residency. His first eighteen collections of poetry were published in hardback and paper back in 1995 in his two-volumn Collected Poems - 1970-1994 and, in 1996, Collected Poems - 1985-1996. The book Marfan was published by Bloodaxe Books in 2000.
To give you a taste of this long poem, I'm using some of the poem's beginnin lines. I'll be pulling additional stuff from it in future weeks.
fromMarfan
look eastward from the back porch in late June:
Venus ascends, one hour before the Sun,
over the water-tower (which fecund belly
sustains this drought-town's viability).
"Ain't none knows whar she comes from, o whar shay's goin."
"Jus rides that burro roun from place to place."
"Ya sees her whan yer least expectin it...."
The Burro Lady ties her moke to a post
at Chuy's (now defunct) Mexican Diner
and goes for coffee into Dairy Queen.
She has the frisson-fright air of a gypsy -
gaudily-cloured wrap-arounds, plastic flip-flops
with spurs incongruously fixed at the heels.
The burro, draped with saddle-bags and blankets,
is pale, pale, pale, pale in this evening's light.
I don't know what they signify, but it's scary.
The moon rises and the sun falls and we come to the end of another issue of "Here and Now."
Not quite. Before we go, I want to repeat these lines from Whitman, the three most empowering lines I've ever read, three lines that encapsulate him, his work, and his attraction to us, words that speak for all of us. We are, Whitman implies, like him, each and everyone, "multitudes," armed as we face life with the natural right of contradiction.
"Do I contradict myself?
Very well then I contradict myself.
(I am large. I contain multitudes.)"
As always, this issue of "Here and Now" is produced by and the property of me.
allen itz
Hullo Allen
My name is Len (short for Helen)
And I am writing to you from Leamington Spa
Near
Stratford upon Avon in England - Very
Much Shakespeare country...
If, with regards to Stephen Berg's poem, you are referring to the painting of the man in a suit with an apple covering his face as the one used to good effect in the Thomas Crowne Affair - that is Son of Man by Rene Magritte (a Belgian Surrealist painter). Marcel Duchamp was a French/American surrealist painter who dubbed a urinal art and named it Fountain...
I'd like to add I'm a long time reader of your blog and enjoy it immensely... and just to let you know how small the world can be at times - I'm pretty sure I read some poems by Clay Lowe on Here and Now and lo and behold he read them at the open mic poetry night at The Fox - a pub in Leamington - Brilliant - I love such strange synchronicity - Anyways keep up the good work and big thanks, Smiles Lenny
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Life in Small Places Saturday, September 08, 2007
II.9.2.
And it's another week here at the "Here and Now" ranch, with lots of good poems and a few of my own.
I have to tell about the picture above. I took it last weekend on the campus of Texas State University, which I attended several times over the course of ten years many years ago, and from which I eventually graduated with a major in Sociology and a minor in English.
The only wildlife in the area when I attended was out on the other side of the county line where, due to the county being "dry," excess amounts of alcohol was available to all.
The young wildlife pictured was seen as I climbed one of many hills on campus to take a nostalgic look at "Old Main," one of the few buildings still standing from when I first attended. The whole hillside around Old Main is now a wooded area where wild things grow and thrive.
It made me feel good to see it.
Nidia Sanabria de Romero of Paraguay was born in 1929 and was long involved in children's theater, and was the founder and principal of the Iberoamericano High School.
Her poem is from This Same Sky - A Collection of Poems From Around The World and was translated by Arnaldo D. Larrosa Moran with Naomi Shihab Nye.
The New Suit
Striped suit,
a terrific tie,
buttoned shoes
and brown socks -
my outfit
for the party.
And the recommendations
drove me crazy -
- Don't eat ice cream
because it might drip.
- Juice, drink it slowly
since it dribbles.
- And nothing about
chocolate bombs
that might explode!
Happy birthday!
Who's that stuffed breathless
inside a tight suit?
Next year will be different.
I'll wear old clothes,
be ready to dribble,
and enjoy
ice cream, cake, and everything else.
Now, from Alan Addotto, four more in his Kwan Yin series.
(Sext - midday)
The noon sunlight, Yes.
almost hidden behind the blind
still slants in between the slats
makes flat wide planes of light
that stealth across the writing room's floor.
I know that Kwan Yin's office has no windows,
no reminder-measures of the time passing away.
No, nothing but her lunch break each day
a short pause for a cigarette outside now and then
around nine or maybe ten
but not much else.
I try to remember as much detail as I can
of the day
of its passing away
to tell her when she returns.
It's not ever very much important.
chit chat mostly, pleasant nonsense
more intent than substance.
(None - mid afternoon)
The hothigh noon sun is temporarily appeased
if only temporarily and for only just today.
It has more or less acquiesced to the daily rest
it takes behind and below the pecan trees
at the back of our property.
Already the horizon clouds
begin rise to fill the skybowl
starting low and building higher
to catch the rambunctious sunlight
in rose colored, peach and cream folds.
To tame it
make our place acceptable for the oncoming night.
Our "boys" seem to know
that "Momma" is preparing to return
Around four or so p.m. they wait....very impatiently
and watch the driveway expectantly
practicing their welcomes by
barking at the passing cars.
(Vespers - at the lighting of the candles)
The sense of incompletness that the house had all day
has been taken away.
Kwan Yin has returned home again.
I listen to her unwind:
....the screwballs at work
....the traffic
....the lackadaisical and laissez faire attitudes in both places
She sips her iced tea, calming
and begins to get her bounce back again
....slowly then more rapidly
to replace the "heel walk" she had
when she first came in.
"Supper is ready," I call from the kitchen scented
pasta with a garlic/mushroom/olive oil/cotto salami dressing
a meat dish of some kind
possibly a vegetable of some sort.
"Smells great," she says, "It sure is good to be home"
"Yes," I agree "it sure finally is, isn't it?"
(Compline - night)
Sometimes she stays in the living room
for a little while
and I go to my "nest" as she calls
my big lounge chair in the bedroom
with a pipe and a book or just watch TV....
or whatever strikes me as a pleasantry that evening.
As inevitable as the night
she turns off the lights
herds the "boys" ahead of her
comes to bed again
to find someplace to stretch out
between and/or among them,
gets herself a book
or like me watches TV
or indulges in some other mutual pleasantry.
We talk....then tuck ourselves into yawnings....
and dreaming.
During World War I, e. e. cummings volunteered for the Ambulance Corps in France; soon, however, his letters criticizing the French authorities proved (to the offended parties) that he was better off behind bars. The Enormous Room, cummings' only novel, records his experiences in a wartime French prison.
His wartime experiences are also reflected in these poems taken from is 5, published by W.W Norton & Company in 1926, reissued as Liveright paperback in 1996, 34 years after the poet's death.
III
"next to of course god america i
love you land of the pilgrims' and so forth on
say can you see by the dawn's early my
country 'tis of centuries come and go
and are no more what of it we should worry
in every language even deafanddumb
thy sons acclaim your glorious name by gorry
by jingo by gee by gosh by gum
why talk of beauty what could be more beatu-
iful that these heroic happy dead
who rushed like lions to the roaring slaughter
they did not stop to think they died instead
then shall the voice of liberty be mute?"
He spoke. And drank rapidly a glass of water.
V
look at this)
a 75 done
this nobody would
have believed
would they no
kidding this was my particular
pal
funny aint
it we was
buddies
i used to
know
him lift the
poor cuss
tenderly this side up handle
with care
fragile
and send him home
to his old mother in
a nice new pine box
(collect
VI
first Jock he
was kilt a handsome
man and James and
next let me
see yes Will that was
cleverest
he was kilt and my younger
boy was kilt last with
the big eyes i loved like you can't
imagine Harry was o
god kilt he was kilt everybody was kilt
they called them the kilties
VII
lis
-ten
you know what I mean when
the first guy drops you know
everybody feels sick or
when they throw in a few gas
and the oh baby shrapnel
or my feet getting dim freezing or
up to your you know what it water or
with the bugs crawling right all up
all everywhere over you all me everyone
that's been there knows what
i mean a god damned lot of
people don't and never
never
will know,
they don't want
to
no
James Fowler lives outside of Boston, in a old Victorian house, where his four grown kids were raised. He says his wife owns and runs a flower shop in another city so he sees her only on weekends, leaving lots of time during the week for poetry. He says his kids "examine my legal affairs, my prostate, and my nutrition, and generate grandkids, seven and more coming. All this is fodder for my muse, which came into my life seven years ago."
In his spare time, Jim is managing partner for a medical instrumentation company.
His poems tend to short and incisive, with sharp, biting edges, and I'm always pleased to get one from him.
Seventy-Two Virgins
He wore a nylon jacket zipped
to the neck, covering the Semtex
and nails in the AK bandoleer.
He didn't realize the virgins
on the bus were the ones he prayed
for in the last cleansing. They would
join him at Allah's feet, each staring
at him, holes and blood everywhere,
ready to set on him, tear at his flesh.
We continue now with more of the very personal poems of Julia Alvarez
Mother asks what I'm put to, that means men
in any declension except sex; it
means do I realize I am thirty-
three without a husband, house, or children
and going on thirty-four? Father extends
an invitation to come live with them,
there are two empty bedrooms I can write
in and handouts until I make it big
which means men at publication parties
asking me what mentors shaped my style
and has anyone ever told me how beautiful
I am having written something worthwhile?
Their drinks tinkle in their hands like keys
to doors closed at the closing of stories.
************************
My friend Carol says aging evens out
the advantage of beautiful women
over plain ones. The beautiful have to
watch their beauty fade in their own and men's
eyes. I can only talk small, having been
pretty, on good days almost beautiful.
These days in conversation with a man,
I'll catch his eyes searching for beautiful
women in the room, and I want to cry
out: If I could take some years off with my
clothes, you'd find a nice-looking girl before
you! Ex-gorgeous Carol says men ignore
her much more than she's used to or seem bored
with her theories. But I hear you, Carol.
I was at work the other day, watching a rain squall come across the hills toward me. Not much to do about it but watch, and write this.
we watch
to the north
rain
creeps
over green hills
like a blue sea
rising
from above
here
there is no sound
no movement of air
here
we watch
I'm starting another series, I guess, this one by Gilbert Sorrentino from a series called Coast of Texas, following the area traveled by the French poet Apollinaire at the beginning of the 20th century and an area I know very well, having spent most of my life somewhere along the Texas coast.
The series is from the book Gilbert Sorrentino, Selected Poems 1958-1980, published in 1981 by Black Sparrow Press.
Sorrentino, novelist and poet, was a central figure in the development of experimental fiction in the United States and a professor in the Department of English at Stanford for nearly two decades. He died last year of complications from lung cancer. He was 77.
I'm going to start with a couple of poems from the series this week and will return with more poems in the weeks ahead.
Coast of Texas
1.
Although the sky
was bright blue and clarity
the exact love
That blank city allows
at times; so that it
did not seem I was
In Hell
I was in Hell. O
love. That impairs my song.
2.
Corpus Christi
is no place to spend Christmas
notwithstanding those avenues
of palms, the white houses on the green Gulf.
The old Mexicans fish off
stone quais, and fish off stone quais.
I ate chili and drank rye whisky.
A whole novel wrote and discarded in my head.
Notwithstanding those avenues of green
palms, Corpus Christi on the coast
of Texas is not place to spend any time.
Apollinaire himself avoided this blank city.
3.
He never knew it could
be so cold in the streets
of that white city. Walks around
insane the wind tears water
from his eyes.
He thinks he sees her face
in the palm trees, love breathed
out of a bad hotel. In his madness
His hand that touches him
is hers.
The palm trees the palm trees
are moonlight. His heart is drowned
in the Gulf. O let down
your hair you.
You blue water.
4.
In that sunny room dreamed
he lay with her, book open, his hand
on his crotch.
He woke to the bright day and
smell of weak coffee. Walking
around the room, he went walking
around the room, briskly.
Fuck this sun, O fuck this rotten sun,
O fuck this sun, O sound of gentle bluish waves
piling up. Glanced in the closet
and saw her.
"Here and Now" regular Jim Corner returns again this week with a new poem, a nice little love poem.
A Silvery Coiffure
I wondered if her curls are innate;
certainly, white-tinted-gray
speaks of age if not of wisdom.
Wrinkles confirm a clarity
not often found in casual repartee;
our banter focuses upon
faith in the stream of scripture.
The message of the whole
of the stories: the First and New
Testaments situate their messages
into her core: "You are made in my image,
a little lower than angels."
I listen to her reckoning: "Jim
we are human, made to respire
the atmosphere of earth with virtues
and slings of living, with total love,
to spin inside the sphere with God -
knowing full well we can't
be human alone."
From Irish poet Paul Duncan we have this poem from his book Greetings to Our Friends in Brazil, published by the Harvell Press, London in 1999.
High in the Cooley
I wanted to publish a poem
That would include the work "fuck"
Not as a gimmick
But as the jewel in the crown
Of the vocabulary of affection.
Soon as you utter the work "fuck"
Gusts of divinity suck
At the breasts of erosion.
I wanted to celebrate my luck
At having made with my woman a home
High in the Cooley by composing a poem
With at its vortex the word "fuck".
I wanted to christen the poem
"Teilhard de Chardin"
Or "The Phenomenon of Woman" or "Mass
Upon the Alter of the Universe."
It was useless. There were afraid to publish.
Editors not knowing their own water.
Parishioners ashamed of their own parish.
Cosmopolitans ashamed of their own cosmos.
Thirty years later I drive home
To read to my woman alone
My "Phenomenon of Woman" poem:
"We wanted to fuck in the ocean"
By fireside two otters
Undress; on parquet roll.
Old otters squeaking soul:
All that matters.
I was determined to begin walking again this morning; wrote this poem instead.
something to think about
with sixty-three years
on the old shot-clock,
I've begun to thinking
of reordering my life,
taking up exercise,
putting aside junk food
and junk books,
take to things like
tofu
turnips
and dostoevsky,
maybe
go for some liposuction
around the middle,
lose
some wattles
under my chin,
and those lines
around my eyes
that can't be written off
as laugh lines
anymore,
just a little nip and tuck here and there,
run five miles every morning,
swim thirty laps
down at the high school
swimnasium
every evening,
go to bed early
and rise at sunup
with fire in my belly
and a gleam in my eye
and if it's true like they say
that sixty's the new forty
I might even make it to fifty
all this
and a couple of cans
of viagra soup
and it could be the beginning
of a whole new life
something
to think
about
We haven't used anything from Puerto Rican poet Victor Hernandez Cruz in a while. To remedy that, here's this poem from his book Red Beans, published by Coffee House Press in 1991.
Corsica
Underneath with the geologic plates
Puerto Rico and Corsica
Are holding hands
Both hands with gold rings
Sweating each other's palms
The same moon is seen
From both islands
The light of the sun
Upon the mother
The seaman's stories of migration
Like whispering olives within
Red beans
Inhabit the seasonings
Echoing through the island
Cave's fifth aboriginal dimension
of Camuy
Where not far from the salt
Of the sea
The compass of the fishing
Boats zero in on Minerva's
Lips of crimson shine
Who are flowing in the currents
Of the river within the ocean
Inviting he estrangement of
The planet - the delights of
Sweet beads and virginal circular
Night walks of white dresses
Ah, Minerva blessed was your
Father at the thought of Migration
It was the limestones of the
Caverns speaking underground
You are now as a
Mediterranean sway en route
Equatorial
With Manati pineapples lit
Electrical down Antrillean
Street aflame
Pales Matos following you
With his eyes of drumming sounds
Crazy
This is Corsica
Puerto Rico is in the Mediterranean
All the eyes ae the same.
Here's a fun piece from "Here and Now" first-timer Sandy Steinman.
Sandy taught Photography as a Fine Art at Fairfield University, CT, from 1980 until 1990, when she and her husband Paul returned to Fairfax, in Marin County, CA. They reside in a kitch Fairfax cottage under a prolific hachiyha persimmon tree that shades their otherwise sun drenched deck. She writes poetry, prose, essays and short plays.
The Retirant
It suits him, spotless lab coat,
weary Talbot ties closeted away.
He putters in Levis, sandals,
hums "Cara Nome" with Walkman,
prunes double-ruffled fuchsias,
tends trailing bougainvillea.
Office memos, checkups,
phone calls, reams of charts,
nagging nurses, squalling
spit-up babies gone. The other
frantic mothers.
The social worker warned,
don't surrender the kitchen.
Let him vacuum -
suck the daddy long legs
from silent bedroom corners.
They'll swallow you up
one toe at a time,
warned a bagger at Safeway
before "Paper or plastic?"
Dish detergent bubbles
the kitchen sink,
warm water splashes, my love
washes the dinner plates,
sprouts his sweet-cream smile,
files them to dry, neat
as alphabetized office charts.
I heard Deborah Garrison read a couple of her poems on A Prairie Home Companion several weeks ago. Though a somewhat hesitant reader, she did well.
Here's a poem from her book A Working Girl Cant Win, published in 2000 by the Random House Modern Library Paperback division.
The Boss
A firecracker, even after middle age
set in, a prince of repression
in his coat and tie, with cynical words
for everything dear to him.
Once I saw a snapshot of the house
he lives in, its fence painted
white, the flowers a wife
had planted leaning into the frame
on skinny stalks, shaking little pompoms
of color, the dazzle all
accidental, and I felt
a got, corrective
sting: our lives would never
intersect. At some point
he got older, trimmer, became
the formidable man around the office.
This bearing upright, what hair he has
silver and smooth, he shadows my doorway,
jostling the change in his pocket -
milder now, and mildly vexed.
The other day he asked what on earth
was wrong with me, and sat me down
on his big couch, where I cried
for twenty minutes straight,
snuffling, my eyeliner
betraying itself in the stained
tears. Impossible to say I was crying
because he had asked. He passed
tissues, at ease with the fearsome
womanly squall that made me alien
even to myself. No, it didn't make him
squirm. Across his seventy years,
over his glasses, he eyed me kindly,
and I thought what countless scenes
of tears, of love revealed,
he must have known.
"Here and Now" regular contributor Dan Cuddy carries a sharp knife in his poetry knapsack, and he knows how to wield it.
Another Rant And Rave The Wife Ignores
riled
ranting,raving
you know the voice
radio talk show caller
holding his nose over the stench of politics
holier than thou in indignation
caricature of a human being
polite only because the four letter words of his thought
are translated in the higher educated verbiage
of a politician
but there is real animosity
real digging in at the heels
the hard dirt ground down
the half-moon of a heel
given semi-permanence in the political earth
no law and order
finance managers racketeering
Mexican trucks bouncing off guardrails
"no comprehende"
as the driver is stopped, questioned
George W Bush practicing the cylon movement of his eyes
the infamous insidious Dick the Trick Cheney
posing with a magisterial sneer
it is a cliche that sneer
and the indignation against it
nothing will change
the b'hoys of plantation row
will be sipping mint juleps long after their offices
have been cleaned out, fumigated against ideological lice
and we rant & rave
wives go upstairs to dust the windowsills
tired of the dusty opinions that are left on the den floor
and ranting & raving
a subgenre of communication
an exercise like a run at the track
nothing gets changed
same old system
kids playing electronic games in their chairs
not even looking up
as the house next door burns down
or some teenage girl is raped on the hood of a Hummer
America
the country that was
the Scar-Spangled Banner
the sandbox of Karl Rove
the Clintons, Fred Thompson
any old ballyhoo
interested in standing behind a podium
and being wittily
or icily
disingenuous
and here
in podunk pub
the rant, the rave
the political wave
holding one's nose & booing
but
the tin-head leaders talk on
make deals
the golden age of America
is melted down
all that craftsmanship
reduced to gold ingots
and George W Bush and pals
straightening their shirt-collars
invoking God and war
to achieve
historic
decline
the Empire
is packing up its treasures
moving to Tahiti
a mansion
resembling something in obese Mississippi
the clink of ice, glasses
the shine of pasty jewelry
on white-powdered necks
the sag of American tits
and balls
We have also neglected for too long Pulitzer Prize winner and recipient of the National Book Foundation Medal For Distinguished Contribution To American Letters Gwendolyn Brooks.
This poem is from her book Selected Poems first published in hardback in 1963 by Harper & Row, Publishers, then reissued in paperback by Perennial Classics in 1999.
Jessie Mitchell's Mother
Into her mother's bedroom to wash the ballooning body.
"My mother is jelly-hearted and she has a brain of jelly;
Sweet, quiver-soft, irrelevant. Not essential.
Only a habit would cry if she should die.
Are you better, mother, do you think it will come today?"
The stretched yellow rag that was Jessie Mitchell's mother
Reviewed her. Young, and so thin, and so straight.
So straight! as if nothing could ever bend her.
But poor men would bend her, and doing things with poor
men,
Being much in bed, and babies would bend her over,
And the rest of things in life that were for poor women,
Coming to them grinning and pretty with intent to bend and to
kill.
Comparisons shattered her heart, ate at her bulwarks:
The shabby and the bright: she, almost hating her daughter,
Crept into an old sly refuge: "Jessie's black
And her way will be black, and jerkier even than mine.
Mine, in fact, because I was lovely, had flowers
Tucked in the jerks, flowers were here and there...."
She revived for the moment settled and dried-up triumphs,
Forced perfume into old petals, pulled up the droop,
Refueled
Triumphant long-exhaled breaths,
Her exquisite yellow youth....
Alex Stolis continues his series based on the Tarot deck.
Card I
The Magician holds his breath
He can remember when he held forever
remembers when penance felt
close to real pain -
he wanted to be a martyr
but was reluctant
to pay the price.
He thinks of her now
as his chest tightens
wants to reach out
stroke her hair
get lost in the space
between
written words.
He remembers talk
of crucifixion, nails
blood and the sun
turning black.
He can hear cracks
of thunder and the hiss
of air escaping his lungs
but he can't remember
the sound of her voice.
We have a poem now by Jane Hirshfield. It is from her book Of Gravity & Angels published by Wesleyan University Press in 1988.
Tamara Stands In Straw
and dreams her long-necked, sweet-grass reveries,
and shifts her weight in the patient way
of horses in the cold.
She will be a long time in this stall,
through the entire season of grass
she will have alfalfa, timothy,
an eight-foot, spare enclosure keeping her dry
on hooves held closed with polymer and wire.
This tall barn covers her strangely,
a mae who's never been kept in;
a worn-out structure roofed with tin,
it magnifies the rain,
I am to stay with her for several hours,
to keep her on her feet till the plastic sets.
The stable-owner sends a thermos of tea
and I drink slowly,
taking it its heat
in the faint warmth of the barn;
while the mare dreams and wakes and drinks
and returns to her hay and then her dreaming,
while darkness tightens to the single shape of horse
and night sounds of iron scud against concrete
through all the layered softnesses of straw.
There's not much to say about Jean-Nicholas-Arthur Rimbaud but, here's Rimbaud. This poem is from Rimbaud, Complete Works, Selected Letters, a bilingual edition translated by Wallace Fowlie and published by The University of Chicago Press in 2005.
Evening Prayer
I live seated, like an angel in the hands of a barber,
In my fist a strongly fluted mug,
My stomach and neck curved, a Gambier pipe
In my teeth, under the air swollen with impalpable veils of smoke.
Like the warm excrement of an old pigeonhouse,
A Thousand Dreams gently burn inside me:
And at moments my sad heart is like sap-wood
Which he young dark gold of its sweating coves with blood.
Then, when I have carefully swallowed my dreams,
I turn, having drunk thirty or forty mugs,
And collect myself, to relieve the bitter need:
Sweetly as the Lord of the cedar and of hyssops,
I piss toward the dark skies very high and very far,
With the consent of the large heliotropes.
Steve Crow, of Cherokee and Irish ancestry, was born in Alabama in 1949. He began writing poetry in high school and went on to earn a degree in English and Creative Writing at Louisiana State University. He earned a master's degree at Bowling Green University in 1971 and began doctoral work in English at the University of Michigan in 1976, where he developed and taught a survey course in contemporary Native American literature.
His poem below is from Harper's Anthology of 20th Century Native American Poetry.
Louisiana
I can't say our garden is a delight
because the patch in our backyard
is the shape of Louisiana by accident.
Weeds the shape of brown pelicans
by reincarnation, and a small swamp,
unsafe to be around after dark.
Each time I drain the garden
a swamp water bubbles to the surface
with gar minnows and water moccasins
the size of earthworms. When I set
the weeks afire they begin mouthing
the air, wingless, pulling at their
roots to take seed elsewhere.
And tonight, magic in the wind,
rain the color of ashes.
I expect Lafitte to come poling
his pirogue across the yard,
whistling for his pirates
to follow him out of the cypress
with my head on a flambeau.
I never trusted Louisiana.
I should have stayed there.
Emma Lee Warrior, a Peigan Indian, was born in 1941 in Alberta. Raised on the Peigan Reserve, she went on to earn a bachelor's degree in education and a master's degree in English. She worked for the Blackfoot Reserve in Alberta developing curricula in Blackfoot.
Her poem is another from Harper's Anthology of 20th Century Native American Poetry.
Reginald Pugh, The Man Who Came from the Army
I lay in Holy Cross
bandaged to the knee.
It was time to go home;
my skinny social worker,
a sniveling civil servant,
refused to find me a place.
He had pig's skin;
I don't think he had a heart.
Transferred from
the Army Department
to Indian Affairs
he gave out orders
instead of solutions;
became the problem
of all Indians
sentenced to his files.
He berated us
for being Indians
but his harangues
were as useless
as my curses.
Once a Peigan woman
living with a Blackfoot man
was told she couldn't get
her welfare check
until her husband left.
She grabbed Mr. Pugh
and shook him the way
a dog shakes a weasel.
Sometimes I'll lie and dream
I throttled him
until his blue eyes slowly
popped from their sockets,
the spittle from his purple
lips dribbled; I'd make
sure he couldn't spit,
then stuff his head
into the garbage can under my bed.
The little two-faced bugger,
I saw him the other day.
He wanted to know when I
intended to return the rental
dole from last year.
I told him I would
let him wait forever, amen.
Muneer Niazi is a famous Punjabi poet of Pakistan. This is another poem from The Same Sky, translated by Daud Kamal.
A Dream of Paradise in the Shadow of War
Sometimes
In the angled boughs
Of the jasmine tree
And sometimes
On the green emerald floor
A nightingale sings
The poignant melodies
Of love.
From the vast treeless plains
Carried by the evening's dust-clouds
Come the joyous sounds
Of people returning home.
Mustard fields stretch
Towards the horizon.
Wild roses and green swaying wheat.
The cacophony of birds
On the ancestral tree
I my courtyard.
The houses and their inmates
Stand amazed.
The village-wilderness
Turns into a perfumed garden.
Strange weather here in South Texas this summer - everybody's talking about it. As I was writing this, red and yellow was all across the radar screen, right on our doorstep.
everybody talks about the weather
everybody
talks about the weather
here
and with nearly 25 inches
of rain
over the three summer months
compared to 3 and a half inches
last year,
with no day rising to triple digit temps
and 75 degrees
on the fourth of july
it seems a perfectly reasonable
topic
the meadows and pastures
and woods are green
when they should be brown,
deer and possum and squirrel
and raccoon run riot
though
the verdant hills
rattlesnakes,
cold blooded creatures
who need warmth
to slither,
sleep
when they should be
out rattling through the rocks
the billions of crickets
who normal arrive in late October
have been piling up around doorways
and street corners
for a month already,
their little sex drive going strong
when they should be off where ever
it is they are when they aren't here
they wiggle and jump and chirp
and climb walls and sneak in doors
left open too long
and walking on some sidewalks
is like walking
on crunchy brown snow
there's another front
coming in off the coast this afternoon
and everyone
is saying oh no, not more rain,
but they don't mean it,
at least not those of us
who've seen the usual side
of south texas summer
we welcome every drop,
feel very cosmopolitan
as we carry umbrellas everywhere
we go,
slowly losing our slow texas drawl,
to an accent more clipped by london fog
there is some discussion
as to whether this three months of rain
might be the consequence of global warming,
if it is, some of us say,
god bless al gore
and bring it on
We finish of this week with this little gem of a poem from frequent contributor, Alice Folkart.
Ungraspable
Lazy drifter
red leaf
from green tree
ruby
a treasure
put away
turns brown
crumbles
no memory
And that's it for this week.
To finish the story begun earlier, the picture above is of the "Old Main" referred to, atop the wooded hill where campus wildlife thrives.
That's it.
And in accordance with the practice begun last week....this blog is produced by and the property of allen itz.
I am refreshed by what I've read in this week's Here & Now - many of the poems and pictures touch my soul. I especially liked the rain picture and the laughing rabbit - oh, and the fawn.
And, of the poems, e.e. cummings reminds us of the terrible, useless, waste of war - that all war, although he doesn't say so, is unjustified. Even one life lost is too many -
Allen Itz's poem on the approach of a rain storm sat me down to watch the horizon and hope. Jim Corner said one thing in his poem that will stay with me forever - 'we can't be human alone' - gives the lie to hermits, doesn't it?
Julia Alvarez has written the poem about a woman's experience of leaving her youth behind, of fading, that I wish I'd written. Being a woman, having left my youth and what beauty I had behind, I think about this a lot, how I seem to have become invisible and seem to have no power - as if the mating instinct which, in humans is largely controlled by looks - is the only one that counts. Hooray, Julia, you've shown exactly what it feels like.
And, Sandy Steinman addressing the retirement of her husband (significant other) and the advice she was given - don't surrender the kitchen, and the way she ends the poem with 'him' washing dishes. Another poem that touches my life - HE has invaded my territory and I'm puzzling as to whether we need separate abodes so that he won't 'swallow me up one toe at a time' as the grocery checker predicts.
Powerful works too by Debobrah Garrison, Gwendolyn Brooks (beauty in graphic horror - magnificent), and Muneer Niazi, writing about something I think about too - how bits of beauty and ordinary life are glimpsed in the middle of a war, our connection with Paradise, even though we might be blown to bits in the market place.
Kudos to all the poets and especially to the editor and compiler and photographer - an excellent issue.
Alice Folkart
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At The Leaving Edge of Summer Saturday, September 01, 2007
II.9.1.
Welcome to another week of "Here and Now." We have a good mix of poets again this week. I've been writing mostly crap in the last week or so, so my part in this issue will be limited to several of my older poems.
Our first poem this week is from Tony Hoagland, winner of the James Laughlin Award of the Academy of American Poets. The poem is from his book Donkey Gospel, published in 1998 by Graywolf Press.
Hearings
Autumn, and the trees decide again they don't
  need leaves.
Mothers add more blankets to the bed.
Yellow lights in windows of the junior high
mean that night school is back in session,
tired grown-ups sitting at the plastic desks,
learning to bisect the hypotenuse,
how to say spreadsheet in Japanese.
This week on the televised hearings,
we get to watch our congressmen
nervously pronounce the word homosexual
in public - the committee trying to determine
whether queers are good enough
to pull the triggers
on machines designed to foreclose lives
contrary to the national well-being.
But the congressman can't
pull the trigger on his own tongue
to fire out the word without
tripping over it - fumbling, stumbling
into the ditch between home and sexual.
You might say his defense industry is troubled,
as if he had a subterranean suspicion
that to say it might mean, just a little
to become it -
which might be right,
since language uses us
the way birds use the sky,
the way seeds and viruses
braid themselves into a mammal's fur
and hitchhike toward the future.
When you say a word,
you enter it's vocabulary,
it's got your home address, your phone number
and weight - it won't forget,
- the way parents who finally
bring themselves to say lesbian,
enter, through that checkpoint,
the country where their daughter lives.
Tonight, all over Washington, senators in mirrors
will practice until they are fluent
saying homosexual
as they already are saying Mr. President,
and first-strike option.
Sometimes we think the truth
is the worst thing that could happen
but the truth is not the worst thing that could happen.
Now it is autumn and the stores
the turquoise wading pools
spangled with bright starfishes and shells
are stacked against the walls, on sale,
implying what was costly yesterday
is cheap today, and might be free tomorrow -
All our yearnings, all our fears:
so many sea horses,
galloping through bubbles.
Next we have another poem from Voices In My Head by "Here and Now" friend Dave Ruslander. You can learn more about Dave and his book by clicking on the link on the right.
The Clockworks
Above a leafless canopy,
vermkillion-tinged clouds
offset the pewter swamp.
Guttural caws disturb
the whispering trees.
Four Great blues vie for perfect perch,
their skirmish portending a spring rookery.
gangly necks and swinging stick legs
balance on rickety pin-oaks.
Territorial disputes settle
as Venus hovers like a night light.
White tails clot arteries extended by moles
and voles scamper, fearful of silent wings.
Swamp time doesn't fit on my wrist.
Ramon Lopez Velarde was a Mexican poet, born in 1888 and died in 1921. He was often called the "poet of the provinces" because of his attention to disappearing cultures of the rural areas of his country. This poem is from the bookSong of the Heart, published in 1995 by the University of Texas Press. It is a collection of his work drawn from his earlier work Poesias completas y el minutero. It is the first bilingual collection of his work. English translations were done by Margaret Sayers Peden.
Wet Earth
Wet earth, liquid afternoons
when ran whispers
and girls grow limp beneath
the drumming of raindrops on the roof....
Wet earth, redolent afternoon
when misanthropic desires rise through lewd
solitudes of air and, there, are wed
with Noah's farthest dove
as persistent lightning
crashes through murky clouds....
Wet afternoon in peasants' clothes
when I recognize that I am made of clay,
because in its summer weeping,
beneath the auspices of the half-light,
the soul turns to liquid upon the nails
of its cross....
Afternoons when the telephone rings
for those artful, languid naiads
who step from their bath to love,
to spread the conceit of their hair across the bed
and babble - with perfidy, and gain -
moist and yearning monosyllables
that echo rain upon the windowpanes....
Afternoons like a submersed chamber
with its bed and basin,
afternoons when a young girl ages
before the flameless brazier of her hearth,
awaiting a suitor who will bring a glowing coal....
afternoons when the angels
descend to plow straight furrows
in edifying fallow fields....
afternoons of prayer and Easter candles....
afternoons when cloudbursts
induce me to kindle each and any
shivering girl with the opportune ember....
afternoons when, all volition
oxidized, I feel I am
a camphor-scented acolyte:
one part swordfish
and one part St. Isidore Laborer....
Margaret Atwood, born in 1939, is a Canadian poet, novelist, literary critic and political activist.
Due to her father's ongoing research in forest entomology, Atwood spent much of her childhood in the backwoods of Northern Quebec and back and forth between Ottawa, Sault Ste. Marie and Toronto. She did not complete a full year of school until 8th grade.
Atwood began writing at age sixteen. In 1957, she began studying at Victoria University in the University of Toronto. She graduated in 1961 with a Bachelor of Arts in English and minors in philosophy and French.
In the fall of 1961, after winning the E. J.. Pratt Medal for her privately-printed book of poems, Double Persephone, she began graduate studies at Harvard's Radcliffe College with a Woodrow Wilson fellowship. She obtained a master's degree from Radcliffe in 1962 and pursued further graduate studies at Harvard, for two 2-year periods, but never took a degree. She has taught at the University of British Columbia, Sir George Williams University in Montreal, the University of Alberta, York University in Toronto , and New York University, where she was Berg professor of English.
Atwood is often described as a feminist writer. Her work has focused on Canadian national identity, Canada's relations with the United States and Europe, human rights issues, environmental issues, the Canadian wilderness, the social myths of femininity, representations of women's bodies in art, women's social and economic exploitation, as well as women's relations with each other and with men.
The Circle Game, her second book of poetry, won the Governor General's award for poetry. Of her poetry collections, the most well-known is The Journals of Susanna Moodie, in which Atwood writes poems from the viewpoint of Susanna Moodie, a historical nineteenth-century Canadian pioneer on the frontier.
As a political activist, Atwood donated all of her Booker Prize money to environmental causes and gave up her house in France after Jacques Chirac resumed nuclear testing. She is an active member of Amnesty International.
This poem is from The Longman Anthology of Contemporary American Poetry.
The Woman Who Could Not Live With Her Faulty Heart
I do not mean the symbol
of love, a candy shape
to decorate cakes with,
the heart that is supposed
to belong or break;
I mean this lump of muscle
that contracts like a flayed biceps,
purple-blue, with its skin of suet,
its skin of gristle, this isolate,
this caved hermit, unshelled
turtle, this one lungful of blood,
no happy plateful.
All hearts float in their own
deep oceans of no light,
wetblack and glimmering,
their four mouths gulping like fish.
Hearts are said to pound;
this is to be expected, the heart's
regular struggle against being drowned.
But most hearts say, I want, I want,
I want, I want. My heart
is more duplicitous,
though no twin as I once thought.
It says, I want, I don't want. I
want, and then a pause.
It forces me to listen,
and at night it is the infa-red
third eye that remains open
while the other two are sleeping
but refuses to say what it has seen.
It is a constant pestering
in my ears, a caught moth, limping drum,
a child's fist beating
itself against the bedsprings;
I want, I don't want.
How can one live with such a heart?
Long ago I gave up singing
to it, it will never be satisfied or lulled.
One night I will say to it:
Heart, be still,
and it will.
Here is another in the series by Gary Blankenship based on his reading of Ginsberg's Howl. This is the poem mentioned last week that won first place for August in the IBPC competition.
After Howl III
Rockin' The Ages
who loned it through the streets of Idaho seeking visionary indian angels who were visionary indian angels,
--Allen Ginsberg, Howl
east of boise they find a cultist who prepared kool-aid for a jim jones
when sister Sylvia saw the Virgin Mary in the pond behind the hen house no one paid any attention to her
south of soshone they locate a survivalist who sells cranberries in a fruit stand on highway 93
when mama saw Mother Mary in grandpa's fried egg, they turned the kitchen into a shrine
ketchum is all weed dealers who tithe to a clapboard church in mountain home
Uncle John is still in the attic
they leave orofino where every man woman child stray goat is his her its own prophet
Christ walked across Lake Coeur d'Alene the day of the parade in honor of President Reagan and no one noticed
in the lewiston they come across the holy slots sacred decks hallowed bones mammon's offering to the state
the picture of the Garden behind Grandma's bed only cost her $125 in 1973
in soda springs they hit upon a two dollar gal who nightly prays to baby jesus at least twice an hour in an alley behind the suds and pack
when the tent revival came to town everyone was there, two members of the cheer squad were visiting relatives the next fall
the idaho falls temple is being repainted in a new shade of temple white
I dream my guardian angel is on strike
the buddhist gate is locked
on cable Italian suits beg
moloch sings when the roll is called up yonder
Having been through the grim and angry antiwar poems of Robert Bly, here's his other side.
This poem is from his Selected Poems, published by HarperCollins in 1986.
July Morning
The day is awake. The bark calls to the rain still in the
&nbps; cloud:
"Never forget the lonely taste of the white dew."
And woolen-robed drummers call on the naked to dance;
All the particles of the body shout together.
Sitting on the disc, the morning dove coos porch, then a
&nbps; cathedral,
Then the two arms of the cross!
He gives the nose, then the head, then the two ears of
&nbps; this rabbit
Hopping along the garden,
Then his death....
After that we will be alone in the deep blue reaches of
&nbps; the river.
I met Robert Soto a couple of weeks ago at La Taza Coffee House here in
San Antonio. (For San Antonio readers - Brook Hollow and 281) La Taza hosts poetry readings every Monday evening and he and I were both reading.
Rob recently returned to civilian life here in San Antonio after completing eight years in the U.S. Air Force, including recent service in Afghanistan. He has been writing poetry and short stories for several years, as well as being featured at poetry reading around the world and on the internet. You can visit his myspace page by clicking on the link to the right.
He is a passionate and exciting reader.
Tower, Clarity, Cross
Half moon hanging in the western sky and I can't help but think of you on the other side of it somewhere. My eyes clinched tighter then my fist ever could in those days of anger, when I drove the knife in deeper than my enemies ever could. So much time and effort wasted on self serving destruction served up one round at a time. Out there beyond oil fires I finally got things right this time. I finally stopped asking myself all the wrong questions, in fact, I stopped asking them altogether. Actions speak louder than words, and I find my impatience is a virtue when it's not fucking things up. I find clarity in the confusing pace of still moments these days, I find closeness in the distance that separates us. Continents and oceans and dotted lines on maps. A degree of closeness in the desert. Even though I never want to hear another fucking love song again. It's just not how I function. Radio towers eradicating me with electromagnetic emptiness , sub atomic soulless pop songs sending ripples of rage in the cloud chambers of my brain. For some reason Carmen says I'm romantic. I stopped arguing with her a long time ago. Whatever works. You would think that after all that has transpired I would have filled stacks of notebooks by now, but the truth is it takes a lot of practice to stop writing about girls who make you write about plane crashes, it takes a lot of living to forget things like that. But I've got too many reasons to look at things differently these days. Even if they are on the other side of half moons and dotted lines on maps, even if there are one hundred thousand radio towers injecting the sky with melodic placebos like up-right hypodermic needles. I will gladly stop arguing and cross them all.
This poem is from the book Winter Chickens and Other Poems by teacher and poet Wendy Barker. The book was published in 1990 by Corona Publishing Company of San Antonio where Barker was teaching at the time.
This is the title poem from the book.
Winter Chickens
Not sure if the clucking is child's crying -
sometimes the sound winds out
through walls of wire mesh,
orange rinds, saturated leaves.
Red wattles hang from their heads,
eggs squirm from swollen vents,
still damp slick
and amazing as Meissen china.
Carry them inside
for the transformation:
eggs into water,
poached ovals on toast,
eggs in bowls before stirring to scramble,
eggs tossed in a smoking pan
sliding around like shoes on mud.
The shells go back to the hens,
grit for their old, hard beaks.
Pat McCormick was a funny guy. He was a big, Irish-type guy and a great comedy writer, writing for, among many others, Johnny Carson, whose Tonight Show he "streaked" one night when that sort of thing was the rage.
This is one of my old pieces standing in for the crappy stuff I've been writing latly. It was published a couple of years ago by Vox, an on-line journal.
Pat McCormick, R.I.P.
everyone dies
heroes and comics
and villainous creeps
everyone
Uncle Lester
Aunt Hester
and Fester
the Travis Park
Molester
everybody
e v e r b o d y
presidents and thieves
busboys and the once upon a time
flings
of spoiled rich kings
of tiny nations with lots of oil
and large armies with fat generals
popped and bedecked and braided
in Gilbert and Sullivan uniforms
Ronald Reagan died
didn't like him much
but now that he's dead
who cares who didn't like him
and William Golden,
cracker-barrel philosopher
and newspaper publisher
with puffy white hair
and hornrim glasses
and a big smile that looked
out at you from the back
of his latest book of essays
liked him a lot but
it didn't do him any good
he died anyway
all of these people
good ones and bad ones,
sweet smelling and sour,
the vile and the saintly
and all the rest in-between
dead, everyone
and you, too, someday,
so don't be thinking
you have some kind of
get out of death free card
I'm really sorry about that
because it makes it harder
for me to believe
I'll be the exception
that proves
the rule
Our next poem is by longtime Texas poet, William D. Barney. It's from his book A Cowtown Chronicle published in 1999 by Browder Springs Books.
In the Cattlebarn
Rows of stalls, oatstraw and dung
in the cattlebarn;
boys grooming the fat steers,
trimming their strawberry pelts,
fluffing our round curls,
gunning them down with black blow-driers.
Even the hooves must be filed and polished.
Presently in the arena,
competing to see which will make the best
&nbps; cuts,
sleek symphonies of roasts and sirloins,
they'll have to waddle.
Like sending washed children to school
or pushing them, older, into brutal war,
putting fresh bodies on the block
(the slaughter here is slower).
you can see how the hands fondling the hair
dread what is coming;
even in the moment of pride they tremble,
knowing that boys have to be men,
that steers, inevitably, make meat.
This seems to be Afghanistan month here. Last week we had the Afghan poet. You just read the piece by Rob Ocha who recently returned from Afghanistan, and now this, a poem I originally wrote 38 years ago after spending Easter week in Kabul.
This iteration of the poem, just written, cuts in half the most previous version, as I continue to look for the nub of it. I also keep working this poem over and over again, in part, trying to understand my own clairvoyance. The visit was in 1969 and the poem was written shortly after the visit, at a time when Afghanistan, with a benevolent, liberal king, seemed to be one step away from a bright and modern future. The country was being reforested, turning brown mud mountains green again. People were friendly and it was quite safe for a couple of young Americans to walk alone from the edge to the city where we stayed to the downtown area. The deprecations of the Russians and the warlords and the Taliban were still unseen beyond the horizon.
Still, despite a very pleasant visit meeting pleasant, friendly people, I came away from the city with this dark cloud hanging over my perceptions..
premonitions
from the brown mountain slopes
all around us
rows of mud houses
hang over the rickety city below,
their shadows like a thousand black eyes
watching....
from the forlorn club room
atop the Spirazan Hotel
we drink cheap Russian vodka
and watch the dark mountain
watching us
premonitions
of blood and despair
follow me to restless sleep
Now, for a little diversion from the poetry, images of the first, and last, performance of the Burning Man Piano Concerto, featuring instrumentalist Chris Itz, only recently released from his gig with the Phantom of the Opera. The photographer of this chain of events is unknown.
***Note: Readers preparing to file charges for cruelty to musical instruments should be reassured that the principle instrument in question was a derelict, found in several pieces along an Austin highway.
S Thomas Summers is a teacher of English at Wayne Hills High School in Wayne, New Jersey. His poems have appeared in numerous print and electronic journals and his first chapbook, Death settled well was published in 2006 and won the Shadows Ink Publications 7th Biannual Chapbook Competition.
This poem is from his new book, Rather, It Should Shine, published this year by Pudding House Publications.
You can learn more about the poet and his chapbooks by clicking on the his link on the right.
Leaving Wayne Hills High School for the Summer
Morning seems to be the best
time to write a poem: eggs frying,
Gershwin softly strolling
through Paris, dew drops flirting
with the sun, pencils slanted
in the holes of a wooden apple
eagerly waiting to drag their
snouts across a clean, white
page, flush out the sparrow
sparking a street puddle's shore,
but I'd like to plead a case
for afternoons and parking lots:
whispers of heat rise from a black
sea, painted lines garnish the expanse,
the brittle spines of decaying
fish. A boy and girl walk
deeper into June. They'll share
a first kiss under a reef of bleachers.
I wrote this a year or so ago, before conservative Republicans began outing themselves in e-mails and public restrooms.
Randolph Scott
Randolph Scott
was gay
they say
(not that
there's anything
wrong with that)
but
who's next
Moses?
you never seen him
in pants, did'ja?
there you go
dont'cha know
and those fancy
egyptian sandals....
(you know about those
pharaoh people
with all their mascara
and fancied-faced make-up)
could be a scandal
in the desert, oh, my
no wonder
the religiosos
are having a fit,
finding out
it could'uh, maybe,
possibly be
they've been taking
commandments
all these years
from a maybe-gay guy
it could lead to drastic
reconsiderations
I have a book by poet Julia Alvarez that presents a delimma. The title of the book is Homecoming. It was published by Grove Press in 1984.
About a third of the book is made up of half page poems that read like diary entries. Most of the poems can stand alone - taken together they present a continuing story of what's going on in the young poet's life and mind.
There's no way the forty-odd pages of poems can be presented at once. So, despite some concern I have that I'm loading "Here and Now" down with too many continuing series, that's exactly what I'm going to do. Regular readers will get into the story, I think, as I present the poems one or two at a time - others will like the individual pieces on their own. (I hope.)
Here are the first two pieces. (None of the pieces are titled.)
Everything that happens to me these days
is dangerous with love. I'm a witch
at full moon. I can't be sure
of anyone. I stiffen if I'm grazed
by an arm or a hand combs through my hair.
I won't drink out a strange cup or use
borrowed clothing. Everything is infused
with hazard and imagination's power,
stronger than actual. I won't accept
dinner invitations in case magic
powders have been disguised in the garlic
seasonings. But my house, though protected
with charms, can't block the spell mortality
has cast, thirty-two, I turn thirty-three.
********************
I got divorced at twenty-nine and vowed
I'd put the energy I used for love
in some constructive cause. I thought of how
Emily, Mother Theresa, Joan of Arc
had given themselves to more than romance.
I too could write or save far eastern towns
or starving kids. I went unsexed for months,
recorded dreams in journals, joined the Friends
for weekly pacifism, I even
adopted a Latin American
girl orphan over the mail, cheap, and when
men came to see me, I said, Let's be friends.
But if they fell in love with other women,
I felt unfeminist and feminine.
I wrote this as a lesson in will about a man I admire greatly.
Stephen Hawking
he blinks
his
eye
and a shifting
formless
universe
takes its
shape
around us
what matter the
difference
in our
merely physical
capacities
when he can
lay
before us the
monstrous
glory
of all that is
Our next poem is by R.G. Vliet from his third book Water & Stone published in 1980 by Random House.
Vliet is winner of the Texas Institute of Letters Award twice for his poems and once for a novel. In 1968 he was a Rockerfeller Fellow in Fiction and Poetry. He was educated in Texas and did graduate work at Yale. He has lived in American Samoa, the American Southwest, New England and Mexico.
Born in 1929, Vliet died in 1984 right after completing his last novel Scorpio Rising, which many consider to be his finest work.
Song, Crystal Radio Song
Were you blue, girl, sixteen, 1924
in bracelets, flat-breasted, apricot
dress, bobbed hair and false
furs?
alone in the room, wind
the Victrola. It was years before
the moment you caught your sister,
breathless and laughing, sunlight
and the snowball bush. She was awkward,
easy to catch, hardly ever spoke.
Then in the parlor you both
listened to the song, the earphones
nested in a tin bowl. After lunch
they washed her face, braided
her hair, put her
in the new, blue dress you
had cried for the day before
and sent her to the asylum where
she was homesick nineteen years.
For you, Cosmopolitan love. Your
heart leapt, on the wedding night
was spasmodic with terror, flattened and thudded
in contracted labor: two plump
sons, the living room suite,
kitchen, radio, self-starting Ford.
Thelma
worked in the laundry, had her room
with its simple cot, wrote childish letters
and died.
Now, after sixty years,
dark trees rushing past,
Volkswagen headlights piercing the dark,
the song comes out of your mouth
like a new penny out of dark water.
The next poem is by Roy A. Young Bear from Harper's Anthology of 20th Century Native American Poetry, published in 1988 by HarperCollins.
Young Bear, born in 1950 is a member of the Mesquakie tribe, formerly known as Sauk and Fox. He began writing when he was sixteen years old and has been widely anthologized and published frequently in literary magazines. At the time of this publication, he had authored two books of poetry, Winter of the Salamander and The invisible Musician. I attempted to google him for more information, but found only a reference to another of his poems included in the Harper's anthology.
Wadasa Nakamoon, Vietnam Memorial
Last night when the yellow moon
of November broke through the last line
of turbulent Midwestern clouds,
a lone frog, the same one
who probably announced
the premature spring floods,
attempted to sing.
Veterans' Day and it was
sore-throat weather.
In reality the invisible musician
reminded me of my own doubt.
The knowledge that my grandfathers
were singers as well as composers -
one of whom felt the simple utterance
of a vowel made for the start
of a melody - did not produce
the necessary memory or feeling
to make a Wadasa Nakamoon,
Veterans' Song.
All I could think of
was the absence of my name
on a distant black rock.
Without this monument
I felt I would not be here.
For a moment, I questioned
why I had to immerse myself
in county, controversy and guilt,
but I wanted to honor them.
Surely, the song they presently
listened to along with my grandfather's
was the ethereal kind which did not stop.
I was a big fan of the old TV show and wrote this upon the death of the best old boogyman catcher there ever was.
an evening with Mr. Kolchak
for Darren McGavine
soft shadows
a window,
half open
to curtains
stirring
in steamy
summer breeze
inside, secrets,
hidden things
waiting for the dark
when clouds cover
moonlight
and pale shadows
turn thick
and haunting
I think it could be that the $4.98 I spent to buy This Same Sky, A Collection of Poems from around the World one of the best investment I ever made. It is 184 pages of poem after poem by poets completely new to me. It is a treasure.
This next poem is from the book. It is by Wimal Dissanayake of Sri Lanka. Born in 1939, he has published books in the United States dealing with Literature and film as well as poetry books written in his native Sinhalese. This poem was translated from his language by Stephen L. Smith with Naomi Shihab Nye.
Freedom
Words, one by one
arrive on the empty page
like honored guests.
Ordered thoughts move
gracefully.
Outside the window,
on the sill,
I see the figure of a bird,
sun on its feathers -
a brownish, medium-sized bird.
I try to wave it away,
but it intrudes more stubbornly.
It has a quizzical look in its eye.
Ignoring its rude presence
I try to compose my lines,
but I feel uneasy
being observed by a brownish, medium-sized bird
with sun on its feathers -
Also from the The Same Sky, we have this poem by Chang Shiang-hua from Taiwan. Chang, born in 1939, has been writing poems since she was nineteen years old. She has taught high school and college and has represented China at international conferences of writers.
The poem was translated by Stephen L. Smith with Naomi Shihab Nye.
Wordless Day
There is a wordless tomorrow
In which I'll forget all the chatter
It will be like the sky clearing after a rainstorm
To the washed gray of morning
The distant mountains an ink-black line
Sweeping the mists away from here
But today
Is still a day for cymbals
Percussionists join in the celebration
Raising a din, pounding without restraint
Until twilight when I am so weary
That I long for the sleep
My tongue enjoys inside my mouth
The next poem is by Peter Blue Cloud and is taken from Harper's Anthology of 20th Century Native American Poetry.
Blue Cloud, born in 1935, is a Turtle Mohawk from Quebec and a former ironworker. He served as editor of the Alcatraz Newsletter, poetry editor of Akwesasne Noes, and coeditor of Coyote’s Journal. He has published six books, including Elderberry Flute Song and White Corn Sister.
Turtle
The winds are dark passages among the stars,
leading to whirling void pockets
encircled by seeds of thought,
life force of the Creation.
I am turtle,
and slowly, my great flippers move
propelling my body through space,
and starflowers scatter crystals
which fall as mist upon my lidded eyes.
I am turtle,
and the ocean of my life swim
is a single chant in the Creation,
as I pass others of my kind,
my, unbon, and those,
the holy ancients of my childhood.
My swim is steady and untiring
for great is the burden given me,
the praise and privilege of my eternity
rests upon my back as a single seed
to which I am guardian and giver.
I am turtle,
and my tribes forever remain countless,
from the day I first raised my head
to gaze back upon the horn of my body,
and my head was a sun,
and Creation breathed life upon the seed
and four times, and again four times,
I wept for joy the birthing of my tribes,
and chanted Creation the glory
of all those wondrous days.
The wrinkles and cracks upon this ancient shell
are the natural contours created
by the feel and request of burdened rock
and soil, blood and sustenance to
clans within clans,
I am turtle,
and the earth I carry is but
a particle in the greater Creation,
my mountains, plains and oceans,
mere reflections in a vaster sea.
Turtle, I am called,
and breathe clouds of rain,
and turn slowly my body to seasons
in cycle with my grandchild, Eagle,
whose wings enfold thunder pulses,
back to back, and
seldom meeting in time.
Patience was given me by Creation,
ancient song on tomorrow's wind,
this chant that was taught my tribes
is now unsung by many clans
of a single tribe,
and truly
such pains that exist for this moment,
which slay so many of the innocent
cannot but end in pain repeated
as all are reflected twins to self.
I am turtle,
and await the council of my tribes
clan into clan, the merging thought
that evil was never the star path, and
then the chant to the four directions,
I am turtle,
and death is not yet my robe,
for drums still throb the many
centers of my tribes, and a young
child smiles me of tomorrow,
and "grandparent,"
another child whispers, "please,
tell again my clan's beginning."
We have room for one more poem from the anthology This Same Sky, this one by Yehuda Amichai, an Israeli poet born in Germany in 1929.
The translation on this poem is by Stephen Mitchell
Jerusalem
On a roof in the Old City
laundry hanging in the late afternoon sunlight:
the white sheet of a woman who is my enemy,
the towel of a man who is my enemy,
to wipe off the sweat of his brow.
In the sky of the Old City
a kite.
At the other end of the string,
a child
I can't see
because of the wall.
We have put up many flags,
they have put up many flags.
To make us think that they're happy
To make them think that we're happy.
We'll finish this week with a little piece I wrote last year, at a time I was thinking about the idea of art and recognition of beauty for its own sake as the defining characteristic of humanness. That's the view reflected in this poem anyway.
brainstorm in light and color
sunshine
through droplets
of unfallen dew
becomes a prism
reaching to the sky
in primary colors
then back again to earth
the wonder
of such beauty
in some far forgotten past
made art a human preoccupation
those unresponsive to the awe
in beastly form
remained
Streetlight's blinking on. Time to call it a day.
In rereading this after I posted it, I realized that no where in this or in any previous issue in the past year and a half except the first one do I identify myself. That doesn't seem right, seems kind of like the Midnight Skulker in the Wizard of Id. So, I'm Allen Itz and I approve this blog.
Until next week....
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