A Gift of Flowers   Friday, August 29, 2008


III.8.5.


Getting right to the business at hand, here's what we have this week.

From my library

David Lehman
Pat Mora
Marina Tsvetaeva
Brigit Pegeen Kelly
Charles Entrekin
Howard Moss
Ku Sang
Jimmy Santiago Baca

From friends of "Here and Now"

Thane Zander
Margaret Barret Mayberry
Mary Jo Caffrey
Teresa White

Some from me

And a special photographic feature by friend of "Here and Now" Bruce Swanson








I start this week with three days, picked at random, from The Daily Mirror, A Journal in Poetry, a book of poems by David Lehman, published by Scribner Poetry in 2000.

Lehman, born in New York City in 1948, is a poet and editor for The Best American Poetry series. He has published five other collections of poems When a Woman Loves a Man in 2005, The Evening Sun in 2002, Valentine Place in 1996, Operation Memory in 1990, and An Alternative to Speech in 1986. He has also published books of essays and criticism and has worked extensively as an editor.

Like Lehman, I write a poem every day, usually not as good as his.



January 26

Freedom is wonderful
You can choose not to know
the names of actors and blues bands
or the teams playing in the Super bowl
You can go to bed instead
of going to the movies
and if you're lucky the person
next to you will be you
of the curly locks what a coincidence
how sweet to think of all the routes
we have taken to arrive at this moment
and I wonder whether we were ever
in the same place at the same time
before we knew each other
and now good morrow to waking souls
I am going to commit your scent to memory
and when you aren't here you'll still be here
and the person kissing you will be me


March 26

I just heard a very fine
piano player described as
the General Motors of jazz
now why didn't I think of that
"but what does it mean?" you
ask who the hell knows the
sunlight's streaming though
the frayed yellow curtains
in this flat that has grown
dear to me because I was sick
here and recovered as winter
is huffing and puffing its way
into spring the piano is playing
"Mona Lisa" in honor of the
Academy Awards last night I
stayed up for the whole dopey
thing and here's the light
of midday when the phone rings
I say "poetry headquarters"
making Hamilton laugh it's time.


June 1

The new day (a gray streak
of light) bubbles still in
last night's soda water
in my glass by the bed
I've go to pack pick up
a rental car load it and
drive up to Ithaca it'll be
good to be in the big house
but I don't want to leave
hard as it is to live in
this city I'm still a sucker
for the lights of Amsterdam
Avenue the bright yellow of
taxis in snow I feel like
a runner with a big lead off
first base who slides into second
and when the catcher's throw
skips into center field he hustles
to third his uniform streaked
with dirt he's safe


December 1

Is it time for the woman to turn
to the man and say, "It wasn't
supposed to be like this?" No,
because this isn't a spy movie,
it's just me in my new fedora and
double-breasted navy trench coat
with high winds of up to forth miles
per hour pushing me forward to
East Fourth and Second Avenue,
the KGB Bar with its red walls
and framed posters of Revolutionary
Russians, for poetry reading number nine
of the season. last year anyone got
a free drink who could answer why
the hottest New York nightspots
(e.g. Pravda) were named after defunct
Soviet institutions but no one got
it right and now it's time for the man
to turn to the woman and tell her
that she's the olive in his martini





La Boca, Buenos Aires, Argentina
Photo by Bruce Swanson




Before we move on to the rest of the poems for this week, I have five photos (the one above and the four that follow) by a friend, Bruce Swanson. Bruce and I were professional colleagues for many year and both retired from the same state agency, he, several years before me.

Since retirement, he's made good use of his time, traveling, from his home base in a red log-cabin in the mountains of Arizona. through much of the world, poking around, as he says, northern Africa, Europe, Asia or the South Pacific or in either Central or South America where he lives for periods of time of from three to four months yearly.

Bruce says he enjoys hiking, travel, casual photography, and electronics. He is also a private pilot.

Lucky for us Bruce takes his camera with him when he travels.




Lowendenkmal - El monumento del leon que esta llorando - The Crying Lion Memorial, Luzern - Lucerne, Switzerland
Photo by Bruce Swanson




Roman Temple at Evora - Templo Romano de Evora, Portugal
Photo by Bruce Swason




Terraced Farming near Chivay - Colca Canyon, Peru
Photo by Bruce Swanson




Two Babes
Photo by Bruce Swanson



Thanks Bruce for the use of your photos. I hope we see more in weeks to come.








Here's a piece I wrote two weeks ago.



is poetry necessary?

i wrote two
poems
yesterday
which makes this poem
unnecessary
under my poem a day
regimen
but
then
is any poem
necessary
and i think
at first well
no
you cannot eat
a poem
you cannot drink
a poem
you cannot hold a poem
over your head
as shelter
from
a storm
you cannot
from a poem
make a club to beat
back those who would
do you harm
and i think again
poetry -
for what purpose
poetry?
survival?
lizards survive
cockroaches survive
so what is necessary
for us to survive
that goes beyond
survival
needs
of lizards and cockroaches
and i think
of our first poets
the shaman
the witch doctor
the monk the priest
the rabbi the imam
or whatever you choose
to call those poets
of the soul
those poets of memory
and history
and myth
these creators
of humanity
who made us more
than the lizard
or the cockroach
or any of the lesser beasts
who while they have
their own spark
have
not
the fire of
humanity
and decide
that while this poem
may be
unnecessary
poetry
is
not








My next poem is by Pat Mora from her book of poetry, Borders published by Arte Publico Press of The University of Houston in 1986.

Mora, a poet and lecturer, was born in 1942 in El Paso, Texas. She is founder of the family literacy initiative, El dia de los ninos/El dia de los libros (Children's Day/Book Day), which is held every year on April 30th.



Withdrawal Symptoms

We were hooked early,
brown-eyed, round-faced girls
licked our lips
tasting sweet pleasures
even in first grade

rushed to school to push
tacks into bulletin boards
until our thumbs were sore
craving
smiles, smiles
pounded erasers, our cymbals
hiding us in white dust,
re-copied grammar drills
until abuelita worried
into our blood-shot eyes

all for gold stars, secret
winks from pale teachers

We still ache
for that taste but now
bitter frowns
in committees and board rooms
push and pound, push and pound
"Why am I the only Mexican American here?"

Our throats sting, fight tears.
Our stomachs cramp
deprived of sticky sweet smiles
out addiction

poison.








I have our New Zealand friend, poet Thane Zander, back this week with a powerful piece he posted on The Blueline Poetry Forum just last week.



Moaning at the Moon

i.

The devil wind of economic change
blows hot breath melting pot blackness
in selective hearing schools of husbands
and sons

The Musharif wind blows Pakistan apart
demolishing democracy in the wake
of a Muslim onslaught, the West wrestles
with a war of indifference in Iraq,
a war of restitution in Afghanistan
a war of a muscling up society
crying for peace ever after.

Fuck the retrograde steps to politicize,
screw the matrons in hospitals
letting the mentally ill go outside,
bugger the last of the Mohicans
as society buries the past
and unleashes a hurting future.

In the oven, you bake hash cookies
believing them to be therapeutic
the lime crush cooling a slaking thirst,
by the light of indifference
we throw bombs and suicide
throw fresh meat to the Piranha
so they may thrive in tree less jungles.

God help the hippies and Greenpeace
their voice muted by TV campaigns for drunk driving,
the audacious outlook of the commercially driven,
God help the orphans of Uganda, Rwanda
Heavens know who's going to help sanity,
One parent families the norm rather than the exception.

Ginsberg had it right, maniacal factoids,
the slice of culture lost in the dust of Arizona,
the piled high shit of civilization sinking
under it's own weight - we bite the bullet,
tense when athleticism is more the key,
the last days of a dying mans hopes
buried in the ruination of capitalism
suffering under the labels of Coke and MacDonald's

Too often in the past, we fought the hunger,
we fought for education, a welfare state,
our lot in this Earth measured by stances,
The Mouse That Roared, nuclear ban legislation,
freedom of expression, freedom to vote,
freedom to piss in an alleyway half pissed,
freedom to have a lawyer when arrested for naught.

Life, Liberty, Luxury, all attainable
and more so for countries like India,
the lasting realization that uniforms
will only be worn by Police Officers and Prison Staff,
the realization that Armed conflict is that,
but not on my shores Dear Friend,
leave it for those who want each others land,


Long gone now, the despot, Saddam
Long gone the need to fight, to destabilize,
Long gone the last Great War and Cold Wars,
Long gone the need to reestablish control,
Long gone, the lifeblood of natives
Long gone a lady in my life,
Long gone the need to fight for someone else's rights,
Long gone the urge to defend the indefensible.

ii.

In the morning
roses dripped dew
the blood of the sky
pooling in stereotype.

No answers to truth
plenty to lies,
the last days
when notices failed;
no one came.

iii.

We cried at the funeral of America
the dollar dropped in the gutter
the nemesis of Power
stolen by the harrowing red vultures,
the smoke from cremation shifts,
great cities awash with burning
the demographics sickly,

Our eyes are towards the stars,
depicting a special carrier
to uplift all the decent folks,
Roger Waters wrote:
"This species has amused itself to death"
and I agree wholeheartedly,
yes, we look skywards
everlasting look into longevity.

Passing the seventh grades art work
remembering when all was so simple,
the juxtaposition of Military and School
one feeds the other feeds the other feeds the other.
in a dying home, where crime escalates
where children smoke P, and do drugs,
in a home where drunks drive and kill
in a society that languishes in crime stats,
in a home that's riddled with right and wrong,
we survive the death monster, through love,
through hard effort,
through the looking glass where Rabbits smile,
through the advent of history
when the future collides with the now.

We made a stance, stand firm,
affirmed our love for each other,
made the place far safer:
for the old and the young
and those in between who cared too.

Tomorrow the weather dictates anxiety,
today it passed by without incident,
who knew why things change?
God apparently knows the answer,
yes I hear the call of the GodBotherers,
chanting at Sunrise festivals and praying
hands outstretched to let the Jesus Man in
yes they too deserve a place in Nirvana.

Yes tomorrow, always tomorrow,
let's see what the sun and moon bring
the bark of the maniacs, wails of besotted witches,
the call of nature, human flesh fair game
to all animals ill treated, song birds
call their tune in raucous laughter, derision,
the sound of talk show hosts breathing new life
into old news, yes we dance to the Dragon,
smile to Toyota and Honda,
spread the news on Dell computers (made in India).

The second hand on my watch comes adrift,
am I destined to stop my time, sit and cry?
The onerous task of reporting the state of the world,
playing over and over the doom and gloom,
apparently a mushroom cloud won't stop it,
yes from ashes to roses, daisies to dirt,
dust remains spread to a west wind intent on change,
puzzlement dictates the road ahead
surprises the best way to keep the faith,
luxury in the form of Playboy mansions,
and the decadence of Hollywood, the porn industry,
the light at the end of the tunnel as black as coal,
despite the ruminations of the Tarot Queen,
and the morning news presenters, only on TV.

iv.

The wolf whistle took me by surprise,
her big tits bounced with her admiring eye,
suddenly I knew there was a future, possibilities.

Today I await tomorrow and the days after,
full of optimism and anxiousness .








Marina Tsvetaeva was born in Moscow in 1892. Her father was Ivan Vladimirovich Tsvetaev, a professor of art history at the University of Moscow, who later founded the Alexander III Museum, which is now known as the Pushkin Museum of Fine Arts. Tsvetaeva's mother, Maria Alexandrovna Meyn, was Ivan's second wife, a highly literate woman.

In 1902, Tsvetaeva's mother contracted tuberculosis. Because it was believed that a change in climate could help cure the disease, the family traveled abroad until shortly before her death in 1906. In 1908, Tsvetaeva studied literary history at the Sorbonne. Her own first collection of poems, Evening Album, was self-published in 1910. It attracted the attention of the poet and critic Maximilian Voloshin.

Tsvetaeva began spending time at Voloshin's home in the Black Sea resort of Koktebel, a well-known haven for writers, poets and artists. While in Koktebel, she met and married a cadet in the Officers' Academy. She was 19, he was 18. Despite the marriage, she continued to have affairs with other literary notables of both sexes.

Tsvetaeva and her husband, Efron, spent summers in the Crimea until the revolution, until 1914 when he volunteered to go to the front. By 1917 he was an officer stationed in Moscow where Tsetsaeva was to witness the Russian Revolution first hand. After the Revolution, Efron joined the White Army, and Marina returned to Moscow and was trapped there for five years, a time when there was a terrible famine. During the course of the famine, Tsvetaeva placed her eldest daughter in a state orphanage, believing she would be better fed there. Instead, the child died of starvation in 1920.

In May 1922, Tsvetaeva and her remaining daughter left the Soviet Union and were reunited with with her husband in Berlin. In 1925, the family settled in Paris, where they would live for the next 14 years. At about this time her husband contracted tuberculosis, adding to the family's difficulties. Tsvetaeva received a meager stipend from the Czechoslovak government, which gave financial support to artists and writers who had lived in Czechoslovakia. In addition, she tried to make whatever she could from readings and sales of her work. She turned more and more to writing prose because she found it made more money than poetry.

Although she had written passionately pro-White poems during the Revolution, her fellow emigres thought that she was insufficiently anti-Soviet, and that her criticism of the Soviet regime was insufficient . She was particularly criticized for writing an admiring letter to the Soviet poet Vladimir Mayakovsky. In the wake of this letter, the emigre paper The Latest News, to which Tsvetaeva had been a frequent contributor, refused point blank to publish any more of her work. She found solace in her correspondence with other writers, including Boris Pasternak, Rainer Maria Rilke, the Czech poet Anna Teskova, and the critics D. S. Mirsky and Aleksandr Bakhrakh.

Meanwhile, Tsvetaeva's husband was rapidly developing Soviet sympathies and was homesick for Russia. He was, however, afraid because of his past as a White soldier. Eventually, either out of idealism or to garner acceptance from the Communists, he began spying for the NKVD, the forerunner of the KGB. He daughter shared his views, and increasingly turned against her mother. In 1937, she returned to the Soviet Union.

Although, she was held responsible for his actions and was ostracized in Paris because of the implication that he was involved with the NKVD. World War II had made Europe as unsafe and hostile as Russia. Tsvetaeva felt that she no longer had a choice and returned to the Soviet Union in 1939.

She did not foresee that, In Stalin's Russia, anyone who had lived abroad was suspect, as was anyone who had been among the intelligentsia before the Revolution. All doors had closed to her. She got bits of work translating poetry, but otherwise the established Soviet writers refused to help her, and chose to ignore her plight.

Her husband and daughter were arrested for espionage. Her husband was shot in 1941 and her daughter served over eight years in prison. Tsvetaeva and her son were evacuated to Yelabuga, where, with no way to support herself and no place to live, she hung herself in 1941, though some maintain that she did not commit suicide but was actually murdered by the state security service.

The poem I have from Tsvetaeva is from the book, Poem of the End; Selected Narrative and Lyrical poems, published in 2004 by Ardis Publishers. It is a bilingual edition, in the original Russian with English translation by Nina Kossman.

The Poem of the End was originally published by Tsvetaeva in 1923.



The fatal volume
Holds no temptation for
A woman: For a woman
Ars Amandi is all of Earth.

The heart is the most faithful
Of all love potions.
From her cradle, a woman
Is someone's deadly sin.

As the sky is too distant!
Lips are closer in the dark.
Do not judge, God! You
Were never a woman on earth.

19 September 1915


***


Sweetly-sweetly,thinly-thinly
Something whistled in the pine.
In my dream I saw a baby
With midnight-colored eyes.

Still, hot resin keeps dripping
From the little scarlet pine.
Sawed apart, my heart is ripping
In this splendid night all mine.

8 August 1916


***


Black as your eye's pupil, sucking up the
Light - I love you, sharp-sighted night.

Let me sing you and celebrate you, O ancient mother
Of songs, who bridles the earth's four winds.

Calling you,glorifying you - I am nothing but a
Shell in which the ocean is not yet silent.

Night! I have looked too long into human pupils!
Reduce me to ashes, blackest of suns - night!

9 August 1916


***


Imprisoned in the winter rooms
Or in the sleepy Kremlin -
I'll remember, I'll remember
The wide fields.

The light village air,
The afternoon, and the peace,
And the tribute to my feminine pride -
Your masculine tears.

27 July 1917


***


From your arrogant Poland
You brought me flattering words,
And a sable hat,
And your hand with long fingers,
And bows, and endearments,
And a princely coat-of-arms with a crown.

- But I brought you
Two silver wings.

20 August 1917


***


I remember the first day,the infantile brutality,
The languor and the divine dregs of a swallow.
The carelessness of the hands, the heartlessness of the heart
Falling like a stone - and like a hawk - onto my chest.

And now - trembling from heat and pity, what's left
Is this: to howl like a wolf, this: to fall at your feet,
To lower my eyes, knowing the penalty for pleasure -
A convict's passion and a cruel love.

4 September 1917








For 60 years or so after World War II, there were two great powers in the world in conflict with each other on just about every issue, economics, politics, morality, ambitions, territories, but, despite all those conflicts, there was no direct war between them, an event unprecedented in history. The reason - the bomb. It scared the crap out everyone, including, on both side, those with the power to use it.

I worry now that we no longer have something that sufficiently scares the crap out of us, which led me to this poem.



calling Dr. Strangelove

the past week
has taken me back
to October, 1962,
missiles in Cuba,
American warships
interdicting
Russian ships
carrying more
missiles, turning
them back, threats
and counter threats,
nuclear forces
on both sides on edge,
at the ready, war talk

18 years old, my first
semester of college,
afraid, but, somehow
not, the nuclear threats
somehow reassuring,
the madness of the mutual
assured destruction
somehow reassuring,
the certainty that the
madness
would be contained
in the end
by the realization
on both sides that
there is no winning side
to a nuclear war

the problem
that worries me
now is that,
without the rattling
of nuclear sabers,
war might come
to seem to some
rational
in a way it never
would in 1962,
that nationalistic ambitions
might lead to new calculations
of risk and reward, that
without the threat of annihilation
of hundreds of millions,
the death of hundreds
of thousands might become
an acceptable cost
for fulfillment of the ancient
dreams of the czars

most of my youth
was lived
in the shadow of the
bomb,
a horror
whose absence
is not reassuring
in a day when ambition
is testing new and dangerous
boundaries








Brigit Pegeen Kelly was born in Palo Alto, California, in 1951. She is the author of The Orchard, published in 2004, Song, which was the 1994 Lamont Poetry Selection of The Academy of American Poets, and To The Place of Trumpets in 1987, which was selected by James Merrill for the Yale Series of Younger Poets. Her poems have appeared in many periodicals, including The Gettysburg Review, The Kenyon Review, and The Yale Review. Also, her work was chosen for the 1993 and 1994 volumes of The Best American Poetry.

A recipient of many awards and honors, Kelly is a professor of English at the University of Illinois, Urbana-Champaign.

This poem is from her second book, Song.



The Witnesses

The Witnesses come gain. They come to my mind
Before they come to the door. The young man wears a red scarf.
And the old woman is soft in the head. We sit on the porch
And she fans the waves painted on the Watchtower's cover.

The waves are blue as rebellion. "The ocean," she says,
"See here...the ocean...the ocean is full of dirt...
And it is going..." And she is gone. Stares blindly
At the spot where two drab deer made the baby laugh

By eating dead bushes. He thought they were cows. "Moo,"
He said, "Moooo." He names things by their sounds.
The young Witness picks up the dropped conversation .
He plies a soft black book. Is pledged to persuasion.

Once he was a Papist, but now is not. He frowns
At the statue of Mary covered with bird lime. "The signs
Will come," he says. "The signs, and then the End.
Only the chosen will stand." My mind lies quiet

I hear the crows barking. The ocean is going
And the trees in good faith are drinking in our poison.
How dark the night is and high up. Starless
With ignorance. There through the low branches

The turning river shines gold as a prize ribbon,
Gold and proud as a seal of approval. But the water
Has no fish in it. And the watchtower has no beacon.
Or the beacon is broken. The beacon limps over the ocean

Like the mind of an old person coming to thought
And receding...Or like the flight of a damaged bird...
My sister had a bird once and my cousin got it. He
Pulled its feathers out. He stood under the street lamp

And pulled its feathers out. The he pitched it
Into the air again and again, whistling as it plummeted
Like a falling star...O kill the bird! Kill it!
Be done with it!...O do...not kill...the bird...


"Don't let the Witnesses in," says my husband. "They
Pollute the place. Talk to them on the porch," he says.
"Or better, at the bottom of the hill." Posted with signs
The fence row there guards the game preserve the hunters

Flush deer from. They shot the deer dead on the road
And then strap the bodies upside down to the tailgates
Of their trucks, so that the deer's neck arch back as ours do
In sex, but with soft, soft...The Witnesses come again.








Next, I have a poem from friend and fellow San Antonio poet Margaret Barrett Mayberry.

Margaret was born 1932 in London, England. She married a British medical student and is now widowed. She lived in various countries before and after marriage, but has lived in San Antonio for over 35 very busy years.

Margaret has an MA in Clinical Psychology from St. Mary's University and an MA in Environmental. Management (Urban Studies) from University of Texas, San Antonio. For 20 years, she has served on the city council of Hill Country Village, one of a number of small incorporated towns within the geographic limits of San Antonio, and has remained active in community activities in San Antonio for all those years and more.

She says she has done a variety of things, including raising two sons and helping with four grandchildren, but nothing related to poetry until recently when she began to write.

She says she was moved to write this poem after watching a program on CNN on the plight of children and mothers in Ethiopia.



Ethiopia, 2008

Only two years old,
His huge brown eyes, unseeing,
Sweep the inside,
Of the hospital tent,
The weary mother,
Strain showing in every line,
Hasn't the energy,
To brush away the flies,
That crawl,
Across the hollows of his face,
Flies, impatient,
Too certain of death to wait.

Sick and dying children,
Lie on cots nearby,
Tended by volunteer doctors,
White clad nurses,
Who cannot allow themselves,
To cry, to grieve,
Matter of fact,
In order to do their work,
Wondering,
Where is the rest of the world,
That it can turn away,
And let this happen.

The sheet is drawn,
Over the child's sightless eyes,
The mother rises,
Collects her scant belongings,
Never looking back,
Begins a walk of many miles,
Passing others,
Going in both directions,
Passes a camel,
Just bones, sinking in the sand,
What hope is there,
When even the camels are dying.








Charles Entrekin was born in 1941 in Birmingham, Alabama. He took his BA in English from Birmingham Southern College, in 1964. He left Birmingham in 1965 and lived in various states while pursuing advanced degrees in philosophy and creative writing. Arriving in California in 1969, he stayed and now lives in Berkeley.

Entrekin has taught at almost every educational level. He taught preschool language skills to six-year-olds with he Head Start program in Birmingham, Alabama; taught introduction to set theory to disadvantaged high school graduates with the Upward Bound Program in Tuscaloosa, Alabama; taught composition, English literature, creative writing, philosophy at the college level, and was the founder of the Creative Writing Program at John F. Kennedy University's Orinda, California campus.

For 24 years, he was the managing editor of The Berkeley Poets Cooperative and The Berkeley Poets Workshop & Press.

The Managing Editor of Hip Pocket Press, Entrekin is also the author of In This Hour, a collection of poems published by Berkeley Poets Workshop & Press in 1990 Casting For The Cutthroat & Other Poems also published by BPW&P in 1986, Casting For The Cutthroat published by Thunder City Press in 1978, and Birmingham, Alabama; All Pieces Of A Legacy, again by BPW&P in 1975.

Our poem this week is from In This Hour.



For a Girl I Once Knew

Who made all A's
until chemistry.
She flunked it one summer,
the first black mark, ever,
on her record, whose dad
had died before she was born.
I';ll do better this winter,
she said, and flunked again,
and laughingly strangely
failed it again in the spring.
    The campus joke, all A's
and three F's, who finally
took Geology: claimed she'd
best discover the lay of the land.
    I remember her thin, long
limbed, and all those sudden smiles
the day she ran off with a man
not right in his head, and
the quality of her answers
no matter what was asked of her.








A couple of years ago I was trying to write some poems at a coffee shop. I didn't have anything to write on but some bar napkins so I wrote several short poems to fit on the bar napkins. In the process, I formalized what I was doing, invented some simple rules and invented a new poetry form which I called, in honor of the source of inspiration, barku. The rules are simple - ten words on six lines, the perfect size to fit on a bar napkin, and you've written a barku.

It was a little game all in fun, except now I'm beginning to see barkus, following the rules I set, show up in different places on the web.

Wild!

Here are three I wrote a couple of weeks ago.



3 barku

rain
at night
brings reflected light
to silver
slick
roadways

*****

cat
with three kitten
litter
begs
for food
on doorstep

*****


wind blows
rain
drips
wet feet
leave trail
on tile








My next poem is by Howard Moss, from his book Notes from the Castle published by Atheneum in 1979.

Moss, a poet, dramatist and critic, was born in New York City in 1922. He attended the University of Michigan, where he won a Hopwood Award.

He was poetry editor of The New Yorker magazine from 1948 until his death in 1987. He won the Pulitzer Prize for Poetry in 1971 and the National Book Award in 1972 for Selected Poems.

As New Yorker editor, he is credited with discovering a number of major American poets.



I Sit by the Window

I said fate plays a game without a score,
And who needs fish if you've got caviar?
The triumph of the Gothic style would come to pass
And turn you on - no need for coke or grass.
    I sit by the window. Outside, an aspen
    When I loved, I loved deeply. It wasn't often.

I said the forest's only part of a tree.
Who needs the whole girl if you've got her knee?
sick of the dust raised by the modern era,
The Russian eye would rest on an Estonian spire.
    I sit by the window. The dishes are done.
    I was happy here. But I won't be again.

I wrote: The bulb looks at the floor in fear,
And love, as an act, lacks a verb; the zer-
o Euclid thought the vanishing point became
Wasn't math - it was the nothingness of Time.
    I sit by the window. And while I sit
    My youth comes back. Sometimes I'd smile. Or spit.

I said that the leaf may destroy the bud;
What's fertile falls in fallow soil - a dud;
That on the flat field, the unshadowed plain
Nature spills the seeds of trees in vain.
    I sit by the window. Hands lock my knees.
My heavy shadow's my squat company.

My song was out of tune, my voice was cracked,
But at least no chorus can ever sing it back.
That talk like this reaps no reward bewilders
No one - no one's legs rest on my shoulders
    I sit by the window in the dark. Like an express,
    the waves behind the wavelike curtain crash.

A loyal subject of these second-rate years,
I proudly admit that my finest ideas
Are second-rate, and may the future take them
As trophies of my struggle against suffocation.
    I sit in the dark. And it would be hard to figure out
    Which is worse: The dark inside, or the darkness out.








My next poem is by "Here and Now" friend Mary Jo Caffrey.

Mary is a retired Air Force member living in Gretna, Nebraska. She enjoys writing poetry for children and adults. she is a member of the Nebraska Writers Guild and Nebraska Writers Workshop.

Here's her poem.



Posthumously Given

Somewhere all seasons, even Spring in highest bloom
fails its charge to quicken hope and renewal.
Gone forever lives blessed by quickening light -
banished from sight every bright soul
traded for a ribboned medal,
soldiers' recompense for life are these
and stone-marked battlefields.

Cherished for the loss of a soldier's fight
and grasped tightly in a mother's hand,
this bit of bronze and silk commends
the survivor's right
to grieve every season
and especially, Spring.








Ku Sang was born in Seoul in 1919 and died there in 2004. When he was a small child his family moved to the northeastern city of Wonsan, where he grew up. His parents were Catholics, his elder brother became a priest. After years of study in Japan, he returned to the northern part of Korea and began work as a writer and journalist. He was forced to flee to the south after the Liberation of 1945 because of his refusal to conform to the ideological standards of the Communists when he tried to publish his first volume of poems.

He was for many years an editorialist for the Kyonghyang Newspaper in Seoul. His first poems were written while he was a student in Japan and he steadily wrote and published volumes of poetry, as well as essays on social, literary, and spiritual topics. He has also written a number of plays, and edited literary anthologies.

The apparent simplicity of Ku Sang's work originally garnered him little attention as a major poet. Recently, critical opinion shifted and his work is now recognized a major religious poet of great originality and utter personal integrity. As his reputation has spread, his work as been been translated and published in French, English, German, Italian and Japanese.

The next poems are taken from his book Wastelands of Fire and were translated by Anthony Teague.



Old Age

Here we are in no desert land.

It is rather a fresh field, nurturing, mysterious buds
that will only blossom in Eternity's land.

In youth we tended to wield our bodies
but now we must use strength of mind,
and as we rouse up our sleepy souls
we must apply our attention to metaphysical things.

Above all, let us not be slaves to spectres of loneliness,
not experience cares and concerns as distractions.

Loneliness and insecurity are graces
announcing the birth of a new dimension;
using now the body's ageing, and the lack of energy,
as stimuli offered to the mind,
let us advance towards life's true renewal.

The less the joys of the flesh become,
the clearer we see both life and self;
so, as the flames of faith, hope, and love burn brighter,
let us listen more closely to Eternity's voice.

Now let us awake from this illusory dream
where, like the leaves and blossoms of Nature,
everything blooms to vanish with the seasons,

and cherishing a glorious, undying dream
that will bloom beyond death, on another shore,
let us live and old age as radiant as silver.


Shame

In the zoo,
peering between bars and netting,
I search for an animal
that knows what shame is.

I say, keeper!
Might there just possibly be
in those monkey's red posteriors
at least some trace of it?

What of the bear's paw, perpetually licked?
Or the seals' whiskers,
or maybe the parrot's beak?
Is there really no trace of it there?

Since shame has vanished
from the people of the city,
I've come to the zoo to look for it.








As a manager of people and processes for many years, I learned a lot of lessons that apply not just in business, but in daily and family life as well.

This was one of the hardest lesson to learn.



a hard duty to fulfill

it is
a time now
for my
silence

no matter the
urgency
i feel to
question
to express concern
to counsel
caution

it is time
to back off

to let the thing
unfold
with my
unqualified
support

a firm handshake
a hearty
clap
on the back

it is time
to let
fortune's path
unwind

silence

a hard hard
duty
to fulfill








Jimmy Santiago Baca was born in Santa Fe, New Mexico, in 1952. He was abandoned by his parents when he was two years old. He lived with one of his grandmothers for several years before being placed in an orphanage, eventually living on the streets. When he was twenty-one he was convicted on charges of drug possession and incarcerated, serving six years in prison, four of them in isolation. During this time, Baca taught himself to read and write, then began to compose poetry. A fellow inmate convinced him to submit some of his poems to Mother Jones magazine, then edited by Denise Levertov. Levertov printed Baca's poems and began corresponding with him, eventually finding a publisher for his first book.

Immigrants in Our Own Land, Baca's first major collection, was highly praised. In 1987, his semi-autobiographical novel in verse, Martin and Meditations on the South Valley, received the American Book Award for poetry. A self-styled "poet of the people," Baca conducts writing workshops with children and adults at countless elementary, junior high and high schools, colleges, universities, reservations, barrio community centers, white ghettos, housing projects, correctional facilities and prisons from coast to coast.

My poem for this week is from Baca's book Healing Earthquakes, a Love Story in Poems, published by Grove Press in 2001. The poem is one of eighteen love poems that he calls Meeting My Love, True to My Heart and Loyal to My Soul.



Sixteen

Lisana, this morning you walk to school
in the fruit-fragrant morning, the misty
humid air,
the forest's luxurious leafage,
the sparkling dew on stones and steel
    encircle you
    as if you were a dark emerald on a ring.
There are ghosts that reside
in the eyes of dogs,
and each leaf is a tongue chattering with wind
about whose wife is loving another woman's husband,
here at one in the afternoon it pours
love songs to you from me,
    I touch you
    I see you
    I kiss and hold and hear your sweet voice
    I pray for rain each day at one
        to convey my passion to you
        to douse you in my passion
        to sop you in my joy of having you
and with the millions of eyes of rain
I see you through the open-air windows sitting in a classroom
watching me, thinking of me,
    the far undulating fields bloom
    blossoms of white fog
    and your mind and heart lose themselves
    in the constant humming of rain and mist and fog,
    walking with me, seeing my face, kissing my lips,
    my land, my love, is creating in you
    our story, our life together,
    the rain is telling you
        the folklore of our journey together,
        the roof dripping in rain whispers
        how we walk streets in New York,
        the dripping from leaves
    converses with you in hushed intimacy
    how we sit before a fire in a cabin
    here in my land of Nuevo Mejico
        and how we laugh, cry, quarrel
            but always love,
            because
    people here believe in folklore,
    believe in myth
    believe in the dreams that are the language of our ancestors
speaking to us, sometimes warning us,
other times celebrating a child's birth,
and when you hear thunder and lightning
in the distant sky, it is
just and afterthought of mine, my love,
something I forgot to tell you.
that I love you, it thunders that I love you
            in the lightning flashes.








For just the second time, we have a poem from our friend Teresa White.

Teresa has been nominated twice for the Pushcart Prize and has been published in numerous online and print journals. Her latest full-length collection of poems, Gardenias for a Beast received a favorable endorsement from Billy Collins.

Here's her poem.



An Orexic is Not the Name of a Prehistoric Bird

Flowers may be five calories the bouquet,
but how thin is thin enough and when
will you take off that black cape?

You tantalize the boys already.
Why reduce your curves to stalk and pole?
I know. I remember the one-egg breakfast

pan-fried in Teflon, three honey and lemon
cough drops, at two p.m. How I leaned
my head against a coconut palm,

eyes closed, and rolled those drops
one by one 'till the sweet liquid became a banquet
and dinner whatever Grandma made

I took by the square inch, spread 'round my plate
so she never knew I wasn't eating.
Dad kept saying how good I looked.








The olympics allowed us to learn a lot about modern-day China, including some things they probably wished we hadn't learned.

I'll finish up the week with this one.



get your okeydokey certificates while they last

it'll
be a whole new
chapter
in political science
textbooks

"The Chinese Rule
of Okeydokey Dissent"

good title
i think of a lesson
for the education all future tyrants
on how to have your cake
and eat it too

first
you must establish
and publicize the availability
of okeydokey protest areas
so that persons with grievance
can have an approved
venue
where they can
address their government
for redress

these should be beautiful sites
landscaped and pleasing to the
eyes of pushy foreign media
who will headline to the world
the news of new tolerance
taking shape
in your previously despotic
regime

pose for pictures
hand out all day suckers
be a warm and generous host

pushy foreign media
unable to sustain a thought
for more than two days running
will never notice that the official
government office assigned
the honor of awarding
certificates
of okeydokeyness
allowing citizens to demonstrate
their concerns
at the designated okeydokey citizen-
input space
of their choice
is almost impossible to find

nor will there be much note
when it turns our that every
citizen applying for certificates
of okeydokeyness
gets arrested and hauled away
for reeducation
on the exact meaning of
okeydokeyness
in the new tolerant society
bearing no resemblance to the
old despotic regime
for whom the whole concept
of okeydokeyness
would be a threat

enforce this new modern
okeydokey tolerance rule
by recruiting two
70-year old women
to apply for permission
to complain about getting
screwed by the government
in the purchase of their land
for the purpose
of building an olympic
venue certain to impress
pushy foreign media
with your new tolerance
and dedication to the capitalist
concept of
stealing as much money
as possible
from your docilized citizenry
and bamboozled foreigners

and, immediately upon their arrival
at the official party office for
issuance of okeydokey certificates,
arrest the two 70-year-old ladies
and ship them off for
reeducation

if this doesn't work
invade your smallest
neighbor
and everyone will forget
the whole okeydokey toleration
foolishness
anyway









And that's it for this week.

But first, a word about last night.

I watched the finale to the Democratic Convention and the amazing speech by Barack Obama. I haven't been this hopeful about the future of my counry since the 1964 election when the realization of two generations of progressive dreams for the country was at hand. The days soon turned dark, of course, with the continuing expansion of the VietNam war and much that was gained was put at rixk.

It doesn't have to turn out that way this time.

Defy the past and vote for the future.

Obama/Biden - The Future

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Though The Way Goes Steep and Narrow, It Does Not End   Friday, August 22, 2008


III.8.4.




Verse 46 of my copy of the Tao Te Ching says:


When the Great Integrity permeated out lives,
freely galloping horses fertilized the fields.

When the Great Integrity was lost,
war horses were bred in the country side.

There is no greater calamity
than acquisitiveness racing out of control.

Only those who know when enough is enough
can ever have enough.



The leadership of our country lost the Great Integrity in recent years and has frittered away our resorces and our will on meaningless bravado and harebrained expeditions.

Now faced with Russian war horses we lack the will and the resources to do anything but bluster. The consequences of the past eight years of rule by fool are already coming due.

In this matter, having nothing to offer but bluster myself, I'll put it aside and move on to this week's agenda.

From my library

Lorenzo Thomas
Eugenio de Andrade
Pablo Neruda
Emma Lazarus
Michael Gottlieb
R.S. Thomas
Lawrence Ferlinghetti

From the books in my library by friends of "Here and Now"

Gary Blankenship
Joanna M. Weston
Arlene Ang
S. Thomas Summers

And, of course, the usual pieces by me








Lorenzo Thomas was born in the Republic of Panama in 1944 and grew up in New York City, where his family immigrated in 1948.

Thomas was a graduate of Queens College in New York and a professor of English at the University of Houston-Downtown for more than 20 years.

The next poem is from his book Dancing on Main Street, published by Coffee House Press in 2004. It is one of several books Thomas wrote, including both poetry collections and criticism.

Thomas died in 2005.



Spirits You All

     The Charles Gayle Trio at the Houston Jazz Festival,
     September 16, 1992
     - For Charles Gayle

All it is

Church

If you hear it

He
Church

He
Concerthall flame breath
To sidewalk
Breathes
Through a saxophone
To deep pulsing tunnels
The People
Whipped by money changers
Beat down my money
Hang wearily
Awaiting darkness
Bats

He church
Speaking no words
Their souls are not silent
He
Makes audible
The sonar of thousands
The horn coaxes measured Jesus
Sing
Gayle,
Angular
Erect
Vattel Cherry dances
Bass
Bells like the click of cowries
Flash like sparks
Around his instrument
Marc
Edwards reaches
For a distant drumbeat
Snaring it, then lets
It go
To fly around this space

Inside his saxophone
Are all the voices
Spirits you all
The shrieks of Daddy Grace
and grandmaw's moan

Young girls
All that is truly precious of the earth
Loud and laughing
Who do not know
The troubles of this world
Glowing
With bells in their ears
Fluttering bird-iike
In girl conspiracies

From concerthall under red lights
To sidewalk exiled from neon

If you can hear it
Spirits you all
Dance from this saxophone

Cold light in falling darkness

Under the shudder of Suburbans
Fuming on the overpass
A woman in a carton
She might have asked a husband
To break down
And stack beside the drive for heavy trash
Busies her hands
Folding rags with gracious care
Into a plastic bag

Her heart just idles
And her mind curls up
Around a picture of a small white clapboard
Missionary Baptist Church
Nestled in hope beside a country road
Where the choir voice
Was all th sound of life
To laughing girls
And soft brown faces
Some of them softened only
When they sang

Church don't mean religion
May even be a verb

Sleeping in fits
A man ten feet away
Wrapped in a sheet of cardboard
Does not dream;
That lobe was leached
In floods of liquid flame
That made 1,000 nights like this
Instant forgettings
And survivable
He does not see himself
In marcelled hair
Long gleaming Stacy Adams cordovans
As dangerous as German U-boats
On the dreamland floor
As the orchestra
High trumpet, hoarse trombones
Slides into "Cherry Pink
And Apple Blossom White"

You think these cracked feet
Have no mambo memory?
Well, no they don't
He never did that
But he saw it in a movie once
A century ago

He
Church in trembles

Joy?

And struggle?

Joy and struggle

Here
When night's a cloak
Of heavy hopelessness
And day a flash of puzzled patterns
Lining it
A fashion
Such ill-fitting materiality
That even those who grab the most
See themselves scrambling
To barely cover their behinds

And now the brazen shofar of a horn
As the commuter bats
Unfold themselves into
The evening
And step along the sidewalk
And do not look around or down
And if they do don't see
What you can hear
Spiraling out of Charles Gayle's saxophone
Spirits you all

Know where it comes from

Church if you feel it








I wrote this one last week while trying out a new hide-out downtown.



takes one to know one

i wrote a poem
once
about looking out
on the people
walking by here at
Soledad and Martin

good idea,
lousy poem

that sits
still
in a far dark
corner
of my "notes" file
never yet
to see the day
but kept
for the possibility
that
one day
the poem
will be equal
to the idea

today,
looking out
that same window
there's not much
to see

it's early August
and damn hot
and nobody is on
the sidewalk
unless
they have absolutely
no place to go
that's air-conditioned

like
the two kids that just passed
a
tall
skinny
black
kid
and a short round latin guy
a multiethnic
Mutt & Jeff

(Jesse Jackson would be proud)

rainbow coalition
juvies

and how do i know they're
delinquents?
you ask

well
that should be obvious,
i'm an old white guy

and anybody under thirty
all decked out in a
gimme hat headed
south
while the wearer is headed
east,
sneakers,
baggy shorts
hung butt crack
to ankles
is sure to be
a delinquent
of some kind or other

plus
the styles
may change
but the walk is the walk
same as it was
fifty years ago when
i walked it,
representing,
as they say now
looking for trouble
where no one was looking
to catch me

takes one to know one
you know








Next, I have several short poems by Portuguese poet Eugenio De Andrade from his book Forbidden Words, published by New Directions in 2003. It is a bilingual book, with English translations by Alexis Levitin.

Eugenio de Andrade, pseudonym of Jose Fontinhas. Born in 1923, he is revered in Portugal as one of the leading names in contemporary Portuguese poetry.

de Andrade died in 2005.



Voyage

Side by side and separate we'll go,
and bite our words, as one by one they come,
taciturn and brilliantly aglow
- of, love, my constellation of pure mist,
shoulder of my hesitating arms.
Forgotten, remembered, then named again
in mouths of lovers now who kiss
high upon the decks of passing ships;
both of us undone, scattered deep on shale,
floating whole in realms of radiant fish,
and drowned in seamen's voices as they sail


Vegetal and Alone

It is autumn, let go of me.

Let my hair go free, like wild ponies,
no gloominess,
no engagements,
no letters to be answered.

Leave me my right arm,
the one more ardent,
the one more blue,
the one made more for flight.

Give me back the face of a summer
without the fever of all those lips,
without the lightest sound of tears
on my burning lids.

Leave me alone, vegetal and alone,
flowing like a river of leaves
toward a night where the most beautiful adventure
is recorded perfectly, without a single letter.


Post Scriptum

Now I return to your clear body's light.
I recognize and architecture formed
of burning earth and simple, untouched moon,
that floats beyond all limits in a night
already thick and fragrant with the dawn.

You wake at break of day, your mouth alight
with lilies, clamoring confused desire;
an open rose in breeze or in the sand,
a rose both tall and white, and only white,
behind you sea, that sets my veins afire.

You stand there at the border of my verse,
still warm from all those kisses I gave you;
so young and more than young, unstained by grief,
- as at that time when fear was at its worst,
my fear you'd trip upon a drop of dew.


To Waken

Is it a bird, is it a rose,
is it the sea that wakens me?
Bird or rose or sea,
all is fire, all desire.
To awake is to be rose of the rose,
song of the bird, water of the sea.








Gary Blankenship has been a friend of "Here and Now" almost since we started. His poems have appeared here frequently, including early on poems from his book A River Transformed: Wang Wei's River Wang.

Gary's book came out about the same time as mine. While mine is pretty much a scramble, Gary's is focused on the poems of 8th century Chinese master Wang Wei, creating modern free verse poems inspired by Wang Wei's poems and in the spirit of that great poet and his times.

Gary was a good candidate to make this project work because his work has the kind of quiet strength typical of Chinese poetry of this period, what I referred to in a foreword to the book as Gary's "calm and contemplative center" as a poet.

It is a beautiful book, beautifully written and beautifully framed. I don't know if copies of the book are still available. You can check into that by clicking on Gary's link in the link section on the right side of this page.



XVIII: After Wang Wei's North Hill (16) - Adrift on the River

There is no color; the mountains white;
the valley thick with fog and cry of geese
Once scarlet flowed across the green,
and green faded to yellow, gold and brown.

The forest black against winter's sky,
the river dark with the shade of naked trees,
every gray and masked bird as silent
as clouds heavy with the seasons cold crop.

Pale as quiet nights, you tremble
as the last petal falls to an early frost.
Worry not, there will be other springs,
there will be other journey after this.

I have lost our oars and whittle new
from oak leaves drifting past red hills.


XVII: After Wang Wei's Waves of Willow Trees (12) - What Isn't, Is Forgotten

There are no castles on our horizons;
no ramparts to fly banners and warn
seabirds we have fled and do not follow!

Footsteps lead towards smoke and home.
We look back to the sea s if to recall
who was left behind unharvested.

Your hair floats unlike kelp at low tide,
fingers grasp un like roots in soft sand,
your limbs as white as split driftwood.

I cannot see what you are, only what your aren't.
You are flesh, blood and bone, but I see
shell, beach and surf as the moon turns orange.

Around and around, a toy boat floats;
an old man argues its sail was ever blue.


XIII: After Wang Wei's Fine Apricot Lodge (3) - After the Market

Each perfect globe placed with care
until the basket filled beyond the brim,
no room for the final, blemished fruit.
I split it with my thumbs, half for me,
half for you, the bitter center
discarded as if almonds, valueless.

Unrolled, the scroll fills a wall.
With soiled fingers, we trace their journey.,
a bit of pulp left wherever they stopped,
juice where they slept, ate, wrote.
Do not worry. The scroll is not his creation,
but only a copy of a fake, valueless.

Plant a seed wet with flesh,
a thousand years later, a dead tree falls.








The next poem is from The Yellow Heart written by Nobel Laureate Pablo Neruda as he prepared for his death by cancer and the imminent U.S.-backed military coup in Chili in 1973.

Born in 1904, Pablo Neruda was the pen name and, later, legal name of the Chilean writer and politician Neftali Ricardo Reyes Basoalto. During his lifetime, Neruda occupied many diplomatic posts and served a stint as senator for the Chilean Communist Party. When Conservative Chilean President Gonzales Videla outlawed communism in Chile, a warrant was issued for Neruda's arrest. Friends hid him for months in a basement of a home in the Chilean port of Valparaiso. Neruda then escaped into exile through a mountain pass near Maihue Lake into Argentina. Years later, Neruda was a close collaborator to socialist President Salvador Allende.

Hospitalized with cancer at the time of the Chilean coup d'etat led by Augusto Pinochet, Neruda died of heart failure twelve days later. Already a legend in life, Neruda's death became charged with an intense symbolism that reverberated around the world. Pinochet had denied permission to transform Neruda's funeral into a public event, but thousands of grieving Chileans disobeyed the curfew, flooding the streets in tribute. Neruda's funeral became the first public protest against the Chilean military dictatorship.

Neruda's pen name was derived from Czech writer and poet Jan Neruda; it later became his legal name.

All the poems in the book were translated from Spanish to English by William O'Daly who has made Neruda's late poetry the focus of his artistic life, publishing a total five books of translation of Neruda's poetry. This book was published by Copper Canyon Press in 1990.



Philosophy

The truth of the green tree
in spring and of Earth's crust
is proven beyond a doubt:
the planets nourish us
despite eruptions
and the sea offers us fish
despite her quaking:
we are slaves of the earth
that is also governess of air.

Walking around an orange
I spent more than one life
echoing the earth's sphere:
geography and ambrosia:
juices the color of hyacinth
and the white scent of woman
like blossoms of flour.

Nothing is gained by flying
to escape this globe
that trapped you at birth.
And we need to confess our hope
that understanding and love
come from below, climb
and grow inside us
like onions, like oak trees,
like tortoises or flowers,
like countries,like races,
like roads and destinations.








Here's a self-explanatory poem. Woe is me, a work ambush.



$13 and hour and air conditioning

got the call
yesterday,
project coming up
starting next week -
a month
in August
and September -
not a project
I particularly look
forward to
and the money
ain't great,
but anyone who'll
pay me
to sit in free air conditioning
in August
and September
has a leg up
on my attention








Emma Lazarus, born in New York City in 1849 is best known for writing The New Colossus, a sonnet written in 1883; its final lines were engraved on a bronze plaque in the base of the Statue of Liberty in 1912. The sonnet was solicited by William Maxwell Evarts as a donation to an auction, conducted by the "Art Loan Fund Exhibition in Aid of the Bartholdi Pedestal Fund for the Statue of Liberty" to raise funds to build the pedestal.

Lazarus was the fourth of seven children of Moses Lazarus and Esther Nathan, Portuguese Sephardic Jews whose families had been settled in New York since the colonial period. She was related through her mother to Benjamin N. Cardozo, Associate Justice of the US Supreme Court.

Knows as an important forerunner of the Zionist movement, she traveled twice to Europe, first in May 1885 after the death of her father in March and again in September 1887. She returned to New York City seriously ill after her second trip and died two months later in 1887, most likely from Hodgkin's disease.

Lazarus is buried in Beth-Olom Cemetery in Brooklyn.

This poem is from the book Emma Lazarus: Poet of the Jewish People, published by Arthur James in 1997 as part of a series on "Visionary Women."



In Exile

"Since that day till now our life is one unbroken paradise.
We live a true brotherly life. Every evening after supper we
take a seat under the mighty oak and sing our songs."
- Extract from a letter of a Russian refugee in Texas.


Twilight is here, soft breezes bow the grass,
   Day's sounds of various toil break slowly off,
The yoke-freed oxen low, the patient ass
   Dips his nostril in the cool, deep trough.
Up from the prairie the tanned herdsmen pass
   with frothy pails, guiding with voices rough
Their udder-lightened kine. Fresh smells of earth,
The rich, black furrows of the glebe send forth.

After the Southern day of heavy toil,
   How good to lie, with limbs relaxed, brows bare
To evening's fan, and watch the smoke-wreaths coil
   from one's pipe-stem through the rayless air.
So deem these unused tillers of the soil,
   Who stretched beneath the shadowing oak-tree, stare
Peacefully on the star-unfolding skies,
And name their life unbroken paradise.

The hounded stag that has escaped the pack,
   And pants at ease within a thick-leaved dell;
The unimprisoned bird that finds the track
   Through sun-bathed space, to where his fellows dwell;
The martyr, granted respite from the rack,
   The death-doomed victim pardoned from his cell, -
Such only know the joy these exiles gain, -
Life's sharpest rapture is surcease of pain.

Strange faces theirs, where through the Orient sun
   Gleams from the eyes and glows athwart the skin
Grave lines of studious thought and purpose run
   From curl-crowned forehead to dark-bearded chin.
And over all the seal is stamped thereon
   Of anguish branded by a world of sin,
Their seal of glory and Gentiles shame.

Freedom to love the law that Moses brought,
   To sing the songs of David, and to think
The thoughts of Gabriol to Spinoza taught,
   Freedom to dig the common earth, to drink
The universal air - for this they sought
   Refuge o'er wave and continent, to link
Egypt with Texas in their mystic chain,
And truth's perpetual lamp forbid to wane.

Hark! through the quiet evening air, their song
   Floats forth with wild sweet rhythm and glad refrain.
They sing the conquest of the spirit strong,
   The soul that wrests the victory from pain;
The noble joys of manhood that belong
   To comrades and to brothers. In their strain
Rustle of palms and Eastern streams one hears,
And the broad prairie melts in mist of tears.








I introduced Joanna M. Weston to "Here and Now" readers a couple of weeks ago. Since then, I got my hands on a copy of her book, A Summer Father, published by Frontenac House of Calgary, Alberta, in 2006.

Joanna's book is dedicated to her father, Major John William Fletcher Jarmain, who died on June 26, 1944 in Normandy, France.

Shortly after Major Jamain died in the Normandy Invasion, a book of his poetry was published. Joanna was only six years old when her father died and, in the years since, has read her father's poetry over and over, seeking to know more about the man he was.

Her book continues that search, including at the beginning of many of her poems, quotations from her father's book of poems.

You can find out more about Joanna and her book by clicking on her link under the link section of the page.



October, 1942

    And there our dead will keep their holy ground.

El Alamein -
the place
where poetry
became need
beyond want

a way to put gunfire
bombs   minefields
sand drilling flesh
into order

a way to find respite
in a glimpse of magnolias -
moonlight on a sandbag wall

it was
the place of knowing
that only me who fought
at Alamein
would mark the map
with sand and yellow moon

we who come later
find lilies
and buried poems


Fragments

    He sang for company as he shoveled the sand,
    Digging himself a shelter for the night.


the desert gave him
hard sky over moving sand
instead of peacetime's
vineyards and summer sun

under the artillery of El Alamein
he found himself leached
by dunes and guns
alive by grace
from Tel-el-Eisa

here he viewed life
in small pictures -

a soldier
sang of orchids

wire twisted
a telephone pole
to crucifixion

a broken wall
for shelter -

poetry a luxury of time
when words slipped out
gritty and thin
exploding
sand and shrapnel
to portray
the inexplicable
to his daughter








My next poem is by Michael Gottlieb from his book The Likes of Us, published by Harry Tankoos in 2007.

I found a lot of references to Gottlieb in Google files, but nothing in the way of an organized biography. So, all I know of him is what I read in his poems.

Like this one.



Inconvenient Affects

                  for Drew

that which doesn't kill you, almost kills you

what is just not available any longer, irrespective of price

lying seething at the edge of the frame, close to the boil, empurpled

the unfit - prevailing, the abjurate

understandable. Spot on. A festering that denotes little apparent prog-
ress. An eschaton, bedeviled. Narrowing in on

at the tertiary depot where we attempted to to present all this as a color-
able benefit: repatriating the unwilling, now nearly attired in their ob-
jections, each encircled by a slick of not-unnatural premonition. Amidst
them a frank perisher, like a symptom of thrush

the awkward bits, ultimately papered over by a condominium between
the two parties. Dividing it all up, like a former coaling station

a veritable adventurism, antic
deeply troubling, a protestation fed by reckless rescheduling, too-close-
ly-successive

a fully let-out disinclination to join the frolic. Risible, jeering, revving,
veering

as it flags, the squall fading into the arms of the distracted

the better and the much better, leading to a retreat into "base articula-
tion," no more than another hollowed-out mountain

a former favorite

insisting, caning, treed, floored, hap, ail, unassailable

patronymics scattering like alibis along with rubbishly exhortations and
debased collations, heaped upon the cold table - all we ever hear from
that quarter

in the hermit borough, home to certain long-thought-lost-species, a
city-state of dissimulation rises up as if overnight, teeming with suspect
notables

chapels of collision-partners

- like aids to mariners. Triangulating by means of eyesores

the crushing overhead, the flat file appearing at the bar, the bulleted
notation with one's name inscribed. The express instruction. That one
there

rationing what used to be apportioned

in this for-noon, this darkened chamber

what the hosts of the becalmed have decided to set before us








I wrote this late last week. Don't know what brought it to mind, most likely the situation in Georgia.



draft dodging

i remember
seeing my reflection
in a store window,
long hair,
greasy looking,
thin coat
against the wet
cold,
a refugee-looking
bit of human
marginalia


it was the first week
of January, 1966,
barely a month
from my 22nd birthday,
just off the bus from
Bay City, a small nondescript
town where i was working
for a small, nondescript newspaper,
when the "Greetings" letter
from Uncle Sam
set a new course
for my life,
a course i had frantically
avoided
since my 18th birthday

- dumb,
i was, to believe
i could skip out on school
and no one at the draft board
would notice -

it was early days in the war,
though no one knew that
at the time, and i
really didn't have an opinion
about it,
except that, for damn sure,
i didn't want any personal
part of it.
it was just, much like
Dick Cheney
at about the same time,
i though i had better things
to do and was sure smoking
dope, drinking too much,
and thinking deep thoughts
were much more valuable
contributions to the war effort
than anything i could do
with an actual
gun

but the letter came
and,
Canada aside,
there didn't seem much
choice
until i went to the pre-
induction physical
and passed a room
where a line of draftees
in their underwear
were being divided into
two groups,
counting off down the line

1, 2, army,
3, marines,
1, 2. army, 3, marines
1,
2,
army,
3,
marines

and i said the hell
with that
and went back to Bay City
and joined the Air Force,
bumping some poor draft dodger
like myself, except
with lesser test-taking skills,
into the 1, 2, army, 3, marines
probably,
for which, though i'm sorry,
i'd do it all again

which brought me to this
place, a block and a half
from the induction center
in Houston,
looking at a stranger
i knew was me,
looking back from a store window,
a drifter in life
whose accomplishments
never matched
the opportunities available
to him,
the most alone
i had ever been,
wondering
what came next, knowing
i'd never see this particular
mirror-me
again,
wondering
it that was a good thing
or bad








My next poem is by R.S. Thomas from his book Poems by R.S.Thomas published by The University of Arkansas Press in 1985.

Thomas, a Welsh poet and Anglican clergyman, was born in 1913. Beginning in 1932 he studied at he University College of North Wales, Bangor, where he read Classics. He was ordained as a priest in the Anglican Church in Wales after completing his theological training at St. Michael's College. He and his wife and son lived a very simple life with a tiny income earned from his various religious assignments. One of the few household amenities the family ever owned, a vacuum cleaner, was rejected because Thomas decided it was too noisy.

He retired from the church in 1978, and he and his wife relocated to a tiny cottage in one of the most beautiful parts of Wales. Free from the constraints of the church he was able to become more political and active in campaigns that were important to him, becoming, among causes, a fierce advocate of Welsh nationalism.

Thomas died in 2000.



That Place

I served on a dozen committees;
talked hard, said little, shared the applause
at the end. Picking over
the remains later, we agreed power
was not ours, launched our invective
at others, the anonymous wielders
of such. Life became small, grey,
the smell of interiors. Occasions
on which a clean air entered our nostrils
offswept seas were instances
we sought to recapture. One particular
time after a harsh morning
of rain, the clouds lifted, the wind
fell; there was an resurrection
of nature, and we there to emerge
with it into the anointed
air. I wanted to say to you: "We
will remember this." But tenses
were out of place on that green
island, ringed with the rain's
bow, that we had found and would spend
the rest of our lives looking for.


Thomas had a reputation as a dour, bad-tempered man. Possibly the
reason can be seen in this poem which speaks to a very dark religious
view indeed.


Amen

It was all arranged:
the virgin with child, the birth
in Bethlehem, the arid journey uphill
to Jerusalem. The prophets foretold
it, the scriptures conditioned him
to accept it. Judas went to his work
with his sour kiss; what else
could he do?

               a wise old age,
the honors awarded for lasting,
are not for a savior. He had
to be killed; salvation acquired
by an increased guilt. The tree,
with its roots in the mind's dark,
was divinely planted, the original fork
in existence. There is no meaning in life,
unless men can be found to reject
love. God needs his martyrdom.
The mild eyes stare from the Cross
in perverse triumph. What does care
that the people's offerings are so small?








A four-time Pushcart nominee, Arlene Ang lives in Venice, Italy where she edits the Italian edition of Poems Niederngasse, an excellent journal that has been kind enough to publish my work on occasion (English edition).

Arlene is a friend of "Here and Now" and has appeared with us a number of times. Her work has also been published in a number of major literary journals, including Envoi, Mississippi River Online, The Pedestal magazine, Poetry Midwest, Rattle, and Smiths Knoll.

Our poems this week are from Arlene's book, The Desecration of Doves published by iUniverse, Inc. in 2005.

To find out more about Arlene and her book, click on her link in the link section on the right.



Siamese Women

Like cats sleeked with fluff,
they wait behind windows
for the activity of rabbits
to feed their daily curiosity.

Their indoor purrs act as radar,
detect each housekeeping
weakness in the neighborhood.

My mother-in-law warned me,
but I refuse to hang curtains,
punish Nero for digging holes
in our unweeded garden.

Grime on screen and glass
camouflages homelife. No doubt
they do not approve of my cooking.

There is cruelty almost
in their incessant scratching,
the kneading to find fault
the way alcoholics crave cheap gin.

Experience with a stray that clawed out
the entrails of our divan has taught me
contempt for everything feline.

In pure sunlight, I pad out
in my bunny slippers,
their ears sloshing into autumnal mud,
to retrieve the morning mail.

The calmly, under horrified gazes,
I walk back to our unmatted front door,
the trail of dirt my own version of up yours.


Pink

Motor cycles grumble blackly
from the street like giant bees;
morning rolls away on two wheels.

Leaning on the bathroom sink,
I count white minutes that skip
two months before every second.

As the salmon-bricked church tower
clangs its electronic bell, I face
the mirror and try a hesitant smile.

It is a beautiful day, after all.
The sky spills postcard-blue
oil paint through the open window.

Light heat grey-sweats buildings
and grease the branches of trees.
I wonder if I should call Mom.

On my left hand, sunstreaks capture
the pregnancy test kit as it flutters
parallel lines of shocking pink.








My next poem is by Lawrence Ferlinghetti, from his second book,
a coney island of the mind, published by New Directions in
1958. I bought the book when it was new and over the years since lost
it. I bought a copy (a very tattered and raggedy copy) at Half-Priced
Books last year for $3.98, not a whole lot less than I paid for the
new paperback fifty years ago. Come to think of it, it probably cost
less fifty years ago.



The Long Street

The long street
which is the street of the world
passes around the world
filled with all the people of the world
not to mention all the voices
of all the people
that ever existed
Lovers and weepers
virgins and sleepers
spaghetti salesmen and sandwichmen
milkmen and orators
boneless bankers
brittle housewives
sheathed in nylon snobberies
deserts of advertising men
herds of high school fillies
crowds of collegians
all talking and talking
and walking around
or hanging out windows
to see what's doing
out in the world
where everything happens
sooner or later
if it happens at all
And the long street
which is the longest street
in all the world
but which isn't as long
as it seems
passes on
thru all the cities and all the scenes
down every alley
up every boulevard
thru every crossroads
thru red lights and green lights
cities in sunlight
continents in rain
hungry Hong Kongs
untillable Tuscaloosas
Oaklands of the soul
Dublins of the imagination
And the long street
rolls on around
like an enormous choochoo train
chugging around the world
with its bawling passengers
and babies and picnic baskets
and cats and dogs
and all of them wondering
just who is up
in the cab ahead
driving the train
if anybody
the train which runs around the world
like a world going round
all of them wondering
just what is up
if anything
and some of them leaning out
and peering ahead
and trying to catch
a look at the driver
in his one-eye cab
trying to see him
to glimpse his face
to catch his eye
as they whir around a bend
but they never do
although once in a while
it looks as if
they're going to
and the street goes rocking on
the train goes bowling on
with its windows reaching up
its windows the windows
of all the buildings
in all the streets of the world
bowling along
thru the light of the world
thru the night of the world
with lanterns at crossings
lost lights flashing
crowds at carnivals
nightwood circuses
whorehouses and parliaments
forgotten fountains
cellar doors and unfound doors
figures in lamplight
pale idols dancing
as the world rocks on
But now we come
to the lonely part of the street
the part of the street
that goes around
the lonely part of the world
And this is not the place
that you change trains
for the Brighton Beach Express
This is not the place
that you do anything
This is the part of the world
where nothing's doing
where no one's doing
anything
where nobody's anywhere
nobody nowhere
except yourself
not even a mirror
to make you two
not a soul
except your own
maybe
and even that
not there
maybe
or not yours
maybe
because you're what's called
dead
you've reached your station

Descend








You'll see a lot of different people, if you pay attention. Some of them will just grab your heart.



no wrong

drove down the street
a bit
to Popeye's
to pick up lunch,
3-piece dinner, dark meat,
spicy and fries,
and the young girl
at the counter,
Ivette,
with an I,
brown eyes,
brown hair pinned up
in the back,
new,
i suppose,
trying so hard
to do everything right
she had me

could do
no
wrong
for me today








I have two books by "Here and Now" friend S. Thomas Summers, Death settled well, published by Shadows Ink Publications in 2006 and Rather, It Should Shine from the Pudding House Chapbook Series in 2007.

Scott is a high school English teacher in New Jersey. In addition to his chapbooks, his work has appeared in a number of print and on-line journals, Loch Raven Review, The Pedestal Magazine, The English Journal, The Orange Room Review, and 3rd Muse.

For more information about Scott and his books, click on his link in the link section on the right.

The first two poems below are from Death settled well and the last is from Rather, It should Shine.



Intentions

After a night's
rain, pine

needles bow
to the hills,

railroad tracks
shimmer in morning

sun, stretch
across earth

like tinsel.
I'll follow the tracks,

toss stones
at wrinkled beer

cans, watch
a squirrel
burden the shade
of a dying ash.


Moment at a Jersey Diner

At the counter, me hunch
over sandwiches and fries,
pan their coffee for gold.
A young waitress flits from table
to table like a hummingbird.
She sups at each flower,
vanishes in a fog of voices.


Possession

This was the poem I meant
to whisper in your ear,
but rain dances on the dark

road, popcorn sparking
on a skillet, and the air
beneath this cluster of pines

has been painted a blacker
shade of nigh. You'll never
breathe this moment as deeply

as I do so please forgive me -
I'll sleep alone tonight, lost
in the hammock of this secret.








Here's something I wrote several weeks ago, a closer for this week.



liar, liar

i lied
to my dog today

when it came time
to put her in the car
so we could drive
to our morning walk
i said,

"Reba,
i can't take you
with me
today
because i have
a bunch of errands
and you'd be stuck
in the hot car
and you'd get hot
and sweaty and
you'd hate it."

liar
liar
pants on
fire

the truth is
i don't have any errands,
don't plan on doing anything
different
from what i usually do,
i just didn't want the hassle
of taking her home like i usually do
before i go off to all the places
i usually go off to

but
i knew
as i scratched behind her ears
and looked into her soft brown eyes
that, weeping
though she might be on the inside,
she believed me

just as she always
believes me







Though the way may continue, the road for this week's ends right here and right now.

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The Past Struggles Never To Let Go   Friday, August 15, 2008

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III.8.3.



I'm starting this week off with some exciting (to me, at least) news.

Some of my photos, originally from "Here and Now," are up at a local Starbucks, for show and for sale. I understand a couple have already sold.

Do I think that's pretty darn ok?

You betcha.

The store is one of the six hundred Starbucks locations due to close soon, probably by the end of the month. My photos had nothing to do with it.

Meantime, here's the lineup for this week.

From my library:

Michael Van Walleghen
Brooke Bergan
Naomi Shihab Nye
William Matthews
Gary Soto
Tino Villanueva
Sudeep Sen
Elizabeth Seydel Morgan

From Friends of "Here and Now"

Susan B. McDonough
Arunansu Banerjee
Jim Comer

Several poems by me

And photographs by San Antonio artist Rose Cosme.








I start this week with a poem by Michael Van Walleghen from his third book, Blue Tango, published by The University of Illinois Press in 1989.

Born in 1938, Van Walleghen has published five other books of poetry, The Wichita Poems, More Trouble With the Obvious, Tall Birds Stalking, The Last Neanderthal, and In the Black Window. He also published translations of Russian poet Dmitri Bobyshev in the anthology In the Grip of Strange Thoughts: Russian Poetry in the New Era.

Before retirement he was a Professor of English at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign and was the first director of the MFA in Creative Writing program created there in 2003.



Sneaky

Someone doesn't like cats -
he thinks they're "sneaky"

so cats start disappearing
all over the neighborhood.

Even our own cat disappears
and then, some weeks later

her mutilated body turns up
in an abandoned farmhouse -

because that's what she gets.
Someone doesn't like cats

so he stabs their eyes out
and cuts them into little pieces.

Maniacs behind every tree.
Maniacs, child molesters...

But Emily, my five-year-old
has different notions entirely.

She thinks her cat's in Florida
on vacation - because it's winter

and "that's where the birds go."
It's winter, it's after supper

and a small moon, a cat's eye
follows us down our dark street

all the way to the liquor store -
then dimly, dimly back again...

Nevertheless, because she's eaten
so many raw carrots lately

my daughter informs me
she can see in the dark now

like the animals - whereupon
she leaps unerringly, catlike

over and ice-filled gutter -
at which, even the trees

seem stirred, clattering
their sudden applause

all round us for a moment -
then falling still as trees

near a house without windows
in the middle of winter.








There I was, just sipping my latte and writing a poem in the most poetic of moods and in a manner most genteelish, and, zap, they came along and started closing my coffee shops.

This'll show’em.




culture clash

i'm an early
riser
who doesn't
like to face any
new day
without coffee
and the New York Times

so i always look
for the familiar
green sign
when i travel -

even going
85
on the interstate
i can spot them
and if i don't
spot'em directly,
i can spot
the kinds of place
they usually are

i'm seldom
wrong

now,
out of the thousands,
600
will be closed
and one of those 600
is right here in San Antonio

one of the originals,
designed
to be more than a place
to shove $4 coffee drinks
out a drive-thru window

it's a larger place
where people can sit,
designed
to be a place
where community can be
built,
a place to make friends
and talk to neighbors,
a place to read and,
if
you
have a mind to,
a place to write a poem,

the kind of place that
created
the coffee culture
it's corporate culture
seems ready
now
to deny








I've used poems from Storyville; A Hidden Mirror by Brooke Bergan a number of times, so if you read "Here and Now" with any frequency you're probably familiar with the book and the approach Bergan takes to the story of Storyville and its whores and Ernest Bellocq, an otherwise run-of-the-mill commercial photographer with an obsession who, almost inadvertently, saved it all for history.

In brief, Bergan uses Bellocq's photos as a departure point for her poems, sometimes even writing in the imagined voice of Bellocq, bringing the place and time to life again. As to the details of Storyville and Bellocq, a google search will give you the whole interesting story of how government sanction red light district became a fascinating piece of New Orleans history.

Bergan has an MA and a PhD in creative writing from the University of Illinois at Chicago. She has taught writing classes and workshops for nearly twenty years in grade schools, high schools, libraries, colleges and universities to widely diverse audiences around the country.

Her publications include three critically acclaimed books of poetry as well as fiction, reviews, essays, translations and a play. She has given numerous readings and performances; appeared on radio, television and video programs about literature; and made presentations at national conferences. She has also served as a literary editor for several journals, is the founding editor of Persiflage Press and was the director of publications at the University of Illinois at Chicago. She has won awards for both her scholarship and her poetry.

Here are two poems from the book, imagining Bellocq speaking to one of his favorite models as he prepares her photo.



Plate 21: Adele In An Evening Gown

Adele, Adele
of the violent
violet eyes, you
are my favorite.
Only for you do I
hang the black scrim
so that there is nothing but you
pale against it
as a pearl on black velvet.

Someone else gave you
the silk gown hung with
pearls, the marabou
shawl, you feather out
against the black scrim,
the lavaliere at you neck,
the pinching sadness
of your eyes.

But I give you this:
A universe that is only
you

My Adele.


Plate 28: Adele Wearing A Locket

Adele, you are so real
without clothes, the lens
falters at the soft
curve of stomach,
soiled feet, ribbons
of hair you've let fall
down your back, like my
locket, a kiss between
your breasts.

If I put you against
the filigreed wall, let
your hand rest
on the carved back
of this chair,
will the world
see what I do?








It's been a while since we've heard from our friend Susan B. McDonough, but here she is, back again, with a wonderful poem of the great American Southwest.

Susan creates gardens for a living and says she enjoys the journey of transplanting words into poetry. She has one foot in Arizona and the other in Maine, living some months of the year in both places.

Her poems can be found both on-line and in print.



Just West of Black Mountain

It isn't the breath of dry air carried
on the ambiguity of a tumbleweed
or that Cactus Wren perched on the edge
of the screen door propped open to the patio,
her mouth comically brimmed in blue-gray bits
of the neighbor's dryer lint
that makes this desert feel like home.
It's not the luminance of a million stars
tumbled on the spurs of a sultry desert night
floating above a thousand silent
armed and unarmed saguaros.
No it's none of that.
It's the way the land is so hard,
so endlessly unforgiving,
what it might take from you and the way
a single tiny seed can find its way
to be a wildflower.








My next poem is by Naomi Shihab Nye, from her book 19 Varieties of Gazelle: Poems of the Middle East, published by Greenwillow Books in 2002.

Nye, born in 1952 to a Palestinian father and American mother, is a poet, songwriter and novelist. A graduate of Trinity University in San Antonio, she continues to call that city home.

This is the first poem in the book.



Different Ways to Pray

There was the method of kneeling,
a fine method, if you lived in a country
where stones were smooth.
Women dreamed wistfully of
hidden corners, where knee fit rock.
Their prayers, weathered rib bones,
small calcium words uttered in sequence
as if this shredding of syllables could
fuse them to the sky.

There were men who had been shepherds so long
they walked like sheep.
Under the olive trees, they raised their arms -
Hear us! We have pain on earth!
We have so much pain there is no place to store it!

But the olives bobbed peacefully
in fragrant buckets of vinegar and thyme.
At night the men are heartily, flat bread
   and white cheese,
and were happy in spite of the pain,
because there was also happiness.

Some prized the pilgrimage,
wrapping themselves in new white linen
to ride buses cross miles of sand.
When they arrived in Mecca
they would circle the holy places,
on foot, many times,
they would kiss the earth
and return, their lean faces housing mystery.

While for certain cousins and grandmothers
the pilgrimage occurred daily,
lugging water from the spring
or balancing baskets of grapes.

These were the one present at births,
humming quietly to perspiring mothers.
The ones stitching intricate needlework into
   children's dresses,
forgetting how easily children soil clothes.

There were those who didn't care about praying.
The young ones. The ones who had
   been to America.
They told the old ones, you are wasting your time.
   Time? The old ones prayed for the young ones.
They prayed for Allah to mend their brains,
for the twig, the round moon,
to speak suddenly in a commanding tone.

And occasionally there would be one
who did none of his,
the old man Fowzi, for example,
who beat everyone at dominoes,
insisted he spoke with God as he spoke with goats,
and was famous for his laugh.








I wrote this a couple of weeks ago, a short piece brought to mind by a line from another poet and a feature on NPR about dreaming. I was also struck by the idea of a nightmare about not being able to dream.



i dreamed

i dreamed
i could not dream

and made insane
by a
never-dream world

i huddled
in a dark, dreamless
corner

logic
pounding
like hailstones

on my roofless
dream-starved
head








Born in Ohio in 1942, William Matthews earned a bachelors degree from Yale University and a masters from the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. In addition to serving as a Writer-in-Residence at Boston's Emerson College, he held various academic positions at institutions including Cornell University, the University of Washington - Seattle, the University of Colorado at Boulder, and the University of Iowa. At the time of his death in 1997, he was a professor of English and director of the creative writing program at City College of New York.

Matthews published 11 books of poetry, including Time & Money which won the National Book Critics Circle Award in 1996 Blues If You Want, published by Houghton Mifflin in 1989, and from which the next poem was taken.



What A Little Moonlight Can Do

It's spring. Lilacs and ginger the humid air.
Next thing you know it's summer - hollyhocks
and fireflies in a pickle jar (seven running down
their dusty batteries and two are already dead).

A rash of lichen chafes across the lakeside
rocks he loves to sprawl on after swimming.
What animals, those shadowy siblings,
will he not see this year? The moose. The loon.

The fox, for whose insouciant gait a dance
was named that swept this lovelorn parents
like a wave about break across dance floors
they still dream of, disguised as bay and meadows.

The boy not quite asleep on the third floor
of a strange house looks out over the undulations
of the golf course, its pockets of shadow,
its moon-washed mounds. He can smell

people dancing. Perfumes and shampoos rise,
shoe polish, and the creamy purr the saxophones
lavishly emit, and many a remark.
A woman laughs from low in her throat.

She's not on he porch and not in the car.
The stars and tolerant moon let down
their tarnished light and we send back,
like a constant exclamation of balloons,
our sounds and fervent odors. We'd be aloft
if our bodies didn't hold us down,
and everything that memory can get
its clumsy hands on. The boy watches a dog

skulk out of the rough and dark to lift
its moon-silvered leg - that's not a dog,
it's a fox! and its fur is not silver but gray -
and pee distractedly into a sand trap. and then

it's gone. Soon the band and summer will disperse.
The lake rocks mildly in its bowl. It's late,
it's almost dawn. But what the sun elicits
from the lake, the rain will surely return.








Arunansu Banerjee, from Calcutta, West Bengal, India. He says he has been writing poetry only a few years but the art and craft were rooted in him long before he started posting poems on different web forums and having his work published on some web journals. Arunansu says that, since childhood, he has been a prolific painter and a bookworm.

Arunansu is a teacher by profession, with a degree in physics and specialized expertise in softwares. He says his primary love is listening to Indian Classical music. His favorite poets are Emily Dickinson and Rabindranath Tagore.

This is his second appearance in "Here and Now."



Stargazing

"On the eastern side it will be!"
pointed a middle-aged person.

"Papa, will they burst like crackers?"
"No Dodo, comet showers are mere streaks
flying across the sky."

"Sir, what's the expected time, 2 am?"
"One-thirty! Only an hour left!"

Kolkata maiden looked a strange graveyard
with the street lamps. Groups of people nestled
in their woolens, tea sellers did brisk business.

An old beggar, bent as her wooden
stick, moved in a snail's pace. One gentleman
seated on the grass, scribbled in the light
of a lantern.

I sat beside him.

Night progressed amid words and laughter.
Stars disappeared into the brume.
So did the people.

Morning awoke with hostile crows
and stray dogs, nibbling litter.
My companion had finished his write.

He recited lines from his poem
"Stargazers."








Gary Soto was born to working-class Mexican-American parents in 1952 in Fresno, California. He had very low grades throughout school, but became interested in poetry in high school and began writing poetry while he attended Fresno City College. Soto moved on to California State University, Fresno for his undergraduate degree, and then to the University of California, Irvine, where he earned a Master of Fine Arts degree in 1976

His work earned recognition in the late 70's, when he won an Academy of American Poets Prize. His first book of poems, The Elements of San Joaquin, which contains grim pictures of Mexican American life in California's Central Valley, was published in 1987.

In 1985, he joined the faculty at the University of California, Berkeley, where he taught in both the English department and Chicano Studies department. He stopped teaching in 1994 to write full-time, but returned to teaching in 2003 with a post at University of California-Riverside.

The next poem is from Soto's recent book, a simple plan, a National Book Award Finalist published by Chronicle Books in 2007.

I had intended to use another poem from the book, but I'll get to it in some future issue. I'm a dog lover and, for this issue, couldn't pass up this poem about a dog a lot like my own.



Nelson, My Dog

Like the cat he scratches the flea camping in fur.
Unlike the cat he delights in water up to his ears.
He frolics. He catches a crooked stick -
On his back he naps with legs straight up in the air.
Nelson shutters awake. He responds to love
From head to tail. In happiness
His front legs march in place
and his back legs spark when they push off.
On a leash he knows his geography.
For your sake he looks both ways before crossing,
He sniffs at the sight of a poodle trimmed like a hedge,
And he trots the street with you second in command.
In the park, he ponders a squirrel attached to a tree
And he shovels a paper cup on his nose.
He sweeps after himself with his tail,
And there is no hand that doesnt deserve a lick.
Note this now, my friends:
Nelson can account the heritage of heroic dogs:
One, canines lead the blind,
Two, they enter fire to rescue the child and the child's toy,
Three, they swim for the drowning,
Four, they spring at the thief,
Five, they paddle ponds for the ball that got away,
Six, for the elderly they walk side by side to the very end,
Seven, they search for bones but stop when called,
Eight, they bring mud to all parties,
Nine, they poke among the ruins of a burnt house,
Ten, they forgive what you dish out on a plate.

Nelson is a companion, this much we know,
And if he were a movie star, he would do his own stunts -
O, how he would fly, climb the pant legs of a scoundrel
And stand tall rafting on white-water rivers!
He has befriended the kingdom of animals:
He once ran with wolves but admittedly not very far,
He stepped two paces into a cave and peeked at the bear,
He sheltered a kitten,
He righted a turtle pedaling its stumps on its back,
Under the wheeling stars he caravanned with the mule,
He steered sheep over a hill,
He wisely let the skunk pass,
He growled at the long-bearded miser,
He joined ducks quacking with laughter,
Once he leaped at a pheasant but later whined from guilt.

Nelson's black nose is a compass in the wilds.
He knows nature. He has spied spires of summer smoke,
He circled cold campfires,
He howled at a gopher and scratched at the moon,
He doctored his wounds with his tongue,
He has pawed a star of blood left in snow.
He regards the fireplace, the embers like blinking cats,
This too we know about Nelson.
True, he is sometimes tied to parking meters
And sometimes wears the cone of shame from the vet's office.
But again, he is happiness.
He presents his belly for a friendly scratch.
If you call him, he will drop his tennis ball,
Look up, and come running,
This muddy friend for life. When you bring your nose
To his nose for something like a kiss,
You can find yourself in his eyes.








We drove up to Lubbock, Texas last Friday for the graduation of a nephew at Texas Tech. (Congratulations Alfredo M Ramirez II.)

It was supposed to be an overnighter, but when we got ready to head back Saturday afternoon, we decided, what the heck, let's go back the long way. So we looped up through New Mexico, about a thousand extra miles, and got back Tuesday. I wrote this poem along the way, a little travelogue of parts of Texas and New Mexico.



four days on the road


Fredericksburg, Texas 78624

dad's home town,
visited
every summer
until my seventeenth year

from a world
where Spanish flowed
around me
to a world where
it was German

all around -
the only place
in the world where
the telephone book

includes a page and a half
of people
with my same short
last name

cousins all
to one degree or another,
but the only ones i know
are mostly dead

so i don't stop anymore
when passing through
except at Opa's
Meat Market

for a few week's supply
of koch kasse,
liver sausage,
and hill country peaches


Mason, Texas 76856

little Mason, Texas,
barely 2,000 German
Irish and Mexican souls,
county seat of Mason

County

a town with a busy
square,
functioning businesses
on every side

a historic stone
courthouse
in the center
surrounded by

oak and pecan green

little towns all around
wither
and die
from the rot

of modern times

while
this one grows
more gracious and serene
like a woman

whose youthful beauty

is defined
and deepened
by age


Brady, Texas, 76825

on the way to Brady,
between Dry Shunt Draw
and Cannibal Creek
the geology changes

gone are red rocks
and rich red earth

as the hill country
begins to flatten
to high caliche plains

of cactus
and low brush
and rocky fields

with dust devils,
diablitos,
two or three at a time
pacing us,

twirling caliche dust
swirls,
outriders
on either side

Brady
a casualty
of the dusty
plain

is passed through
and left behind
with no regrets


Eden, Texas 76837

tiny Eden
Texas

don't go there
for
you'll surely be
disappointed

but if you must

don't pick the
apples


Lamesa, Texas 79331

high plains,
cotton,
grain,
a town dried up,
old buildings'
former glory
tattered,
brick dingy,
windows blank,
empty eyes
like old men
in decline
wanting just
a quiet place in an
uncrowded
corner
to die in peace

wanting just
to be left
alone


Lubbock, Texas, 79401

Bush country

god-fearing,
red-voting rednecks
with money,
sons of Birchers
back
when they were
still fighting the communist
conspiracy
with Impeach Earl Warren
billboards
and Rotary Club
luncheons

in appearance,
the kind of town
old Sam Walton
would have built
if he'd been into
building
towns


Fort Sumner, New Mexico, 88119

going west
on US 84, you
crest a hill
and see
the village of Fort Sumner,
population 1,100, give or take
a dozen, nestled
in a green and wooded
valley
on the Pecos River

a true Eden
in the desert,
a garden not yet
spoiled -

at least, not
as seen from this
hilltop


Santa Rosa, New Mexico 88435

the desert is green this year

like a New England pasture
between even greener
hills


Albuquerque, New Mexico 87101

1
i remember
a night
camping on a trail
near the crest of Sandia
Peak
looking out under
a cloudless moon-soaked
sky
to the desert
like an ocean
stretched
below,
city lights
all the ships at sea

thinking

i will never see
anything this beautiful
again

and looking back
now

over all the years
since
that night

and all the sights i've seen,
i think i might have been
right


2
i rode this area
on horseback
many years ago

through its rough
arroyos,
across
its dusty flats

now
the asphalt tide
that engulfed it twenty-five
years ago
has shifted as the city
moves in new directions

leaving behind the derelicts
of an ebbing civic tide,
vacant buildings,
empty lots,
as all starts the slow fall
back to nature
one weedy tuft at a time

someday
long past my time
someone else
will ride this desert prairie,
leaving hoof prints
beside these ruins


Capitan, New Mexico 88316

just inside
the National Forest,
about six miles east of
Carrizozo
and the scrambled strew
of black volcanic rock
called the Valley of Fires,
is Capitan, a one-street village

its single street
shaded the full length
by large cottonwoods,
bounded on either side
by art shops,
a grocery market-gas station,
Amy's Coffee House
and antiques,
new adobe homes,
and hundred-and-fifty-year-old
adobe ruins

quiet

cool
in the summer
and quiet

an old man
on a horse
checks his mail,
waves
as i pass


Roswell, New Mexico 88201

intergalactic way station

little
green men everywhere

stopping over,
like me,
for a plate of green
enchiladas

before leaving out
for home








Using a poem from Scene From the Movie Giant, by Tino Villanueva, like using a poem from Storyville, requires a lot of setup.

I have told the story several times now. This time I'll try to cut it to a minimum.

It begins with Villanueva as a 14-year-old boy watching the movie Giant in a darkened theater and seeing a scene of such bleak racism that it stays in his mind until, as an adult, he wrote this book of poems around that single scene not more than a couple of minutes in duration.

Villanueva was born in 1941 in San Marcos, Texas to a family of migrant workers. Because of the demands of traveling to harvest crops, Villanueva was never able to attend school regularly. Despite that he managed to graduate from San Marcos High in 1960 and began working on an assembly-line at a local furniture factory. In 1963, he was drafted into the United States Army in 1963 and spent two years in the Panama Canal Zone. Upon returning to San Marcos, he took advantage of the GI Bill to study English and Spanish at Texas State University-San Marcos. He completed his B.A. in three years and then moved to Buffalo, New York to attend the State University of New York. He finished his M.A. in 1971 and moved to Boston University, where he began his doctoral studies.

Villanueva has published several books of poetry since earning his Ph.D. He continues to teach, lecture, and research, and to develop his interest in painting. Villanueva currently serves as Preceptor in Spanish, Modern Foreign Languages and Literature in the College of Arts and Sciences at Boston University.



The Serving of the Water

Tell the portly waitress to stay overtime and
She will do it. Dressed in white, she is a
Version of Sarge...Who follows orders well
...Who may have it in her mind she is "The

Sweetest little rosebud that Texas ever knew."
Her whole embodiment is whatever she is doing -

At a booth, here, on the warm sketchy plain
Of day, it is water she sets out for the
Benedicts: the measurement of water is ritual
That isolates a race from the many colors of the

Day, and she does so with her eyes aimed at
Anyone she has give a harsh name to - like Juana,

And her child, half-Anglo, who in Juana's womb
Became all Mexican just the same. The waitress,
Entirely conscious of her act, whose eyes, quick,
Flee back to Sarge and now call out in silence,

Brings this moment to the edge of something tense
That spreads to everything. Her sudden look of
Outward regard - then Sarge, stirring dense cloud
Gathering (entering left), standing over everyone
In tallness almighty. Ice-cream is what Rock Hudson
Wishes for his grandson: "Ice-cream is what it shall be,"
His words a revelation of delight: "Give the
Little fella some ice-cream"...Summer is one long

Afternoon when Sarge, moved by deep familiar
Wrath, talks down: "Ice-cream - thought that kid'd
Want a tamale." An angry mass of time travels
Back and forth the distance between Sarge and

Rock Hudson, as I sit, shy of speech, in a stammer
Of light, and breathe a breath not fully breathed...








The next piece comes from our friend and frequent contributor, Jim Comer.



Legs of Summer

Our stride is courageous
on two black corded seats
of an aging, but audacious
red sports car.

The weary distance shimmers
its distorted desert images
on the hood - shapes our dreams
of destinations - the meter
of the four cylinders remind us
of the stretching eras.

In and out of overdrive, the valleys
and peaks demand a burly foot
on the pedal - the brake.

In a high valley, a window opens
between two crests - exposes
ranges beyond the naked eye,
layer after stratum of magenta,
faded orange and violet -
in our hearts we've arrived.

Javelinas, bears and pumas
guard a natural treasure -
we favor scarlet summer tanagers,
vermillion flycatchers, gray hawks
in the cottonwood trees.

In the grassy hill country off Texas,
our youngest daughter awaits -
we spin our memories and dreams.

The Ozarks wind us through Arkansas
and southern Missouri. Mom's ashes
rest among white pink petunias -
two brothers step away
with her blessings.








Sudeep Sen was born in New Delhi in 1964 and studied literature there and in the USA. As an Inlakes Scholar he completed an MS from the Graduate School of Journalism at Columbia University in New York. His writings have appeared widely in leading publications, including: Times Literary Supplement, Guardian, Independent, Financial Times, Evening Standard, Scotsman, Scotland on Sunday, London Magazine, Poetry Review, Washington Post, Boulevard, Harvard Review, Poetry , Times of India, Indian Review of Books, Telegraph, and Statesman.

Sen has been an International poet-in-residence at The Scottish Poetry Library in Edinburgh and a visiting scholar at Harvard University. He lives and works in London and New Delhi.

The next poem is from his most recent book, Postmarked India: New & Selected Poems published by HarperCollins in 1997. The book was awarded the Hawthorne Fellowship and nominated for the Pushcart Prize.



The Lovers and the Moon

1


some lovers, obscure lovers
sat in a lonely park

on a secluded old marble bench
where the moon made love

to this white stone,
flooding it with milky luminescence

until it grew
hard and cold, beautiful and serene.

clear, so clear that it reflected
the moon,

so when the obscure lovers sat,
sat in the lonely park

on the secluded marble bench,
they knew they weren't alone.

they knew they weren't alone.
a large myth was looming all around.

2

the lovers were engaged
some years later - a moonstone ring.
they never spoke
through all their lives.

even as they loved
they were aware of the orb,
its intense radiance
that bound them together.

some years later they had a child.
it was full moon night,
through just before its conception
there was a great storm.

amidst all the clamour and diffusion,
the lovers perceived a strange
through familiar apparition
that approached them from the sky.

a mirage - the marble bench,
solitary, but glowing.
all was dead still,
stark, the earth was cold.

on the same bench now appeared
a fresh green sapling, its roots
emerging from the lifeless stone,
life from an inanimate womb.

when this new voice screamed
amidst the stillness
it echoed a shudder
whose force disengaged two leaves

from a Banyan tree over the bench
weakened in the recent storm.
they glided, fluttered downwards,
softly perching on the earth.

3

the lovers,
the father and mother of the child

died.

near the marble bench
was a grave, a tombstone,

and the Banyan tree above it.

as an offering was placed:
two leaves, the moonstone ring, and

an epitaph

containing the lyrics
of the whole song.





Photo by Rose Cosme



I introduced San Antonio artist/photographer Rose Cosme to "Here and Now" readers several months ago. I'm glad to have her back this month with some additional photos, the one above and the ones below.

Rose choose protheses as her subject for her M.F.A. portfolio and has continued to work with them as the focus of her work since, producing strange, sometimes unsettling, images that are, at the same time, quite beautiful. That is the challenge, she says, to using that subject.




Photo by Rose Cosme




Photo by Rose Cosme




Photo by Rose Cosme




Photo by Rose Cosme



Thanks, Rose, for the use of your photos.








A science fiction geek in my youth, it doesn't take much to get me thinking about science things that intrigue me that I don't understand.

This time I think it was an NPR piece that got me started.



now

there
is no difference
einstein said
between past
present
and future

they are all
the same

i think
of a deck of cards

i pull a king
off the top
and lay it down

i pull a queen
and place it on top
of the king

the king
is not gone

it is still
there

and a nine of diamonds
atop the queen
does not eliminate
either the queen
or the king

they are not gone

the are still part
of the deck

as are all the cards
i have not uncovered yet

they are there
though
i have not seen them yet

it is not my seeing
that makes them exist

they are not the future
just
as the cards already seen
are not the past

they are all now

the deck is now

the past
the present
and the future
do not exist in the real world

they are just constructs
of my human mind
built
to make sense
of a quantum
universe








Here's a mother's poem by Elizabeth Seydel Morgan from her book Parties published by Louisiana State University Press in 1988.

Morgan is the author of three books of poetry in addition to Parties. They are, Language, The Governor of Desire On Long Mountain, a finalist for the Library of Virginia Poetry Prize. Morgan is a graduate of Hollins College and received her MFA from Virginia Commonwealth University.



May Tenth

Ten on May tenth,
you think it's fine:
two numbers in your age
till you're a hundred

You've learned to flip
your silky hair in such a way
your unsure eyes don't show.
Your unruly arms and legs
most often seem askew,
but you can still curl up
like a touched caterpillar
and suck your thumb.

Ten years ago this hour
you uncurled from me.
Weak and silly from ether and relief,
I took you
into the cook of my arm,
felt the rush of blood
that cleared the blurring gas.

Satisfied,
I kissed the spot on your bare head
that throbbed.








Now, from me, one last poem for this week, a poem about something that happened to me for the very first time. And a wonderfully grand experience it was.



watching my book be read

for
the first time
ever
i'm watching someone
read my book today

someone
i don't know;
someone who
doesn't know me

someone
on the other side
of the coffee house
who doesn't know
i'm watching

it's a young couple
boy and girl
who stopped at the free
reads
table by the door

i was watching
idly curious
to see what they would do

i could tell
it was my book they picked up
by the colors on the cover
so i paid close attention
as they took the book
to a table
in the far corner of the room

they read together
handing the book back and forth
pointing to a page,
a poem,
talking about it

reading sometimes
very quietly
laughing loudly
at others

watching their concentration,
hearing their laughter

it was like the first time
i saw my son
hit a homerun over the fence
or the first time i heard him
ace a solo with the city youth
symphony

(except i can't stand up and cheer)

my book has serious
poems in it,
as well as many meant
to be funny

so,
though there may
in some peoples' minds
a question,
i'm choosing to
believe
they were laughing
at the right places

and don't
try
to tell me different








As the past struggles to hold on, the future awaits. There will be a chance to choose one or the other in barely more than two months. Don't miss the chance to make your choice known.

Until then, remember that all of the material included in this blog remains the property of its creators. The blog itself was produced by and is the property of me...allen itz.

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Picking Rorschach Daisies   Thursday, August 07, 2008


III.8.2.




(Posting this week a day early due to family events, graduations, etc. tomorrow through the weekend, so it's now or Sunday at the earliest. Would rather be early than late.)

So here it is another week gone by and another week closer to the election about which I'm becoming more and more concerned. In the war between the future and the past, McCain and his band of Bush weasels appear to be gaining ground.

But that's another story.

First, a word about the images this week. I'm not dedicated enough to photography to head out into picture taking expeditions in the middle of summer heat, meaning a lot of the images you've seen in the past couple of months are recycled.

I try each week to come with a consistent look for the issue, at the same time trying to old pictures look new. This week I wanted a pen and ink abstractish, or, better word, rorschachian look. So that's what the images this week are about. Applying the "ink stamp" effect available on photobucket to experiment, I discovered that flower images gave me just the look I wanted. So all the images this week began their life as flower photos, some pretty obvious as to their source, some not.

I like the look as a change I haven't tried before and hope you find it interesting as well.

Now, as to the lineup this week, we have:

From my library

E.E. Cummings
Philip Nikolayev
Ursula K. Le Guin
Peter Coyote
Reg E. Gaines
Juan Feliipe Herrera
Charles Harper Webb
Anna Akhmatova

From friends of "Here and Now"

Thane Zander
Rhonda Maltbie
Walter Durk
Dave Ruslander

And a few from me.








I completed my university education experience about 846 years ago having read the same two or three poems by E.E. Cummings that most people had read.

Like a lot of people, I knew nothing about his war poems and next to nothing about his love poems.

I've used some of the war poems here, and now, from the same book, Etcetera, The Unpublished Poems, are two of his love poems. The poems are in a section of the book containing poems left with Elaine Orr during the 1918-1919 time period. They were discovered after Orr's death in 1975.

There had been an affair between Cummings and Orr, beginning while Orr was still married and shortly before Cummings' service in the U.S. Army. The affair continued until Orr divorced her husband and agreed to marry Cummings. The affair lasted three years; the marriage just a few months.

The poems in each section of the are numbered, but not otherwise titled.



VII
as
we lie side by side
my little breasts become two sharp delightful strutting towers and
i shove hotly the lovingness of my belly against you

your arms are
young;
your arms will convince me,in the complete silence speaking
upon my body
their ultimate slender language

do not laugh at my thighs.

there is between my big legs a crisp city.
when you touch me
it is Spring in the city;the streets beautifully writhe,
it is for you;do not frighten them,
all the houses terrible tighten
upon your coming:
and they are glad
as you fill the streets of my city with children.

my love your are a bright mountain which feels.
you are a keen mountain and an eager island whose
lively slopes are based always in the me which is shrugging, which is
under you and around you and forever i am the hugging sea.
O mountain you cannot escape me
your roots are anchored in my silence;therefore O mountain
skillfully murder my breasts,still and always

i will hug you solemnly into me.


VIII

my lady is an ivory garden,
who is filled with flowers.

under the silent and great blossom
of subtle colour which is her hair
her ear is a frail and mysterious flower
her nostrils
are timid and exquisite
flowers skillfully moving
with the least caress of breathing,her
eyes and her mouth are three flowers.    My lady

is an ivory garden
her shoulders are smooth and shining
flowers
beneath which are the sharp and new
flowers of her little breasts tilting upward with love
her hand is five flowers
upon her whitest belly there is a clever dreamshaped flower
and her wrists are the merest most wonderful flowers    my

lady is filled
with flowers
her feet are the slenderest
each five flowers her ankle
is a minute flower
my ladies knees are two flowers
Her thighs are huge and firm flowers of night
and perfectly between
them eagerly sleeping
is

the sudden flower of complete amazement

my lady is filled with flowers
is an ivory garden

and the moon is a young man

who i see regularly,about twilight,
enter the garden smiling to
himself








Here's a poem I wrote last week.As usual, you read my poems, you read about my life.



skipping Las Vegas

they're
off

D
and her mother
and a couple of her brothers

i put them
on a plane a hour ago
for a week in Las Vegas

i passed

i like to have
at least a week
in a city

sitting at a sidewalk
cafe
studying the people

and learning the
rhythms
of the city

before i'm ready
to go out
and do whatever you're supposed

to do
in that particular
city

and Las Vegas -
i can't think
of anything at all

i'd want to do
there,
can't think of anything

i've lost there
i'd ever want back,

no interest at all
in gambling
(sore loser)

or neon
or glitzy shows
or showgirls

in hot pants
or West Texas cotton growers
who believe in

luck

you know how you know
some things
without any evidence

or direct experience,
well
i've never been to Vegas

but still i know
that it was probably better
when the mob ran it

you know,
if you have to choose,
always choose the honest

thief








Philip Nikolayev was born in Moscow in 1966 and grew up fully bilingual in Russian and English thanks to his father, a linguist. He started out as a Russian poet, but came to the United States in 1990 to attend Harvard University, and has since been writing primarily in English. His poems have appeared in such journals as The Paris Review, Grand Street, Verse, Stand, Jacket, Salt, overland and many others across the English-speaking world.

He is the author of two collections of poems, Artery Lumen and Dusk Raga. The poem I have this week is from his third collection, Monkey Time, published by Verse Press in 2003, and winner of the 2001 Verse Prize. He is also the editor and publisher of Fulcrum: an annual of poetry and aesthetics).

Nikolayev lives in Cambridge, Massachusetts, with his wife, poet Katia Kapovich and their daughter.



My International

I'm a Jewish New Yorker from America.
I come from a background of my family,
mostly from Brooklyn,
with a touch of Lower East Side.
I have three golden dental teeth in my mouth,
a silver one and a gold one. My grandmother
came from Bukhara in the nineteenth century.
She had the custom
of keeping a Bukharan cook in residence.
A female cook.
Both quickly picked up the Yankee
habit of smoking self-rolled cigarettes,
or smokes. Something
they would never have done in Bukhara. OK,
I'm not exactly sure what I'm saying.
OK, maybe, I dunno, maybe I'm Russian.
Yeah, maybe I'm that Russian
from Wicked Walnut Wool Street (Ave.)
in Cambridge, Mass.
or something that resembles him or her
in absent-mindedness and peculiar manners
of speech. Maybe that. Maybe I smoke
crude cigarettes, 2 packs daily,
ripping off the filters, drinking three
Dublin boys under the table.
Or maybe I'm a German biochem
grad student who laughs at American PC
soaking white teeth in purple Pinot Noir. I am Greek.
I am Latin. I am Chinese. I am Hindustani.
Hello? Hello? Where is my national identity?
Who cares? Why would anyone care?
These are my clothes, take them.
These days everything is international.








Here's a whirligig of a poem by our friend from New Zealand, Thane Zander.

Thane is a 49 year old web poet, closely aligned with three poetry forums, a director of two fora at Blueline Poetry and regular contributor in the House, an Admin/owner of an endemic New Zealand Poetry forum Whiti Ataahua - New Zealand Poetry, and is currently participating in a brainiacs poetry forum called Babilu. He is a Bipolar sufferer and lives in semi retirement which allows time for all things poetry. His hometown is Feilding, New Zealand and he has two daughters.



Crying Insomnia in a Dust Storm

Brilliant strobe lighting, pulsing
illuminating a fornicating couple;
we met Tarantino in a Mall Store
he was filming another Tomato Sauce commercial.

We belie our years, the soft potato couch,
passing Gangrene Toes and Magic Mushrooms.

Yesterday was The Seven Hundreds reunion,
they counted the dead, sixty mournful souls,
the infantry regiments fighting without bullets,
the artillery lost for words, fights on.

The Banana Republics lick their wounds
a loss of face as Zero Dollars transfer from accounts,
we pass the Fraud Morgue, a home for retired
wheelers and dealers, their lot baked
in the cold ovens with Silver Sliding Plates,
animuscule ambivalence shivers in a foreign park.

Climbing the Wrightwheel Stairwell
punching the air in victory, Ezra Pound,
his sermon on dexterity falling on long silent ears,
and mouths too afraid to utter profanity
suck in the air left vacant by several Egrets.

She tosses salad, the kitchen a frightful mess,
children play skiddies on stray Lettuce Leaves,
chuck up the calamari into a computer
reminiscent of a Gargoyle Garbage Can,
Tarantino moves to ask Kubrick,

Is the Tea hot?

The dust storm in Gerald's Office reaches gale force,
we salivate the possibility of Aural Orgasm,
the yards all clear now the time has passed,
we all gather at Times Square, to watch Time
in which I read about Autism, the Dark Disease,
It's not rare you know,

Past the Demon Door, and down Harry's Corridor
the footslide etches a hoedown in C,
faces in strange windows peer back in silence,
a motion towards elicits a look of horror,
the belly of the Lime Green Tomato Fish
is gutted open to divulge Dali Fingers,
not to be outdone, the Stray Cur erupts Monet,
and seven special Suckerbacks slide seductively home.








Ursula K. Le Guin, born in 1929 and one of the giants of science fiction and fantasy, has also published six books of poetry, including Incredible good fortune published by Shambala in 2006, The next poem is from that book.

Le Guin, writing extensively in all genres, is winner of the Hugo, Nebula, Gandalf, Kafka and National Book Awards.



The Mute

What song will she sing
who is dumb? She can hum
like bees, she can rustle
like the trees, like the birds
she can whistle, anything
but words.

Why is she so?
Her human tongue was cleft
by a feathered arrow. The dark sparrow,
the judgment crow, the anger owl
split her language, left
her to trill and hiss and howl.

Standing near her
I sing for her
words of fear
and hope and horror.


The Woman in the Attic

I am the mad woman in the attic,
professionally frantic. Hear my laugh?
Loud, singularly mirthless, automatic.
I am the first and worthless wife.

My heart is not in this poem.
How could it be? My life
is contingent, like that of the Golem
or the Golden Calf,

on a word written on my forehead,
or a popular belief.
I am boring, I am bored.
Ha ha I say to joy, ha ha to grief.








I have two poems this week from a new friend, Rhonda Maltbie, including a perfect little ku.

Rhonda lives and writes in the Pacific Northwest. Her poems have appeared in various online and paper publications. Most recently her work appears in Underground Window, Poets Against The War, Simply Haiku, World Haiku Review and Mindfire Renewed, to name a few.



Silhouette

To look at me you would not know that I am a poet.
When I look in your eyes, I see the thoughts
you haven't the will to voice.

I have learned to be still within the daily tick tock
of time that pulses in a capillary until it finally stalls
and stops.

In your smile is the promise of a tropical sunset. We vacation
in sand castles and bathe in salt water; at dinner you lick the poi
from my fingers, another page is written.

awake -
water shimmers ninhyndrin purple
beneath the moon

I have not stopped breathing yet.



Summer ku


lifeline -
a spider suspended on a ribbon
of dusty sunshine








The next poem is from Poets Against the War, a print compilation of selected poems appearing on the website by the same name. Like 37 beezillion others, I have several poems on the website, but didn't make the cut for the book.

The author of this poem from the book is Peter Coyote who I assume is the Peter Coyote, since unlike the other lesser-known poets in the book, no information is provided other than the name.



Flags

Flags are everywhere
Tied to cars, strapped
to twisted girders, fanning the air
where silver needles have pierced
the steel ribs of a bold idea,
tossing hope to the teeth of gravity
cinching the collar on a world
straining to breathe.
Men are lifting broken children
from stones in Beirut, A flop-eared mutt
guards a human foot in Bosnia.
Stacked skulls peek
through lianas in Cambodia, while a fireman
breathes into the mouth
of a dead infant in Oklahoma.
The cookies of mothers, pomegranates, musky sheets
of marriage beds, pistachios and birthday cakes
are drenched in oily smoke and iron slag, Everywhere,
electrons serve only their own will,
heavy metals float as ash. Gaps appear
in every skyline. Everywhere, flags
open their wings in the hearts
of people, flutter in the cornet of my tv
while a man who thinks he is speaking,
barks, his lips
slick with marrow.

The prep-school boys
are rampaging again. The palm-frond bars
stocking brewskis, and "gimme" hats
for the dead-drop boys,
the dirty secret boys,
from El Mozote and Panama,
off to Bagdad and Kabul now,
dropping in to Peshawar. -
their itineraries clot the tongue
blood leaks from the ears of history.
The class of '55 boys
are crazy for bottle-neck flies.
Soot-stained
snapshots, and upturned chair, a thumb -
- everywhere people are weeping and afraid,
waving flags, plotting check and mate,
as if one smooth move might rid the world
of shadows. They are burying
jews in Tel Aviv, lofting flag-wrapped martyrs
in Ramallah, curing the mourners in New York.
Everywhere, there is emptiness, tattered space
where someone once sauntered
or warmed their hands with steaming chestnuts.
Each banner a thousand deaths
somewhere
each flag a sword,or swooning plane,
somewhere,
each snapping pennant taps
a riddle in code:
can the heart of a people
be opened by a killer?
Closed by a leader?
Numbered to suffering even
as it weeps?

The dead
in Chile are poems,
in Nicaragua palms and vines;
in Yugoslavia catalogued in Brussels,
in Baghdad, irradiated dirt.
In New York, dust
drifting on sills
and dashboards through vaporized glass,
dancing in freshets of air that whisper,
startling those holding their breaths
to hear the faintest of cries.
And the hard man with the soft eyes
resting in the shadows of poppies,
negotiates with the lavender angel
the number of souls required
as threads in a flag
woven to the glory
for Allah.

Autumn Equinox, 2001.








This is one of the poems I have on the Poets Against the War website (but not in the book). I wrote the poem in February, 2004 and it was posted on the website the same month.



welcome home the warrior safe and whole

let us not think today of those who remain,
but celebrate instead only you, home now,
safe for a while from the lying old men
who sent you away, the craven old men
who passed their own war in hiding,
saving all their bellicosity for a day
when risk would again be borne by others

oh, safe now in their paneled office,
how they glory in sending others to die,
no hiding now for them,
but photo ops far from the line of fire,
in the garb of warriors
on the deck of a warrior vessel,
watch them preen, thieves that they are,
stealing honor from the blood
of better men and women
than in their grandest dreams
they could ever be


but you are not them,
you went with honor and with honor you now return,
far away now from the sand
and desert heat,
far away from lurking death beside each road,
around each corner, behind each wall,
behind, you have to fear, each smiling face

through the random grace of whatever gods
look out for warriors and their families,
you are home,
home to friends and worried kin,
to wife and dancing daughters
(grown so in the months you were gone),
home to gentle hills and dew-drenched pastures,
home to the cleansing rains of October,
to the cool nights and shifting colors of early autumn,
home to your own warm bed
and the arms of all who waited for your return








Reg E. Gaines is a poet, teacher, lecturer and Grand Slam Champ has appeared on MTV's "Spoken Word Unplugged" and has two books out, 24-7-365 and Headrhyme Lines. The poem I'm using is from the anthology Aloud; Voices from the Nuyorican Poets Cafe and is also available from Mercury Records.



Please Don't Take My Air Jordans

my air jordans cost a hundred with tax
my suede starters jacket says raiders on the back
i'm styling....smilling....looking real mean cuz
it ain't about bein heard just bein seen

my leather adidas baseball cap
matches my fake gucci backpack
there's nobody out there looks good as me
but the gear costs money it sure ain't free

and i gots no job no money at all
but it's easy to steal fresh gear from the mall
parents say i shouldn't but i know i should
gots to do what i can to make sure i look good

and the reason i have to look real fly
well to tell you the truth man i don't know why
i guess it makes me feel special inside
when i'm wearin fresh gear i don't have to hide

but i really must get some new gear soon
or my ego will pop like a ten cent balloon
but security's tight at all the shops
everyday there are more and more cops

my crew's laughing at me cuz i'm wearin old gear
school's almost over summer is near
and i'm sportin torn jordans and need somethin new
there's only one thing left to do

cut school friday catch the subway downtown
check out my victims hangin around
maybe i'll get luck and find easy prey
gots to get some new gear and there's no other way

i'm ready and willin i'm packing my gun
this is serious bizness it sure ain't no fun
but i can't have my posse laughin at me
i'll cop something dope just wait you'll see

come out a the station west 4th near the park
brothers shootin hoops and someone remarks
HEY HOMES...WHERE'D YOU GET THOSE DEF NIKES
as i said to myself....i likes em...i likes em

they were q-tip white bright and blinded my eyes
the red emblem of michael looked as if it could fly
not one spot of dirt the airs were brand new
had my pistol knew just what to do

followed him very close behind
waited until it was just the right time
made a left turn on houston pulled out my gun and screamed
GIMME THEM JORDANS...and he tried to run

took off fast but didn't get far
i fired (POW) he fell between two parked cars
he was coughin/cryin/blood dripped on the street
and i snatched them air jordans off a his feet

while layin there dyin all he could say was
please...don't take my air jordans away,,,
you think he'd be worried about stayin alive
as i took off with the jordans there were tears in his eyes

the very next day i bopped into school
with my brand new air jordans man was i cool
i killed to get them but hey...i don't care
cuz now...i needs a new jacket to wear









Now here's a poem from Walter Durk another friend of "Here and Now."

Walter was born in New York City and says he has lived in Asia and numerous places in the United States.



Little lions

      When I arrived
they were not here.
I had no one
to speak to

I must tell you
I missed them - their
resplendent hues
that brighten

my day. I have seen
a rainbow in sunlit
mist as great falls
rushed toward me

It does not come close

I do no harm to
these little lions
that tell me vivid
stories with their skin

And as close
as we may be
they do not
belong to me








I haven't used anything from Giraffe On Fire by Juan Felipe Herrera in a long time. I lent the book out then forgot about it. I just got it back last week and, looking through it again, realized I had forgotten how truly strange many of the poem in it are. Given that, it's still beautiful work, vivid and alive.



Shawashte

I am coming back o the fiery humor of Mexican towns. I've been dragging
a topaz-colored branch my mother gave me - flickering, since
the early years. I've been dragging these curly papers filling with light
at noon the navy yards from the west and smoke looms up, this oil
and green steel where you lose flesh in one swing - one handsome swing
from the young jackhammer - this was Woody Herrera's death in '64.
What could they do with the stump figure and his peach-checkered leg?
Where did they bury his son's curses? Where did he walk?

I went through the tiny veins, through the cobblestone
back to El Colorin, eighty miles east of the Pacific in central Mexico.
I was asking for salt. At times, I was even more simple and
received the sharp sweetness; the kind you get from a Mexican lime
and if you are lucky from your own eyes as you gaze across the streets
full of ring vendors, Indians and fancy melting cars. I went inside.
I wanted to touch the belly under the waters - darkness opening up
a black fan with amethyst sparkles where the face was. I even slept
in a shredded hammock; the wet insects dropped from the ceiling
to click their jaws, go up again - scale the ruins.

There was a Ferris wheel with a Spanish girl wearing a pearl necklace;
the background - roses and chrome. There was a spattered bus leaving me
in the town plaza of Guatemala City - I had to fight for a ticket south;
I wanted to go deeper. The Indians crowded to see me, looking down
at the ground. Their feet were swollen, but they carried shawashte,
a walking stick, blackish and stonelike, finished like a clarinet,
a clarinet of resentments. In El Salvador, that's how far I got one year
I lived on a finca with a robust zookeeper, a plantation man who dressed
in fatigues. I never knew his name. We drank wine once. Once, at dinner
we sang Adios muchachos, companeros de mi vida. Everyone in Latin America
knows this song. Then, I climbed up the volcano, the hills and met
the workers and their fenced-in vegetables and their love for oranges
right after they are picked, sitting cross-legged, maybe warming
tortillas on the embers, they are the ones I love the most, they are the ones
tied down to a boot whose shadowy strings follow me.

I had written two pages about this. There is nothing memorable, nothing
here, the publishers said. I kept on, going through my oversized clothes.
My color was somewhere between a burgundy and a brown; passions
consumed me, I think - something between a burgundy and a brown.
My cheeks are hollow, my hair, oily, longish to the midback. I wore
muslin and huaraches, the type the tourists buy - not meant for wearing
because they are pointed. I was a clown of sorts. I strayed, at times
I joined others - a Chicano from East L.A., with green eyes, a kind
cameraman who kept on, now he lives in Brazil, there were others;
tall women and some men with notebooks, sketchpads - they were
writing too, they talked about their grandmothers whom they never
met, they talked about El Paso and the Juarez border, they mentioned
shame, they mentioned water. These were the tillers and scrubbers,
they said, these were the prayers

for the little ghost in the grasses, for the two-headed calf
for the feeble kid, frozen with a tiny leg
for the braids inside a plastic back form the pharmacy
for the daughter walking ahead, past the terrible gates
for the husband made to drink gasoline by the patrol
for the American officer with one eye.


We camped under an old tarp and ate sweet dough backed over a wire.
It tasted like licorice and rice. We shuffled backstage, put on pebbled
masks, we called it the Theater of Freedom, and used other words too,
like teatro and carpas, for years we performed in the tobacco collectives
in northern Veracruz, and back in Hollenbeck Park, in East L.A., where
my buddy was from, even in Chino Prison on the West Coast too.
The inmates asked us to take cartoons and letters back to their wives.
On time we went to Granger,Washington,up north, I had never seen
the snow, so powdery, with lights. I grew up in Southern California.
Who's to say what I'll see next, I told them. My words were spontaneous.
I used words like rebozo, lotus, my favorite animals were the deer and
the eagle. The others used words like bronze and nation and phrases
like viva la mujer, there was something behind all this, free from
bitterness, in the shape of a harp, behind us.

This was 1968, this was 1974, no one cringed then, no one whispered,
we walked out of our houses and crossed the street as if underwater -
you couldn't see our eyes or even the way our hands were shifting,
the language was unknown - you could feel the heat waves though,
maybe, something traveling, rushes, fragrance, this was 1979, maybe
some are still going, I heard Carlitos Robles took his children to Italy.
Parma, they said, and Dolores Valencia made it to Berlin, every day,
from the bitten walls - she makes sure she takes the old signs down,
she says, and she puts up something from the backpack, a soda cup,
maybe with pieces of pumpernickel for the birds, a funny little meal
under the sky. I am picking a small meadow, ahead - two bushels
of bright reddish leaves in a basket, a Greyhound depot on the other
side, forlorn, with a foolish clock, it is late spring, I can tell it is a
Mexican town, by the smoke and the women's laughter, more smoke.
All morning I've been hearing tiny currents rushing through the trees,
I am walking alone, more with my left than my right, like my father.
There is much work to be done, he would say, so many ruins
to sweep, so much blue dust to settle.








Here's another one I wrote last week on a day that started in a particularly disappointing way.



shards

damn,
i really felt skinny
this morning,
then i put my
quarter
in the weight
fortune
and lucky lotto number
machine
and...

oh well...

it's like the
cool breeze
early in the morning
when Reba and i
do our sniff and hustle
around Huebner Oaks,
not a hint
of the furnace to come
so i'm always surprised
a half hour later
when the sun fries
the breeze
and the humidity
steams
like a forgotten
teapot
on the stove...

seems
i should be
too old
to be suckered
this way, but still,
i find myself
at the end of every day
surrounded
by shards of
illusions
crushed in
head-on smashups
with unforgiving
reality

even age
does not seem
a reliable cure
for
unreliable
hope








Charles Harper Webb is a rock singer turned psychotherapist, specializing in work with creative artists, and Professor of English at CSU, Long Beach.

Webb won the 1997 Morse Poetry Prize for his book Reading the Water. His other books of poems include Liver, Tulip Farms and Leper Colonies, Hot Popsicles,and Amplified Dog. Additionally, he is recipient of the Academy of American Poets Prize, a Whiting Writer's Award, a Guggenheim Fellowship, and both the Distinguished Faculty Scholarly and Creative Achievement Award and the Distinguished Faculty Teaching Award.

The following poem is from Reading the Water.



Broken Toe

Blessings on you, toe of many colors:
purple as a grape, maroon as a raspberry,
yellow as a ripe casaba, greenish-white
as honeydew where the Doctor's adhesive pressed

I've been boring lately, puffy little pig.
I've complained, "Nothing ever happens to me,"
swollen bread stick, stumpy penis gorged
with blood. I was sunk in complacency

with my good salary, good job, good girlfriend,
writing good poetry about nothing (or next to)
not to offend the eight to ten people
who read them.
"Goddamn it fuck shit cocksucker

O Judas hump!" - it was a prayer you pulled from me,
fat gouty priest, when, in the dark, I tripped
on my Heater-Plus-Fan. "Motherfucking, asshole
goddamn slutty shit-face, fuck fuck fuck!"

A word-orgasm after long celibacy. Blessed release!
How did I stand the unfractured monotony?
Welcome back, pain. Welcome back, passion.
Welcome back, something-to-howl-about,

grist for the how're-you-doing? Remind me
of the joys of walking, jump-rope, running,
playing footsie. Hammer home the certainty
of decay, memento mori at my body's end.

In the TV screen of your bruised nail, I see the usual
skulls and skeletons, but also wheelchairs,
triple-bypass surgeries, hit-and-runs,
cancers, deaths by earthquake, flood and killer bee.

The words fragility and tenuous flow by
like banners towed by blimps. I wasn't drunk,
I kicked no woman or dog, or door, though if you like
to think I did, dear reader, do. Believe I broke

my toe drop-kicking ninja, if it pleases you.
Simply to reach the fridge is an adventure.
I hop on one leg to answer the phone.
It took ten minutes, the first day, to get my shoe on.

When I found that I could not depress my clutch
and had to give up my day's plans,
I swore a good two minutes more, then hopped
inside, crimson with rage and pride -

with real conflict in my life -
with an ache so sharp that I when I stepped
I cried, "Jesus!" - with my heart's silence broken -
with something to say.








Here's a poem by our friend Dave Ruslander from his book Voices In My Head. To find out more about Dave and his book click on his link under the link list on the right of the page.



Leaning Farthest Away From The Sun

Somewhere near midnight,
blacktop reflected
like ribbon on a package.

Deer froze and stared
from gold diamonds,
Pontiac pointed at his
green corn moon
and my mind was headed
beyond the horizon
into imagination

I tossed my cigarette,
the cherry end scattered.
And orange comet hurled
through exhausted mist.
That's when I realized
there are shades of black.








Born in 1889, Anna Akhmatova achieved her first fame as a icon of pre-Revolutionary Russian literary society. After the revolution she became the unofficial spokesperson of all those who suffered through Stalinism. During World War II, the authorities briefly rehabilitated her for her patriotism, but later clamped down again with a repression that was not lifted until the last years of her life, when her literary achievement and international recognition could no longer be ignored.

Akhmatova died in 1966.

These poems are from Anna Akhmatova: Selected Poems, published by Zephyr Press in 2000. It is a bilingual collection, Russian, with English translations by Judith Hemschemeyer.

The short pieced I selected to use here are untitled, but each is dated when written.



I don't know if you're living or dead -
Whether to look for you here on earth
Or only in evening meditation,
When we grieve serenely for the dead.

Everything is for you: my daily prayer,
And the thrilling fever of the insomniac,
and the blue fire of my eyes,
And my poems, that white flock.

No one was more intimate with me,
No one made me suffer so,
Not even the one who consigned me to torment,
Not even the one who caressed and forgot.

Summer 1915:
Slepnyovo


****

The twenty-first. Night. Monday.
The outlines of the capital are in mist.
Some idler invented the idea
That there's something in the world called love.

And from laziness or boredom
Everyone believed it and here is how they live:
They anticipate meetings, they fear partings
And they sing the songs of love.

But the secret will be revealed to the others,
and a hush will fall on them all...
I stumbled on it by accident
And since then have been somehow unwell.

1917
Petersburg

****

I dream of him less often now, thank God,
He doesn't appear everywhere anymore.
Fog lies on the white road,
Shadows start to run along the water.

And the ringing goes on all day.
Over the endless expanse of ploughed fields,
Even louder sound the bells
From Jonah's Monastery far away.

I am clipping today's wilted branches
From the lilac bushes;
On the ramparts of the ancient fortress,
Two monks stroll.

Revive for me,who cannot see,
The familiar,comprehensible, corporal world.
The heavenly king has already healed my soul
With the peace of unlove, icy cold.

1912
Kiev


****

I am listening to the orioles' ever mournful voice
And saluting the splendid summer's decline.
And through grain pressed tightly, ear to ear,
The sickle, with its snake's hiss, slices.

And the short skirts of the slender reapers
Fly in the wind like flags on a holiday.
The jingling of bells would be jolly now,
And through dusty lashes, a long, slow gaze.

It's not caresses I await, nor lover's adulation,
The premonition of inevitable darkness,
But come with me to gaze at paradise, where together
We were innocent and blessed.

July 27, 1917
Slepnyovo


****

Now no one will listen to songs.
The prophesied days have begun.
Latest poem of mine, the world has lost its wonder.
Don't break my heart, don't ring out.

A while ago, free as a swallow,
You accomplished your morning flight,
But now you've become a hungry beggar,
Knocking in vain at strangers' gates.

1917








I wrote this last week, an effort to find some satisfaction in whatever way circumstances allow.



niche marketing

too damn
hot -
that's the problem

don't know
what i'd do without
these air conditioned
coffee shop

oases -
this one, La Taza,
i come to on Monday nights

for the little poetry group
we started
months ago -

they also sell my book here,
or, at least,
display it for sale,

haven't actually sold one
here
but i do notice

the one I donated to
their free library
for people to read

while drinking their coffee
has disappeared,
an experience i've had

in several coffee shops
that stock my book -

demonstrating that
though the book might not be
a big seller on the coffee shop

circuit,
it's a hot item
in the thieve's market -

i find some satisfaction
in that,
though it is pleasure

of a very peculiar sort








That's it for this week. Will see you again one week from now. Until then - stand by for the same song and dance - all the material presented on this blog remains the property of its creators. The blog itself was produced by and is the property of me...allen itz.

1 Comments:
at 7:39 PM Blogger Alice Folkart said...

Hope this isn't a duplicate, but, might be.

Mr. Itz - another wonderful issue. Enjoyed. Especially Nicolayev and Rhonda Maltbie. Wonderful voices. Especially like the Maltbie ku. Mr. Zander's Insomnia poem hit close. And, I'd never see Ursula K. Le Guin's Woman in the Attic before - love it. Likewise, hadn't seen your Welcome Home the Warrior from Poets against the war. Very good. Strong. And, last, but not least, Reg Gains 'Air Jordans,' so chilling because it happens all the time. Oh, and the e.e. cummings - stuff I hadn't seen, too. Leave it Here and Now/7Beats to widen our horizons.

Thanks,
Alice Folkart

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And-Ah One And-Ah Two   Friday, August 01, 2008


III.8.1.



So here we are, August 1st.

My grandfather's name was August and he was, I'm told, a very nice man. The month of August, however, is the pit of the pits. The only good thing about August 1st is it signals the likelihood of only two more months of summer. And even that's far from assured.

Well, August is what August is and the weather is what the weather is and I can't do anything about either, so, setting my pitiful whining aside, let's move on.

The line up for "Here and Now" for this week is:

From my library

Dennis Tourbin
David St. John
Margaret Atwood
G.E. Patterson
Charles Bukowski
Czeslaw Milosz
Travis Watkins
Gladys Cardiff
Francisco X. Alarcon
Deborah Garrison

Friends of "Here and Now"

Dan Cuddy
James Hutchings
Alice Folkart
Jim Fowler
Shawn Nacona Stroud

And my own contributions as well.








My first poem this week is by Dennis Tourbin, from his book In Hitler's Window published in 1991 by The Tellem Press of Ottawa.

Tourbin, born in 1946, was a poet, painter, performance artist, novelist and art and poetry-magazine publisher. He was active in the artist-run centers network since the early days; he was a founding member of the Niagara Artists' Center and ran Gallery 101 in Ottawa, in addition to having been Chairman of the Board of Artspace in Peterborough. He is said to have been a key part of the development of the lively regional art scene since the seventies.

Dennis Tourbin died in 1998.



Electro Knokke

In the dark night
the glow of pink neon
cuts through
the flash of a car's
headlights. In the
distance - the vast
Atlantic Ocean
appears.

Huge ships, like
cities inch along
the horizon; the
slow passage of
light and time.



The cold North Atlantic...
I imagined
young men, soldiers,
landing on this
beach years ago.

I imagined their
bodies washing ashore,
their ghosts...their
voices whispering,
whispering as the water hit
the shore.



I imagined those
last few moments
the bitter cold
of the water
and the sand
and the sharp snap
of bullets through
the dense flesh

A slow movement
into an eternity
so foreign,
so strange,
each step
a mystery;

the waves washing
away all evidence
with each deep
breath of the ocean.

The blood just a
small reminder,
a certain remembrance
of some forgotten dream.

The flash of chrome
sparkling in the mirror
glass mirror.

The main street,
an abattoir,
a new discovery;
the disappearing
landscape,
metal hurtling
through space,
the blur of
colour in the
distance, a
fire shooting
from every window.

In time I will
hold burning
diamonds in
the palm of
my hand.

White flames
dancing,
reaching,
for the distance
in the violent sky.








Looking through the newspaper the other day, I found some interesting stories.



national report

New Hampshire

storms carve swath
of death, destruction


God is blamed,
along with newly elected
politicians
and Greek sailors
on leave -
God makes no
comment,
newly elected
politicians
unleash swaths
of meaningless
politigoop,
Greek sailors'
comment only one word,
"what?"
after lengthy discussion
among themselves
in a foreign language
which a panel of experts
said, when consulted,
might be Greek


Arizona

community college
shooting injures 3


incident blamed on
God,
newly elected members
of the Arizona House of
Prevaricators,
and Albanian parachutists -
all refused comment
except the ghost of Barry
Goldwater
who, when consulted, said
"go away!"


Alaska

bear attack leaves
woman in bad shape


close associates report
woman
bent in at least three
places, also suffering
bad case of
bear
breath
hangover


District of Columbia

US Airways fires pilot
whose gun discharged


pilot
fires back


Louisiana

river oil spill cleanup
could take weeks


if not months,
or possibly years -
former governor Edwin
Edwards reports from his cell
in the Louisiana Federal
Correctional
Facility
for Former Big Shots
that he could fix it all in hours
if everyone in Louisiana
would send him three
dollars
and forty-seven cents


District of Columbia

foreign AIDS aid
legislation approved


former Senator Jesse
Helms signals approval
from his grave, as long
as, the recently deceased
Senator
adds,
none of the money goes to
queers.


California

Charges against Marine dismissed

after court martial panel determined
that the killing of the two Syrians,
was provoked by their wearing
of long beards, open toed sandals,
and otherwise appearing
Arabic


Elsewhere in the Universe

President George W. Bush

assured by the
Vice-President
and Karl Rove
that his swing would
improve
with just a little more practice,
returned to his game
of golf, handing off
the nuclear
"football"
to Jenna
in the interim
so she'd
have something to play with
while on honeymoon








David St. John was born in Fresno, California, in 1949, and educated at California State University, Fresno, where he received his B.A. In 1974, he received an M.F.A. from the University of Iowa. He is the author of six books of poetry, including Prism, Study for the World's Body: New and Selected Poems, No Heaven, and Hush. His awards include the Discover/The Nation prize, the James D. Phelan Prize, and the prix de Rome fellowship in literature. He has also received several National Endowment for the Arts Fellowships and a Guggenheim Fellowship.

St. John currently teaches in the English Department at University of Southern California, Los Angeles.

My poem from him this week is from Study for the World's Body published in 1994 by HarperCollins.



The Avenues

Some nights when you're off
Painting in you studio above the laundromat,
I get bored about two or three A.M.
and go out walking down one of the avenues
Until I can see along some desolate side street
The glare of an all-night cafeteria.
I sit at the counter,
In front of those glass racks with the long,
Narrow mirrors tilted above them like every
French bedroom you've ever read
About. I stare at all those lonely pies,
Homely wedges lifted
From their moons. The charred crusts and limp
Meringues reflected so shamelessly -
Their shapely fruits and creams all spilling
From the flat pyramids, the isosceles spokes
Of dough. This late at night,
So few souls left
In the place, even the cheesecake
Looks a little blue. With my sour coffee,
I wander back out, past a sullen boy
In leather beneath the whining neon,
Along those streets we used to walk at night,
Those endless shops of spells: the love philtres
And lotions, 20th century voodoo. Once,
Over your bath, I poured
One called Mystery of the Spies,
Orange powders sizzling all around your hips.
Tonight, I'll drink alone as these streets haze
To a pale grey. I know you're out somewhere -
Walking the avenues, shadowboxing the rising
Smoke as the trucks leave their alleys and loading
Chutes - looking for breakfast, or a little peace.








Here's a longish poem from "Here and Now" friend Dan Cuddy. Dan posted this on the Blueline Forum in three parts over the course of three days. I was sold on the poem from the very first post.



Painting

What would I paint
if I painted?
Rooms?
No, my wife likes to paint rooms,
and she sculpts them too
with furniture, pictures, flowers.
There is an art to decorating a room.
Would I paint doors?
How many shades of white or black
or red or green
or, God help us, gray,
could I paint a door?
I would have to be a minimalist.
I am not Ellsworth Kelly,
and Frank Stella doors?
Okay for art museums,
but not a house.
Would I paint a rectangular canvas
in the great tradition?
I can't draw more than stick figures.
My trees would be blotches,
not leaves of green,
the clouds would be a film
like on glass,
and they wouldn't alter shape or meaning
like a Rorschach spot.
No, I'd paint what I paint
and that is words.

Green greets with its enthusiastic "grrr",
it latches on,
it stretches your arm with its long ee's
and since it is so fertile with its "n"
that sounds like "and"
green n yellow are so mellow
ah, yes, green is such an affirmation
unless it gets stuck in bread
or puts its "in" to envy
but green is usually healthy, wealthy,
wise?

Green is too fertile with red.
Oh, RED, she is
a Venezuelan senorita,
hot-to-trot,
rrreddd tight skirt,
a tube
of lovely flesh,
tight that rredd,
frilly lace at the ankles,
breasts a-popping,
Grreenn can't stop dancing
pressing herrrr tight,
that Spanish rose breath,
ooooh, the sweat dropping off grrrreen leaves,
the grrreen light flashing "Go",
the stalks rising,
the tendrils reaching,
the dollars as green as grass
and as numerous,
oh Mr. Green how flamboyantly
thorns and all,
you hold that Rose!
She has dark eyes,
like beetles,
but sweet as raisins
oh, and her body is heat,
oh, Mr. Green you are in a hothouse now,
the smoooth petals of Miss Rrreddd,
how like a jungle your mind
Mister Green, all vine and concupiscence,
a monkey chattering on top of a palm,
and in the palm of her hand
you are a little preying mantis
seeking just a leeetle kiss,
oh, what passion in the Garden of Eden,
Miss Red eyes like evening clouds,
and the drapery hiding those secrets,
what does she think?
Is her affection innocent and pink,
or is she after blood,
red, red blood,
and will Mr. Green be blue?

Bleh,bleh,blue
sobbing,weeping
unmanly,
so off he hid
like the day's sky in a storm,
oh peeking maybe now and then
but Green turned turquoise first,
like a pool
when he watched and reflected on
the bikini'd Red
sashaying cheek to cheek
over to the rich purple dude,
who was all plum proud of his royal self,
and Miz Red, like a carpet,
lay down at his feet
and he, robed with ego, tread on Red,
and she moaned like a grape squeezed to wine,
while blue was just an afternoon shadow,
a far distant sea
blanching like the ocean in sunlight,
and then with the shadows of his thought
turning steely blue,
gray blue,
a civil war of sorts waged within.
Should he fight the rich purple,
who had an inherently violet personality?
Mr. Blue,
for that now was truly his name,
a horse of a different color,
and collared.
The Red one,
like a sunset said goodbye without looking back,
and purple enfolded her as they walked
hip to hip. lip to lip
to a secluded spot on the strand
where they blended as one
in the post-dusk,
and blue, like a flake of battleship paint,
dropped off and out of the evening,
returned to his room,
a bedspread monochrome in misery,
a clarinet note twiddling sorrow
for that was his toy now,
not joy like the night before,
when green and red made everything 3-D.
Everything popped out and took one's eye then
with Love's illusion,
but now disillusion,
the world was a cold blue iceberg
broken off and alone in the sea.
The horizon hopefully
for Blue's veins ached not to go back to the heart
but fall away over Iguassu Falls,
and pour like a mouthwash, or a liquid cleaner,
so unnatural the vivid blue,
a pool in a lagoon,
a drip over rock,
so enervating was love lost,
Paradise a pair of dice,
the game lost.

Now I'm blue
for making Mr. Blue
shut himself up in his room
and stuck in the letter "u".
He crawls, climbs to get out
but slides down again,
bruising, a deeper shade of blue naturally,
knees and arms, and the tender heart
grown cold.
However, Night is only a shadow of Day,
and so I turn around and there is light,
all spiffy, fluffy, sweet.
Miss Yellow walked by Blue's window,
danced on his wall,
warmed him in his bed,
and up he popped,
enamored with Miss Yellow's innocent smile.
Oh, that sunny disposition,
that daffodil of a girl,
that jonquil of a fresh bloom,
a new start like an inviting egg!
Miss Yellow turned Blue Green again,
just like the olde days,
a field of ambition,
a harvest of love,
and the two, green and yellow,
wrapped their warmth around each other,
impressed the morning
like Monet,
and shimmered and shimmied
like Van Gogh.

I love painting words,
giving the world a happy ending,
striking bells, stroking fur,
streaking light into the darkest corners,
filling the sacs of "d" or "g" or "p"
with a gentle touch,
a pastel that rubs
the self-imposed holes in the alphabet
with substance,
not emptiness,
no, substance,
and how I sit eating an orange,
the pulp of reality in a color,
and I feel happy with the letter "See".
Oh, Miss Red may be considered
a loose thread, but she's in bed
with Purple and like fuchsia
she hangs out in resorts,
not unhappy,
and I, who am not Mr. Blue,
still admire, the weave and cleave of such a color,
that still excites on the dance room floor.
I sometimes turn purple with passion,
like a passage in a poem
or Faulkner in his overwrought prose.
I don't paint by the numbers, but by the hour.
I am an opportunist
depending on the way the light shines
and the letters hook themselves into words,
birds of a chirping alphabet.








The next poem is from Two-Headed Poems, a collecttion by Margaret Atwood published in 1978 by Simon and Schuster.

Atwood, born 1939 in Ottawa, began writing when she was six years old and has since become a prolific poet, novelist, literary critic, feminist and activist. She is a winner of the Arthur C. Clarke Award and Prince of Asturias award for Literature, has been shortlisted for the Booker Prize five times, winning once, and has been a finalist for the Governor General's Award seven times, winning twice.

She is the second of three children and. due to her father's ongoing research in forest entomology, spent much of her childhood in the backwoods of Northern Quebec and back and forth between Ottawa, Sault Ste. Marie and Toronto. She did not attend school full-time until she was 11 years old.

In the fall of 1961, after winning the E.J. Pratt Medal for her privately-printed book of poems, Double Persephone, she began graduate studies at Harvard's Radcliffe College with a Woodrow Wilson fellowship. She obtained a master's degree from Radcliffe in 1962 and pursued further graduate studies at Harvard University for 2 years. She has taught at the University of British Columbia, Sir George Williams University in Montreal, the University of Alberta, York University in Toronto, and New York University, where she was Berg Professor of English.

She is a very committed activist on feminist and environmental issues.



Two Miles Away

Two miles away, the humid weekend
jerks in thin lights along the highway,
bumper to bumper, groups
and separates at the corner store,
which could be anywhere.

But this is the hinterland: layer
of grass, layer of lukewarm dirt, layer of stones,
layer of winter.

Oblongs of earth, edged with fences;
in the middle of each, two sleepers.

Night rises from their bodies
and spreads over the hills,
musty, smelling of thunder;
the air around their heads
thickens with ancestors.

This is the land of hope
fulfilled, this is a desert;
like deserts it is nocturnal
and planted with bones

Outside this house, the hammock
weaves one tree to another.
For once there is no wind.
Sandbox in moonlight, the glimmer
of shadowy toys, the green shovel
the cracked white pail, the red star.

In the turned furrows, around our bed,
wild carrots, pinkish-mauve and stealthy,
creep over the rug, the cleared space,
and invasion of savage flowers
reclaiming their lost territory.

Is this where I want to be,
is this who I want to be with,

half of a pair,
half of a custom,
nose against neck, knee thrown
over the soft groin,

part of this ancient habit,
part of this net, this comfort,
this redblack night,
humility of the sleeping body,
web of blood.








James Hutchings has been with us before. He's 58 and says he has been a truck driver for a while. Jim says he started writing poetry when he was in school, where he played in garage bands and wrote the songs. He feels it was a natural progression for him from song writing to poetry.



Metered Dance

when the house lights dim
through the strobe flash
their faces seem comical
like a vintage movie scene

I try to watch my fingers
skittering the fret board
but only see
every other chord

almost becoming confused
and losing the beat
my voice high above
the clamor and crowd

this salutation caught
in mid flight
a black and white fury
in a psychedelic world

as the floor is lit
I look not at their eyes
staring above them
at some fixed sight

I announce the next song
and feedback the mike
embarrassedly starting
the lead in riff

red blue and purple
the stage hues glow
sending a fervency across
this wild swinging bunch

someone says she's here
I strain to catch glimpse
of the dark haired orphic
that comes to hear me sing

in the back standing
swaying to the sound
her long hair magic
I am God tonight.......

if it ain't rock and roll
it ain't got soul and if it ain't got soul
it's dead...








Poet, critic, and translator G. E. Patterson grew up along the Mississippi River and was educated in the mid-South, the Midwest, the Northeast, and the western United States.

His collections of poetry include the recently released To and From and his first book, Tug, winner of the Minnesota Book Award, published in 1999, by Greywolf Press, and source of the poem below.

His work has also appeared in numerous magazines and anthologies and his awards include fellowships from the Bread Loaf Writers Conference, Cave Canem, the Djerassi Foundation, the MacDowell Colony, and the Minnesota State Arts Board. After living in the Northeast and on the West Coast.

He now makes his home in Minnesota, where he teaches.



Fever

In the town where I lived when I was small
As soon as the snow melted they would come
The acrobats,the strong men and the half-tamed
Lions, their fur the color of my mother's skin
Girls who could dance on point on trotting horses
Inside a ring of curved wood painted yellow
Women with small beards pointed as a goat's

And rubber-men who had been born in India
Who could walk on the hands, stand on their heads
Wrap their feet around their necks with such ease
You'd start to scream and clap before they finished
Walking off stage on legs that had no bones
Hardly able to believe they were human
And everything you might imagine possible

From the distance of a three-dollar seat
You could watch the dancers twirl gracefully
Watch the red-coated, black-hatted man snap
A loud leather whip at the fierce and gentle
Lions, their mouths opened wide as your own
Bare and barrel-chested men raised their arms
To show you they didn't sweat lifting things
Much heavier than you would ever be

White-faced clowns with broad red smiles and yarn wigs
Every color of the rainbow but red
Would ram their small cars into one another
Would make water spurt from bright plastic flowers
Would bump bellies and honk horns and fall down
While you laughed, moaned and stuffed yourself with candy
You would not eat again until next year

And the night after you would spin in bed
Foreseeable restless, curling, uncurling
Imitating the strange aerialists
The thin, tight-clothed heroes of the high wire
Tucking and soaring, kicking you legs fiercely
In the darkness, perhaps kicking you mother
If she had come too close and felt the fever

That burned through you every year in the spring.








With a hurricane coming onto the Texas coast a while ago, weather was a big topic of discussion. This is the first of several poems I wrote that week on a weather theme.



dear god

Hurricane
Dolly is coming in
from the Gulf,
headed straight
toward Brownsville,
300 miles south
of here

she's
a small storm,
barely a hurricane,
too small to do
significant damage
down there,
but large enough
to push some good rain
up here

it's a tricky game
we play every dry summer,
praying,
dear God,
if you're not going
to give us rain any other way,
please
send us a hurricane,
either
a small one
or one that hits land
on the unpopulated coast
between
Port Mansfield
and
Riviera Beach

we'd prefer
you didn't kill anyone,
God,
but we'd be happy
to sacrifice
a few cows
for a good soaking
rain
to green our grass
and recharge
our aquifer

but
we'll leave the details
up to You








It's been a while since I've used a poem by Charles Bukowski, which is a little strange since he is one of my all-time favorites. In as much as I have a poetic model, Bukowski became mine when I read in a poem he wrote at Christmas for a prison inmate lines to the effect that his goal as a writer was to write the way he liked to read. It is the best advice to a writer I've ever read, advice I have tried very hard to follow every since.

Anyway, there's often a lot of pretentiousness in poetry and the grittiness of of Bukowski and his straight-ahead, no-holds-barred honesty about himself and everyone around him, including, often, the literary establishment of his time, is a huge relief.

This poem is from The Pleasures of the Damned, Poems: 1951-1993, probably the most complete of the many collections of his work published in the years after his death, including a number of poems from the very end of his life, as he continued to write knowing his end was near.

The irony of this dark poem is that Bukowski's greatest financial success was just ahead, not from his poetry but from movie rights to several of his novels, peaking during the years of his physical decline.



the tragedy of the leaves

I awakened to dryness and the ferns were dead,
the potted plants yellow as corn;
my woman was gone
and the empty bottles like bled corpses
surrounded me with their uselessness;
the sun was still good, though,
and my landlady's note cracked in fine and
undemanding yellowness; what was needed now
was a good comedian, ancient style, a jester
with jokes upon absurd pain; pain is absurd
because it exists, nothing more;
I shaved carefully with an old razor
the man who had once been young and
said to have genius; but
that's the tragedy of the leaves,
the dead ferns, the dead plants;
and I walked into a dark hall
where the landlady stood
execrating and final,
sending me to hell,
waving her fat, sweaty arms
and screaming
screaming for rent
because the world had failed us
both.








Now here's a elegant little piece from our friend Alice Folkart as she continues to find her place in her new home in Hawaii.

Alice notes that a poem, unlike a novel or the instructions for putting together a bicycle, can be written in very small chunks of time, in odd places. She says often "works" on her poems when paddling her yellow kayak in Kailua bay or walking through a coconut grove in a tropical downpour. She likes her words, she says, with a salty tang and a fresh breeze.



Isabella

Isabella is only five, but looks older, wiser,
maybe it's the hula discipline, or maybe it's because
her proud grandpa, her guardian,
is the crooner in the Hawaiian band
on Friday nights at Honey's in Ko'olau.

Isabella, round as a mouse,
regards me seriously with her black-olive eyes,
sizing me up, checking me out.

She brings her white plush cat
and her pink Barbie pocket book
over to my table, and stands and waits.

"Do you want to learn hula?" she asks.

Isabella is willing to teach me
if I am serious and listen carefully.
She leads me to a shadowed corner,
away from the stage lights and the bar.

We stand, facing each other, honoring each other,
she extends her arms straight ahead, all business,
points one foot in front of her and nods to me.

"Dance," she whispers as she begins to sway,
turns her head this way and that
following her lightly waving arms and hands with her bright eyes.

She glides left, then right.

She says, "Good. You can dance."

I am trying, stumbling in the wrong direction,
arms up instead of down, lacking humility,
aware of the other patrons' eyes on us,
thinking about my drink getting warm.

She whispers cues in Hawaiian, her home language.
I don't know what they mean, but follow.

This was a lesson I needed, and she knew it.
Such a perfect little teacher, such an old student.








Czeslaw Milosz was born on 1911 in Lithuania, which was then part of the Russian Empire as a result of the 18th-century Partitioned Polish-Lithuanian Commonwealth. Throughout his life, Milosz emphasized his identity with the multiethnic Grand Duchy of Lithuania, a stance that led to ongoing controversies. He refused to categorically identify himself as either a Pole or a Lithuanian. He once said of himself: "I am a Lithuanian to whom it was not given to be a Lithuanian."

Milosz immigrated to the United States in 1960 and from 1961 to 1978 was a professor of Slavic Languages and Literature at the University of California, Berkeley.

In 1980 he was awarded the Nobel Prize in Literature and continued to write until 2004 when he died.

These poems was taken from Selected Poems, 1931-2004, a collection of his poems from through his writing life. One is from early in his career, the other later.



Encounter

We were riding through frozen fields in a wagon at dawn.
A red wing rose in the darkness.

And suddenly a hare ran across the road.
One of us pointed to it with his hand.

That was long ago. Today neither of them is alive.
Not the hare, nor the man who made the gesture.

O my love, where are they, where are they going -
The flash of a hand, streak of movement, rustle of pebbles.
I ask not out of sorrow, but in wonder


Wilno, 1936


In Common

What is good? Garlic. A leg of lamb on a spit.
Wine with a view of boats rocking in a cove.
A starry sky in August. A rest on a mountain peak.

What is good? After a long drive water in a pool and a sauna.
Lovemaking and falling asleep, embraced, your legs touching hers.
Mist in the morning, translucent, announcing a sunny day.

I am submerged in everything that is common to us, the living.
Experiencing the earth for them, in my flesh.
Walking past the vague outline of skyscrapers? anti-temples?
In valleys of beautiful, though poisoned , rivers.








Here's another of my weather week poems.



hello Dolly

the eye
of the storm,
not as clearly defined
as when still
offshore,
is north of
Brownsville,
around the Port Mansfield
area further up the coast

the outer rings
extend south
well into Mexico,
while, in the north,
they are just past
Corpus Christi

the whole area,
as far west as Laredo,
will receive a foot
or more
of rain
which will stand
for days
on the flat coastal plains

as rain gets into
the western hill country
around Uvalde,
water draining
into the Nueces River
will take it over
its banks
as it approaches
first, Choke Canyon
Reservoir, then Lake
Corpus Christi,
both low now
from lack of rain,
they will serve their intended
purpose
of controlling flood waters
and storing water
for drier days


Falcon Lake
on the Rio Grande will do
the same, backed up
by the series of levees
that will drain any excess
released by Falcon Dam
directly into the Gulf
near Arroyo City

(i remember a much stronger
hurricane in the early sixties
that landed directly on the mouth
of the Rio Grande near Brownsville,
then followed the river
all the way to the Big Bend,
dropping massive rain
all along the way, leaving
levees sandbagged
and full
less than a mile
from my house - nothing
close to that will happen
this time)

here
in San Antonio
it was very still
early this morning
and there was a smell
of Gulf salt water,
blown away
by wind gusts since,
and now we wait
under a dark-clouded sky,
wind gusts alternating
with moments of complete still,
for the inch to two inches
of rain we hope to get
out of the storm;
we don't wish trouble
on others,
but we do know that,
as in all life,
for every loser
there is usually a winner
and, as we hope for the safety
of friends and family to the south,
we also hope that their misfortune
will bring the to us the fortune
of much-needed rain








As a 6 foot 4 inch 300 pound former Division 1 football star, Travis Watkins, winner of the National College Language Association Award for poetry, doesn't seem to fit the image of a stereotypical Spoken Word Poet.

Watkins spent 4 years as a starter and 2 year team captain of the University of Kansas football team, where he was honored as a finalist for the District V Academic All-American Team, before graduating with honors in U.S. History and African American Studies in 2005. "While attending university, he also managed to find time to volunteer as a mentor to "at-risk" youth at VanGo Mobile Arts, while making a name for himself as a dynamic up and coming performance poet.

The next poem is from Watkins' first book, My Fear is 4 U, published in 2006 by Layman Lyric Productions.



I Can't Call It

I said,
Hey, what's up man?

Rent, interest, crude oil and inflation
Unemployment, poverty and black incarceration
Pollution, destitution and deforestation
Church membership....and church molestation.
But beside that I'm cool man,
How you man?

I said I'm cool too man, but what's really going down?
He said police batons on anything that's brown.
Young soldiers in Iraq and anything profound
Funding for education, and judgment that's sound.
But beside that I'm cool man,
How you man?

I said, I'm cool too man, but tell me how you livin'.
He said day to day off the scraps that I've been given.
Check to check, break my neck just to cop'a pot to piss in.
Tell it all to the wall, when you all wouldn't listen.
But beside that I'm cool man,
How you man?

I said I'm cool to man but damn...
What's really good?
He said...

I can't tell it.


Spring '04








Here's a witty piece from another friend, Jim Fowler.

Jim lives in Massachusetts, has eight grand kids. He says he wants to retire, write poetry, garden, play tennis, cook and write some more poetry.



Beelzebub's Journey

In the Midwestern town of West Fargo,
the winter winds shook a dark cargo,
Beelzebub and his red wagon.
It was headed East with the Devil's beast,
a green komodo dragon.

It wasn't only strange thing
the Devil did bring
on this trip to a far-away coven.
A medusa so big, it's arms wrapped the rig.
It was the dark king's terrible omen.

The coven cheered and clapped,
for the dragon had napped,
after eating the medusa from Hades.
And didn't bite, with all of his might,

the coven's tender Goth ladies.








Born in 1942, Gladys Cardiff is related to the Owl family of the Eastern Cherokees of North Carolina. Born in Montana, she moved to Washington and attended the University of Washington. She has participated in the Poets-in-the-Schools program. Her work has appeared in numerous journals and anthologies and her first book, a chapbook, To Frighten a Storm won the 1976 Washington State governor's Award for a first book of poetry. Her most recent book is A Bare Unpainted Table published in 1999.

This poem is from Harper's Anthology of 20th Century Native American Poetry published in 1988.



Tsa'lagi Council Tree

This is a story my father told me
when I was a little girl.

Hilahi',long ago,
before the whites,
hilahi'yu, long, long ago
in buckskin days,
the old men and women of the people
met at the place of the Principal Wood.
The elders held council,
some sitting in the branches
of this u'tanu ata'ya.

They smoked the old tobacco
in a whitestone pipe.
The pipe had seven bores, one for each.
They spoke of many mysteries
and matters of law
words that were pleasing to all
who heard them.
Here, trails from every direction met.
Tsa'nadiska, they say
the rustling leaves sang green enchantments,
red and yellow songs,
reminding always to honor ela e'ladi,
the earth below, the place of roots.

Now we burn the wood of oak trees,
and do not believe that bugle weed
will necessarily make our children
eloquent. But this is what the old man
said to him when he was a boy,
hilahi', hilahiyu, long ago.








Now, the last of the hurricane poems. (Until the next one.)



rainy day thursday

for a while
it looked like
the city's rain shield

was holding strong
as the streets stayed dry
despite the smell of rain

and skies the color
of pencil lead and swirling
winds and a tornado watch

for the city and thirteen
surrounding counties,
but the clouds finally

broke open and the rain
started and sitting here
at Ruta Maya i can look

out on the street and watch
the rain fall and puddles form
and splash as cars and buses

push through them, carrying
people to where
they have

to go
while i enjoy the pleasure
of not having to go

anywhere
but right here
right now

and for some reason
i think back
nearly fifty years

to when
i worked college
summers

on a power line
construction crew
and we were pulled

from our construction project
of the day
to do a repair job

out in the country
near the Rio Grande
where a small tornado

had blown down several trees
and one of our poles,
taking the line and a transformer

down with it -
we sat in the truck,
watching the rain come down

in sheets,
pounding like
Indian drums

on the crew cab,
while we waited for radio confirmation
that the line was dead,

one of many safety
procedures followed
on the job, all easy to remember

as all safety training
was conducted by one-armed
former linemen

who had lost
a pole-top encounter
with a live line they assumed

was dead -
we worked in the rain that afternoon
the linemen up on the new pole

while me and the other grunts
worked on the ground
digging anchor holes and watching

for rattlesnakes
often washed up out of their nests
in this kind of rain -

the rain
splashing down on Soledad Street
offers a more restrained type of

age
appropriate
excitement








Speaking of love poems, I have these very passionate poems by Francisco X. Alarcon from his book De Amor Oscuro, published by Moving Parts Press. The poems in the book are in Spanish with translations to English by Francisco Aregon.

Alarcon is a poet and educator, author of ten volumes of poetry and recipient of 1993 American Book Award, the 1993 PEN Oakland Josephine Miles Award, and the 1984 Chicano Literary Prize. In April 2002 he received the Fred Cody Lifetime Achievement Award from the Bay Area Book Reviewers Association. He was one of the three finalists nominated for the state poet laureate of California. Alarcon was also awarded the 1997 Pura Belpre Honor Award by the American Library Association and the National Parenting Publications Gold Medal. He also received 2002 Pura Belpre Honor Award, Danforth and Fulbright fellowships, 1998 Carlos Pellicer-Robert Frost Poetry Honor Award by the Third Binational Border Poetry Contest, Ciudad Juárez, Chihuahua.

Alarcon's poems are number titled.



I

there has never been a sun for this love,
like a crazed flower it buds in the dark,
is at once a crown of thorns and
a garland of spring around the temples

a fire, a wound, the bitterest fruit,
but also a breeze and water-source,
a bite to the soul - your breath,
a treetrunk in the current - your chest

make me walk over turbid waters,
be the ax that breaks this lock,
the dew that weeps from trees

it I become mute kissing your thighs
it's that my heart is eagerly searching
your flesh for a new dawning


My Spanish is limited to nonexistent, but I enjoy the music of the language and can tell that this poem, as is often the case, reads better in Spanish than in English. So, rather than post another poem in another English translation, I decided, for the pleasure of Spanish-speaking readers, to post this same poem in its original Spanish.


1

para este amor nunca ha habido sol,
como loca flor, en lo oscuro brota,
es, a la vez, corona de espinas y
guirnalda de primavera en la sien

fuego, herida y amarguisimo fruto,
pero tambien brisa y manantial,
una mordida al alma: tu aliento,
un tronco en la corriente: tu pecho

hazma caminar sobre el agua turbia,
se el hacha que rompa este candado,
el rocio que haga llorar los arboles

si mudo quedo al besar tus muslos
es que mi corazon con afan busca
entre tu carne un nuevo amanecer








Next, from "Here and Now' friend Shawn Nacona Stroud is a poem that previously appeared in the Spring 2007 issue of Mississippi Crow Magazine.

Other work by Shawn has appeared in the Crescent Moon Journal, Loch Raven Review, The Poetry Worm, and, frequently, right here in "Here and Now." His work has also appeared in the poetry anthologies Poetry Pages Vol. IV and Poetry From The Darkside Vol. 2 and was recently nominated for the Pushcart Prize for 2008.



Shadows

Each evening our shadows escape,
the sun lowers, and they steal
away under the cover of night.
I have seen mine
in those last moments, elongated,
trailing along behind me.
Then I turn around,
and he is gone. He unfastened
the Velcro that connects us
hands and feet, and slipped
off down the street.
I came upon them,
one midnight walk in South Beach.
Leaving the world of neon
and pastel hotels behind me -
I stepped off the bike path,
my feet sinking in white sand,
and saw them all congregated
with their own kind.
They pretended to be us
as they walked along the beach.
Two sat on the steps
of the lifeguard shack smoking,
and I saw shadows bobbing
like corks in the ocean.
I walked towards the waters edge,
and felt myself fading
as I slowly became one of them.








Deborah Garrison was born in 1965 in Ann Arbor, Michigan. For fifteen years, she worked on the editorial staff of The New Yorker and is now the poetry editor Alfred A. Knopf and a senior editor at Pantheon Books. She lives with her husband and three children in Montclair, New Jersey.

My poem this week is from Garrison's first book, A Working Girl Can't Win, first published in 1998. Single and living in New York City when she wrote her first book, she is now married and the mother of three children. Her recently released second book, A Second Child, speaks to those new experiences.



The Warning

I found out, by accident, about
something you'd done to your wife,
soon to be ex.

You raged at me,
said of a lot of things
you didn't mean, like
"All men are shits. Women
just have to deal with it."
I said, "This isn't the worst crime
mankind has been know to commit."
You told me if I ever breathed a word -
as though I would!

You wouldn't remember,
but you were a glamorous figure,
the beleaguered young father,
telling me at the coffee machine
that we twenty-four-year-olds had no idea...
You were only thirty-six.
But that was old to me then.
Once you told me about your tenth
anniversary: walking home from dinner
together, you'd reflected that the marriage
was dead. didn't like each other
one bit, or so you said
you'd said.

I remember telling my husband about it
in bed. What was he trying to prove?
he asked. I wondered, too,
but you stayed in my head -
baring the tarnished honors
of your sexual rank to instruct me,
and the picture of you and her
not holding hands, discussing
your mutual dislike like a savings bond
you'd cash if things
got worse. It was the kind of uncalled-for
honesty that's nearly antisocial,
but momentarily seems the only thing
that's real - you, fuck the rest
of them who never say what they feel.

A critique of conversation between
men and women a token
of adult respect:
you couldn't know how I clung to it,
replaying it mentally on our anniversaries,
silently thanking you
when it wasn't true of us yet.








Enough sunshine and happiness, here's the last for the week, a darker piece I wrote last week.



travel voucher

the couple
at the next table
are talking to a travel

agent
about a cruise -
they're about my age

and it's clear
she's more enthusiast
than he -

it sounds a lot
like the
cruise

we had talked about,
leaving from England,
then traveling around

the Mediterranean,
visiting along the way
in Italy, Sicily, Spain
and Gibraltar -

it sounds
like a great trip
and we're still talking

but the more we talk
the more i think
about all the places

in this country
we've never been,
New England

in autumn,
the great lakes,
those big sky states

on the northern border
Montana, Wyoming,
North and South Dakota,

even the plains states
Kansas, Iowa,
all that flat land

and silos
against the sun
and wide horizons

(at one point
a much younger me
had a sponsor

for the University of Iowa
writing program, but fed up
with GI Bill poverty, i passed,

a drive through Iowa would be
a chance to see some of what i
missed.)

and how much of it
we could see
at our own time and pace

with the same money
as nine days
on a boat

would cost,
but it's not about money,
it's about coming

to that time
in your life when
you realize

you have more money
than time
and that you'll probably

die
with money left over
but no time in the bank

and you realize
that
age

may not bring wisdom
but
for certain

a whole new
set
of priorities

arrives as you see
your own time line shortening
and the hole

they've been digging
for you
since your moment

of birth
yawning wider and darker
every new day








That's it for this week. Hope to see everybody back here at the ol' poetry ranch next week.

Until then, remember, all of the work presented on this blog remains the property of its creators; the blog itself was produced by and is the property of me...allen itz.

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