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Friday, November 06, 2009
 IV.11.1
Before we get to the business at hand, I want to let "Here and Now" readers know that the blog will be taking a break for a week or two.
I've had manuscripts for two new books completed, edited, and proofed for six months and have been using the several hours a day I spend on "Here and Now" as an excuse for not taking the next step and doing something with the books. So, that's what I'll be doing the next week or two. I should be back on my weekly "Here and Now" schedule before the end of the month.
Now, as to this week, the goodies start with pictures by my son, Chris Itz.
Chris is shown in the photo above and in the last photo in this issue, both taken by his friends. He is an avid backcountry hiker and cammper, partial to deserts and/or mountains. A couple of weeks ago, he and a friend, treked for several days in the Guadalupe Mountains, right on the Texas-New Mexico border. They stopped at Carlsbad Caverns on their way home, where Chris became fascinated by the way light and shadows played on the cavern's formations. What we have from Chris this week are a couple of his pictures from the trail, several sun up/sundown pictures (the different cloud formations against the rising/falling sun - another fascination we share) and a bunch of images from inside the cavern.
I hope you enjoy the tour.
On the poetry end of the stick, here's out lineup this week.
Issa 18 Haiku
Me time traveler
Elizabeth Seydel Morgan Ways We Come Apart The Settlement
Dan Cuddy Vampire Wine
Sharon Olds The Elder Sister
Marge Piercy The woman in ordinary
Me one chance
Jane Kenyon February: Thinking of Flowers Mud Season
Dan Cuddy An Abstract Poem On the Vanishing
Herman Asarnow curves
Jose Hernando Chaves Politics Doris Day Died
Steve Conway The Song About Astro Man Flying Higher Than That Ole Superman
Me it was an emergency, officer
Deborah Digges Tombs of the Muses
Dan Cuddy Lyrics to the Atonal Naturelle Anthem Said Not Stirred
Wilfred Owen The Last Laugh SIW
Me having been told to mind my own business, i desist
Dan Cuddy Drizzle
Me the cheatin' kind
David St. John Last Night, With Rafaella
Me six by six by ten
 Photo by Chris Itz
I begin this week with haiku from The Sound of Water, published by Shambhala in 1995. The book includes a number of the classic poets, all translated by Sam Hamill. I chose this week to use poems by Issa.
Issa was born in 1762. His mother died when he was an infant and he lived in conflict with his stepmother until he left home at fourteen. He lived in poverty for twenty years until returning upon his father's death in 1801. Though named principal heir in his father's will, his stepmother and half brother were able to keep his property from him for another thirteen years. Even then, his troubles weren't over. He married a young village woman, who later died after the death of all five of his children. And then his house burned down.
Finally, four years before he died, he married again and eventually had a baby daughter, born shortly before his death in 1826.
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After a long nap, the cat yawns, rises, and goes out looking for love
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The new year arrived in utter simplicity - and a deep blue sky
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The blossoming plum! Today all the fires of hell remain empty
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In the midst of this world we stroll along the roof of hell gawking at flowers
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Give me a homeland, and a passionate woman, and winter alone
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A world of dew and within every dewdrop a world of struggle
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Under this bright moon I sit like an old buddha knees spread wide
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From that woman on the beach, dusk pours out across the evening waves
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The old dog listens intently, as if to the worksongs of the worms
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I wish she were here to listen to my bitching and enjoy this moon
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What's the lord's vast wealth to my, his millions and more? Dew on trembling grass
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Here in Shinano are famous moons, and buddhas, and our good noodles
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My old village lies far beyond what we can see, but there the lark is singing
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My dear old village, every memory of home pierces like a thorn
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A faint yellow rose almost hidden in deep grass - and then it moves
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People working fields, from my deepest heart, I bow. Now a little nap.
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Just beyond the gate, a neat yellow hole - someone pissed in the snow
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Mother, I weep for you as I watch the sea each time I watch the sea
 Photo by Chris Itz
Struggling with daylight savings time again, going on it or going off it, whichever usually happens in October.
time traveler
went into Jim's Diner this morning for breakfast, two eggs over easy, 3 pieces extra crispy bacon, two slices wheat toast dry, uncut, and six cups of coffee, while reading the Sunday paper, then left ten minutes before i had arrived
for one exhilarating moment i thought i had achieved the dream of every sifi-addicted adolescent
the dream second only to the one about finding the secret of invisibility after which no girls' dressing room would be closed to me
the dream of...
time-travel!!!!!
but then i remembered that damn daylight savings time
nothing to do now but wait for the world to catch up with me
 Photo by Chris Itz
Here are two poems by Elizabeth Seydel Morgan, from her book Parties published in 1988 by the Louisiana State University Press.
Morgan, born in 1939 was the 2007 Louis D. Rubin, Jr. Writer-in-Residence in the Hollins University MFA Creative Writing program. She is the author of four books of poetry, including On Long Mountain, a finalist for the Library of Virginia Poetry Prize in 1998. Recently awarded the Carole Weinstein Poetry Prize, Morgan also won the Emily Clark Balch Award from The Virginia Quarterly Review for her fiction, and the Governor's Award for Screenwriting at the Virginia Film Festival.
Ways We Come Apart
"At the seams" suggests a remedy: a stitch in time might save us.
Growing apart is sadder, so slow, so gradual it can slip your attention the way the Earth never jerks itself out from under your feet, yet moves, is moving right now, away from where you think it stands.
Falling apart can appear to be a pair of skydivers waving across the air. Or you can hear it: the clunk of parts and bolts shearing off a junkyard car.
But that's not true enough to what I know you mean.
It's not just in your head where your thoughts skip and drop like rocks in a slide. But the satellite's fragments are due in our streets. Your mother fell and cracked her hip. Your husband's dark eyes split into glittering shards.
As you tell me why, you knock my glass off the table, stand there crying like a girl over pieces at your feet.
The Settlement
It was so silent after my raucous children had scrambled into their father's car and his tires ground out the gravel drive, I leaned for a moment against the screen door, waiting for small breaking sounds like those that crack the quiet of winter woods.
Nothing snapped. A warm breeze carried the call of mourning doves across the yard, the rising notes of someone calling Celia in to dinner.
I walked out over the new grass to the white azaleas tall as I am, plunged my hands through the blossoms into the woody interior, grasped two branches brittle as old wrists and broke them.
Walking back to the house I held the hundred flowers against my breast.
 Photo by Chris Itz
Next, I have the first of four poems this week by our friend Dan Cuddy.
Dan, a frequent contributor to "Here and Now," is an editor at the Loch Raven Review. His book of poems, Handprint On The Window, was published in 2003 by Three Conditions Press. He has had poems published in many magazines and small journals over the years, most recently in Manorborn and the online journal Praxilla. He lives in Baltimore, Maryland.
Vampire Wine
the label read "Vampire" a merlot as sweet as blood but blood is not sweet it's just the heart's thing to pump and if it is sucked out the heart is low and dry a boat on Bay of Fundy mud
love drinks wine gets intoxicated chit-chats bits of bric-a-brac and cool conversation masking the heat beneath the clothes that want to come off and lie like a heart body sucked out
love toasts itself two vampires in the bite of night screeching like bats howling like wolves moaning like two people without a mind
love has such drama
the "ever after" an empty bottle with just a label
romantics are monsters
 Photo by Chris Itz
My next two poems are from a textbook, Literature and It's Writers, third edition, published by Bedford/St. Martin's in 2004.
The first of the poems is by Sharon Olds. Olds was born in 1942 in San Francisco. She grew up in Berkeley and studied in Massachusetts before returning to California for her university studies at Sanford. She later moved to New York and studied for her Ph.D. at Columbia University. She taught creative writing at New York University beginning in the mid-1980s and, from 1989 to 1991, was director of the Graduate Creative Writing Program. During this same period, she started a creative writing program for the severely disabled at New York's Goldwater Hospital, as well as serving as New York State Poet.
The Elder Sister
When I look at my elder sister now I think how she had to go first, down through the birth canal, to force her way head-first through the tiny channel, the pressure of Mother's muscles on her brain, the tight walls scraping her skin. Her face is still narrow from it, the long hollow cheeks of a Crusader on a tomb, and her inky eyes have the look of someone who has been in prison a long time and knows they can send her back. I look at her body and think how her breasts were the first to rise, slowly, like swans on a pond. By the time mine came along, they were just two more birds in the flock, and when the hair rose on the white mound of her flesh, like threads of water out of the ground, it was the first time, but when mine came they knew about it. I used to think only in terms of her harshness, sitting and pissing on me in bed, but now I see I had her before me always like a shield. I look at her wrinkles, her clenched jaws, her frown lines - I see they are the dents on my shield, the blows that did not reach me. She protected me, not as a mother protects a child, with love, but as a hostage protects the one who makes her escape as I made my escape, with my sister's body held in front of me.
The second poem from Literature and Its Writers is by Marge Piercy. Born in 1936 in Detroit, where her father was employed as an installation worker by Westinghouse and her mother was the daughter of a union activist murdered for his efforts at organizing workers, Piercy had a difficult adolescence, including a severe attack of rheumatic fever which left her physically weakened. She began writing as a teenager and, with the help of scholarships and prizes, graduated from the University of Michigan in 1957, then obtaining an M.A. a year later. In the 1960s, she married for the second time and she and her husband became committed to a communal lifestyle and the protest movement against the Vietnam War and U.S. involvement in Latin American.
The woman in the ordinary
The woman in the ordinary pudgy downcast girl is crouching with eyes and muscles clenched. Round and pebble smooth she effaces herself under ripples of conversation and debate. The woman in the block of ivory soap has massive thighs that neigh, great breasts that blare and strong arms that trumpet. The woman of the golden fleece laughs uproariously from the belly in the girl who imitates a Christmas card virgin with glued hands, who fishes for herself in other's eyes, who stoops and creeps to make herself smaller. In her bottled up is a woman peppery as curry, a yam of a woman of butter and brass, compounded of acid and sweet like a pineapple, like a hand gernade set to explode, like goldenrod ready to bloom.
 Photo by Chris Itz
Unlike many people, I have the means and opportunity to imagine alternate futures. But in the end, like Popeye, I yam what I yam and all the alternatives seem unlikely.
one chance
i'm lucky enough to have the luxury of thinking about other lives i might someday lead
thinking about different places and different lives and the different person i would certainly be with such lives in such different places
day dreaming
even as i know i am what i will ever be in this place that will ever be my home
even as i know one chance is all we get in the limited days of our lives
and i have made my choices
 Photo by Chris Itz
As we edge into winter on my half of the world, here are two poems about the edging out by Jane Kenyon, from her book The Boat of Quiet Hours, published by Graywolf Press in 1986.
Kenyon was born in 1947 in Ann Arbor, Michigan, and grew up in the Midwest. She earned a B.A. from the University of Michigan in 1970 and an M.A. in 1972. She won a Hopwood Award at Michigan. Also, while a student at the University of Michigan, Kenyon met and married the poet Donald Hall, moving with him to Eagle Pond Farm, his ancestral home in New Hampshire, where she was later named New Hampshire's poet laureate. She served in that position until she died from leukemia in April 1995.
February: Thinking of Flowers
Now wind torments the field, turning the white surface back on itself, back and back on itself, like an animal licking a wound.
Nothing but white - the air, the light; only one brown milkweed pod bobbing in the gully, smallest brown boat on the immense tide.
A single green sprouting thing would restore me....
Then think of the tall delphinium, swaying, or the bee when it comes to the tongue of the burgundy lily.
Mud Season
Here in purgatory bare ground is visible, except in shady places where snow prevails.
Still, each day sees the restoration of another animal: a sparrow, just now a sleepy wasp; and, at twilight, the skunk pokes out of the den, anxious for mates and meals...
On the floor of the woodshed the coldest imaginable ooze, and soon the first shoots of asparagus will rise, the fingers of lazarus...
Earth's open wounds - where the plow gouged the ground last November - must be smoothed; some sown with seed, and all forgotten.
Now the nuthatch spurns the suet, resuming its diet of flies, and the mesh bag, limp and greasy, might be taken down.
Beside the porch step the crocus prepares an exaltation of purple, for the moment holds its tongue....
 Photo by Chris Itz
Here's our second poem for this week by Dan Cuddy.
An Abstract Poem On the Vanishing
After the ooze, the stink The crumble Of pleasure and thought Absence Is the truth of it
It That neutered pronoun Without a subject To personify The verb To be
Though Even it Is not Except as a dust Of molecules Simplified And returned In dumb form to air, water, earth
And the life Of history The real life Flesh, blood Orgasm, agony Is the proverbial dust That the mystics And magicians Eschew Absence Now and forever
The realm of angels Is the imagination The hopes and fears Of the vulnerable Solidity That moves through space Humiliated In the triumph Of naked Faith
 Photo by Chris Itz
Here are several poems from the Summer 2001 issue of Rattle.
The first of the poems is by Herman Asarnow.
Arsanow earned his bachelors degree in English at Trinity College in 1972; his masters degree in English with emphasis in Creative Writing at the University of Denver in 1974; and his Ph.D. in English, with emphasis in Eighteenth-Century British literature, also at the University of Denver in 1981.
He has published one book, Glass Bottom Boat and appears frequently in literary journals and anthologies. He also writes scholarly papers on the works and career of Alexander Pope, and translations of the poetry of Spanish/Argentine poet Noni Benegas. He began teaching at the University of Portland in 1979 and is currently Chair of the English Department.
Curves
I - Around the Curve, 1968
Before I knew anything about women, I lay in the grass on top of a cliff thinking - if only I could summon her simply by wishing! Afternoon almost passed when I stood, peered over the edge, saw her walking to me up the road, around the curve.
I was Aladdin the first time caressing the lamp, thinking like never before or since - So this is what it is to be a man!
II - Her Curves, 1999
Even now I wouldn't know whether just to marvel at it - as it spread wide and back with the slight downward turn in the corners that's inexplicably rare and beautiful - or do whatever I could to kiss it, take it into me somehow, beauty white yet also warm, joyful extra openness, those curves at the corners of her smile!
III - Time's Curves, 1946
Pierre Bonnard painted his wife's curves the same for forty years. What first took his breath made memory, bent time. What changed was not what he saw
but craft: pose, light, color, balance of brush as he laid pigment on canvas, and the angle - no, the point of the ever-arcing curve - from which he looked.
The next poem from Rattle is by Jose Hernando Chaves, who was living in Bogota, Columbia when his poem was published, on a Fulbright, putting together an anthology of Latin American prose poems.
Politics
What did I do to deserve a day full of clouds, threatening to drown me under their oppressive gray beards? A day when even the traffic encroaches like a murder of crows, as you take shelter in a small cafe, unaware the coffee has conspired with the cup to overthrow gravity and take refuge in the embassy of your lap. A waitress tries to quell the flames of revolution with a wet towel, but crushes you nether region in a painful coup that will last for days.
As you sit and think, how you've always hated politics, but knew one day they'd find you.
The next poem from the Summer 01 issue of Rattle is by David Hovan Check. I haven't been able to find any biography of Check online.
Doris Day Died
She didn't really die It was just a dream A firm release of apprehension That would blast itself Onto all the major networks On a 24-hour basis and never let me stop sobbing "Que Sera, Sera" Till every last tear let go Of the memory of a purity, an image, A life that can never be. Rock Hudson could tell ya.
And for my last piece from Rattle, I have this piece by Steve Conway. Originally from Providence Rhode Island, had been a law clerk for 42 years at the time his poem was published and, after just completing a motorcycle trip all around the U.S., was returning to Providence to work as a paralegal.
That Song About Astro Man Flying Higher Than That Ole Superman
inspired many a sixties & seventies freak to be a rip-roaring high-flyer w. no cape ah yeah you gave em wings the generation that flew higher than birds w. out feathers floating on the freest wind a guitar string could cut into the diamond mine of a human being so far into psychedelic sky you were to many people w. in earshot of your songs the greatest mother pluckin finger pickin genius whoever evolved from the primordial ooze of the blues a warrior w. a whammy bar & wha wha pedal who put a fresh twist on an old anthem for a generation determined to change the world by marching for peace attempting to correct injustice a powerful statement the rockets red glare & bombs bursting thru your fender heads & marshall amps stacked up over that ocean of mud & trash left behind causing me to think it may have been an omen in retrospect it brings my heart floating up into my throat choking on a sea of forgotten teardrops it makes my lips quiver & eyes glaze over filling everyone w. pride when they hear that loose rendition of purple haze leading into the frances scott key song that played for over one hundred yrs. before it cut into the very soul of America
 Photos by Chris Itz
Try explaining this to your local highway patrol trooper.
it was an emergency, officer
so i'm heading home from my afternoon coffee den, turning on Hildebrand from San Pedro, when Dee calls, just home from a couple of days in Houston on business, and says Reba's going nuts, talk to her, so i say prrrrrreeeety Reba, goooooood girl, preeeety baby, goooood puppy, and she runs to the door looking for me, calm now, sure i'm right outside and will be walking though the door soon, and Dee says, thanks, get yourself something to eat on the way home, i'm too tired to eat, and i say OK and head for Popeye's to pick up a couple pieces, dark meat, spicy, and i'm thinking as i load my drumsticks into the car, thinking what i would say to the police officer after he pulled me over, i know, officer, i would say, i know i shouldn't be talking on my cell while i'm driving, but it was an emergency, officer,
i needed to talk to my dog
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Here's a poem by Deborah Digges from her book, Rough Music, published by Alfred A Knopf in 1996.
Digges was born in Missouri in 1950. She received degrees from the University of California and the University of Missouri, as well as an M.F.A from the Iowa Writer's Workshop.
She is the author of four books of poetry including Rough Music, winner of the Kingsley Tufts Prize, and most recently Trapeze in 2005. Her first book, Vesper Sparrows, won the Delmore Schwartz Memorial Prize from New York University. She has also written two memoirs, Fugitive Spring and The Stardust Lounge.
Digges received grants from the John Simon Guggenheim Foundation, the National Endowment for the Arts, and the Ingram Merrill Foundation and taught in the graduate writing divisions of New York, Boston, and Columbia Universities. She lived in Massachusetts, where she was a professor of English at Tufts University until she died in 2009.
Tombs of the Muses
fucking up the world's the least of it - I'd say they're fourteen or fifteen who take their time preparing the underpass's south wall, the whole a mildew-black rotunda seeping the spray of a million tires. From the harbor drifts in fish-stink that bleeds green from the dome, and a protein smell like old books, and the smell of the river thawing. Beyond us Boston's abandoned train cars junk the sunrise, all the windows dark tongues spilling asbestos, the space inside noxious even the cops steer clear, even the dealers. But not the boys, enough of the child in their truant voices I could weep - the way you see them sometimes scaling a playground's chain-links - enough of the man I keep a distance. They're mixing something like a fresco plaster, sand, some kitchen flour into a latex base they stole, they brag to me, from a church basement. Now over the obscenities, over the characters of wild dogs, gangsters, over the names, a thousand signatures, at least - over my own son's maybe - they balance on a car door riding rat-chewed coach seats, they roller-spread a sky. One of them walks it off ten feet, ten paces, as the shaman must have at a sacred cave's entrance. So they begin their elegy for a friend dead of an overdose. I ask of what. One throws a bottle at the wall. They laugh, man, everything... Through the rush hour traffic like the gods roaring above us and the dice throws of commuters thinning on the Pike, such a thing takes shape by their own hands, spray-painted, many colored. An epitaph of sweeps and angles builds a face whose blue black rasta braided hair's bandanaed, so many earrings in his ears they can't remember. Yet one of them knows where to make a moon in each dark eye, and then the real moon behind him above a skyline bowered in red and yellow garlands, maybe marigolds, geraniums, chrysanthemums and roses - city flowers. Why not put it on canvas? I call from the other world, from a locked car, my windows half-way up, key in the ignition. By the hissing, by the first flaring of their igniting cans, I can see how the boys grant me the dignity of their contempt, the tracks between us, however shattered, still begging a deliverance, littered as they are with home-made bongs and free base lids, rolling papers, bent syringes. They'd grant us all, in fact, our own colliding destinies for what they're worth, for all they mean, for what they will and won't reveal beyond this April morning - now another difficult birthing, snow in the streets, and a childhood blow by blow. Now the prayer that on another day seemed actually to bring a loved one home like a fist through the door by the only light of earth. Now the hammer smashing window after window. And then the boys are done, they stop, no dates. Just a looping line they say was his best rap, and light a cigarette, one for the next. At last they sign the dead one's tag for him and then, below, their own: Chek, Alert, Sparo, Abuze, Atone - each name a tomb in which their spirit rots, transmigrates, disappears, but not before their cans explode like pistol shots, rain fire.
 Photo by Chris Itz
And now, the third piece by our friend Dan Cuddy.
Lyrics to the Atonal Naturelle Anthem Said Not Stirred
the declaration of dependence dawns in the lights early tweet and the end or save my own butt justifies the means and mean politicians are what we need no more heart-wringing liberales doing the taco mama on polite society so sez Rrrrush the gush and Boris Passthewick as he smokes loco weed on the Siberian steppes all covered with ice melting like the wicked witch of the west a melting bank account to go with her seasick sea serpent green constitutional amendment to let fetuses unionize and scream at Herr Doctor Who? you you idiot reading the obituaries and surprised not to find your own name squashed among so many like a Congressional Record printed ad infinitum oh, the out of control only exclamations embody the just and proper reaction oh or the palindrome oh ho said 39 times and salt thrown over the left shoulder to season one's rear view with the deteriorating sidewalk and monkey shoe the alligators seeing each other later the shoes tied and the light trembling on the polished toes
 Photo by Chris Itz
And now, here are a couple of war-poems by Wilfred Owen, battlefield poet and, in the end, victim of the First World War, killed in the fighting a week before the war's end in November 1918.
The Last Laugh
"O Jesus Christ! I'm hit," he said; and died. Whether he vainly cursed, or prayed indeed. The Bullets chirped - In vain! vain! vain! Machine-guns chuckled - Tut-tut! Tut-tut! And the Big Guns guffawed.
Another sighed - "O Mother, mother! Dad!" Then smiled, at nothing, childlike, being dead. And the lofty Shrapnel-cloud Leisurely gestures - Fool! And the falling splinters tittered
"My love" one moaned, Love-languid seemed his mood. till, slowly lowered, his whole face kissed the mud. and the Bayonets' long teeth grinned; Rabbles of Shells hooted and groaned; And the Gas hissed.
(The title of this next poem was, maybe still is, military abbreviation for "Self Inflicted Wound.")
S.I.W.
I The Prologue
Patting goodbye, doubtless they told the lad He'd always show the Hun a brave man's face; Father would sooner him dead than in disgrace - Was proud to see him going, ay, and glad. Perhaps his mother whimpered; how she'd fret Until he got a nice safe wound to nurse. Sisters would wish girls too could shoot, charge, curse; Brothers - would send his favorite cigarette. Each week, month after month, they wrote the same, Thinking him sheltered in some Y.M. Hut, Because he said so, writing on his butt Where once an hour a bulled missed its aim And misses teased the hunger of his brain. His eyes grew old with wincing, and his hand Reckless with ague. Courage leaked, as sand From the best sandbags after years of rain. But never leave, would, fever, trench-foot, shock, Untrapped the wretch. And death seemed still withheld For torture of lying machinall shelled, At the pleasure of this world's Powers who'd run amok,
He'd seen men shoot their hands, on night patrol. Their people never knew. Yet they were vile.
"Death sooner than dishonor, that's the style!" So Father said.
II The Action
One dawn, our wire patrol Carried him. This time, Death had not missed. We could do nothing but wipe his bleeding cough. Could it be accident? - Rifles go off... Not sniped? No. (Later they found the English ball.)
III The Poem
It was the reasoned crisis of his soul Against more days of inescapable thrall. Against infrangibly wired and blind trench wall Curtained with fire, roofed with creeping fire. Slow grazing fire, that could not burn him whole But kept him for death's promises and scoff And life's half-promising, and both their riling.
IV The Epilogue
With him they buried the muzzle his teeth had kissed, And truthfully wrote the Mother, "Tim died smiling."
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There are several bosses in my house, of whom I am not one.
having been told to mind my own business, i desist
i was speaking to our calico yesterday about her exercise habits - seems she does nothing but sleep on my bed and eat these days -
and i notice in the course of our discussion that she has developed a rather large butt, suitable i'm sure for a dignified lady of her age and station well past the mousing stage
so it's all OK i suppose and maybe i should not expect her to be moving her creaky old bones so much any more
that's her opinion, at any rate, communicated to me through the icy stare of her one good eye
 Photo by Chris Itz
And here's our last poem for the week by Dan Cuddy.
Drizzle
pervading drizzle
not news really not anything to make a note about
certainly nothing to rhapsodize
nothing to idle away the minutes postpone the getting ready to leave
nothing to soak in even if metaphorically
the type of morning when one wants to resign
the type of welcoming one dreams about masochistically
but here I am typing inanities about the morning's drizzle
it must be psychological pressure that releases this just like the barometric pressure releases that fine sprinkle of a day dampening
always that drizzle of introspective inertia oozing its entropy
that sounds too dramatic
inertia leaks out into my idle frenzy
I drizzle my soliloquy like Hamlet thunders his
the difference between being the "star" tragic though he is and an extra
at least Rosencrantz and what's his name had lines
I drizzle a force of nature introspecting a point of view leaking
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Change is not always easy for me.
the cheatin' kind
i've been skipping out on my old place where, for years, i went for my first morning coffee, where day after day, everyday, between 6 and 7 am i'd show up and they'd already have my coffee set up on my regular table and everyone would be greeting me with a smile and a good morning
instead, for a couple of weeks now, i've been going to a new place for my first morning coffee, a place where they bring my coffee to my regular table as soon as they see me walking in the door, and they greet me with a smile and a good morning...
and the coffee is much better there, and they have much better lighting and a nice view and WIFI and i get a 10% discount on breakfast because i'm old and...
i went back to my old regular place yesterday morning where i was treated like a hero back from the wars
i'm at my new regular place this morning
and it feels the same as if i was cheating on my wife
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The next poem is by David St. John, from his book Study for the World's Body, published by HarperCollins in 1994.
St. John was born in Fresno, California, in 1949, and educated at California State University, Fresno, where he received his B.A. In 1974, he received an M.F.A. from the University of Iowa. He is the author of six books of poetry. His awards include the Discover/The Nation prize, the James D. Phelan Prize, and the prix de Rome fellowship in literature. He has also received several National Endowment for the Arts Fellowships and a Guggenheim Fellowship. St. John previously taught at Oberlin College and The John Hopkins University and currently teaches in the English Department at University of Southern California, Los Angeles. He served for many years as poetry editor of The Antioch Review.
Last Night, With Rafaella
Last night, with Rafaella,
I sat at one of the outside tables At Rosati watching the ragazzi on Vespas Scream through the Piazza del Popolo
And talked again about changing my life,
Doing something meaningful - perhaps Exploring a continent or discovering a vaccine, Falling in love or over the white falls Of a dramatic South American river! - And Rafaella
Stroked the back of my wrist as I talked,
Smoothing the hairs until they lay as quietly As wheat before the old authoritarian wind.
Rafaella had just returned from Milano Where she'd supervised the Spring collection Of a famous, even notorious, young designer -
A man whose name brought tears to the eyes Of contessas, movie stars, and diplomats' wives Along the Via Condotti or the Rue Du Faubourg-St-Honore.
So I felt comfortable there, with Rafaella, Discussing these many important things, I mean The spiritual life, and my own Long disenchantment with the ordinary world.
Comfortable because I knew she was a sophisticated, Well-traveled woman, so impossible To shock. A friend who'd Often rub the opal on her finger so slowly
It made your mouth water,
The whole while telling you what it would be like To feel her tongue addressing your ear.
And how could I not trust the advice of a woman who, with the ball of her exquisite thumb, Carefully flared rouge along the white cheekbones Of the most beautiful women of the world?
Last night, as we lay in the dark, The windows of her bedroom open to the cypress, To the stars, to the wind knocking at those stiff Umbrella pines along her garden's edge, I noticed as she turned slowly in the moonlight
A small tattoo just above her hip bone -
It was a dove in flight or an angel with its Head tucked beneath its wing,
I couldn't tell in the shadows...
And as I kissed this new illumination of her body Rafaella said, Do you know how to tell a model? In fashion, they wear tattoos like singular beads Along their hips, but artists' models Wear them like badges against the daily nakedness, The way Celestine has above one nipple that Minute yellow bee and above The other an elaborate, cupped poppy...
I thought about this, Pouring myself a little wine and listening To the owls marking the distances, the geometries Of the dark. Rafaella's skin was Slightly damp as I ran my fingertip Along each delicate winged ridge of her Collarbone, running the harp length of ribs Before circling the shy angel...
And slowly, as the stars Shifted in their rack of black complexities above,
Along my shoulder, Rafaella's hair fell in coils,
Like the frayed silk of some ancient tapestry, Like the spun cocoons of the Orient - Like a fragile ladder
To some whole level of the breath.
Rome
 Photo by Chris Itz
I finish off the week with six little barkus, a form I invented and I love, not least because they're a surefire cure for writer's block.
6 by 6 by 10
thin girl sweeps dark hair curls across shy brown shoulders
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dreams lost remembered as a dread feel lurking in shadows
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soft slope of the singer's ass rises above her jeans
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old lady - small grocery bag held tight - crosses the street
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blue sky sliced into electric corridors by crackling wires overhead
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my red car soaks in autumn sun a transitory fireball

As I mentioned at the beginning of this post, "Here and Now" will be absent for the next couple of weeks, but we will be back.
Until we are, remember the "Here and Now" mantra - all the material included in this blog remains the property of its creators. The material produced exclusively by me is available to anyone who might want it, though I do expect to be credited and will hold my breath until my face turns blue if I'm not.
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Allen, a great issue. Congratulations to Dan. And especially to Chris, those sunset/sunrise photos are fabulous. And that last one, with Chris on the balancing rock - how'd he get up there?
I liked everything in this issue and had forgotten about Wilfred Owen - I remember in Jr High reading the 'war poets' (WWI) and crying over them, why did they have to die. Apparently being sensitive, talented, intelligent didn't protect one from bullets.
Lots of inspiration here. Thanks.
Alice
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